Just a quick update.
So far this summer hasn’t really been that fun. I really would like to just hang out with some friends, but no one back in my home town has been responding/they’re out of town/too busy. It’s been a bit frustrating. I got an awesome video game and I’ve been playing it a lot. Funny enough some of the characters in it deal with specific things I’ve been dealing with. It’s one of those games that take a long ass time to beat, but I’ve really been enjoying playing (Persona 4 Golden)!
I’m gonna switch up my calories starting today. I’ve been at the same bodyfat percentage for the past 2 weeks, time to change it up.
I went out with my parents a few days ago to see a movie. When I saw attractive girls, I still felt negativity towards them, but it’s not as bad as it was a few months ago. I’m gonna say it’s an improvement. Or it could just be that since I haven’t been out that much and haven’t seen them since summer started then it’s not triggering me as often.
Today I thought about what my goal is with E2 again. And I remembered the same thing I said months ago: Freedom. I just want to be free. My dream life would be me being a professional actor, landing fun roles, hanging out with awesome people, and having the hot girls in my life I intend to have. I know of course I’ll have to keep up with my strength training, nutrition, mental well being, etc. But I honestly feel that if I have those 3 things (Acting career, hot girls, awesome people to hang with), I’ll have no trouble focusing on maintaining myself.
At this point, I wonder if E2 will lead to freedom or something else. I know it’ll lead to being emotionally healed, but that’s just 1 part of the freedom I’m talking about. I’m aiming not just to survive, but to THRIVE!
Edit: I had an awesome idea! If I just wrote down things about my progress and made it like stats in a video game I'd probably feel that things are more fun! I feel this is such a cool idea, totally doing it!
So far this summer hasn’t really been that fun. I really would like to just hang out with some friends, but no one back in my home town has been responding/they’re out of town/too busy. It’s been a bit frustrating. I got an awesome video game and I’ve been playing it a lot. Funny enough some of the characters in it deal with specific things I’ve been dealing with. It’s one of those games that take a long ass time to beat, but I’ve really been enjoying playing (Persona 4 Golden)!
I’m gonna switch up my calories starting today. I’ve been at the same bodyfat percentage for the past 2 weeks, time to change it up.
I went out with my parents a few days ago to see a movie. When I saw attractive girls, I still felt negativity towards them, but it’s not as bad as it was a few months ago. I’m gonna say it’s an improvement. Or it could just be that since I haven’t been out that much and haven’t seen them since summer started then it’s not triggering me as often.
Today I thought about what my goal is with E2 again. And I remembered the same thing I said months ago: Freedom. I just want to be free. My dream life would be me being a professional actor, landing fun roles, hanging out with awesome people, and having the hot girls in my life I intend to have. I know of course I’ll have to keep up with my strength training, nutrition, mental well being, etc. But I honestly feel that if I have those 3 things (Acting career, hot girls, awesome people to hang with), I’ll have no trouble focusing on maintaining myself.
At this point, I wonder if E2 will lead to freedom or something else. I know it’ll lead to being emotionally healed, but that’s just 1 part of the freedom I’m talking about. I’m aiming not just to survive, but to THRIVE!
Edit: I had an awesome idea! If I just wrote down things about my progress and made it like stats in a video game I'd probably feel that things are more fun! I feel this is such a cool idea, totally doing it!
