05-20-2016, 07:57 PM
I found myself coming to the forum a bit more often recently to see what's up. I found myself focusing on other E2 journals, occasionally looking at an AM6 or Magnet journal. I'm not in a hurry though, at least not anymore. I totally intend to do AM6, but it's no longer "Oh, when I finally get to AM6..." it's more like "Oh, when E2 finally deals with everything all the back to day 1!"
My life at the moment is definitely in transition. I'm doing what I can take the next step in my career. Something tells me that it's practically written in stone somewhere that I have already succeeded. It's just a matter of time and preparation now. I don't see the absolute in front of me yet, but I've experienced too many coincidences. At the VERY least I KNOW that without a doubt I'll be a successful actor and spend practically my entire career in the entertainment industry. Just a heads up, I may delete my account and all of my posts. So I want to say now thank you everyone for your support! It's awesome to be a part of a community of like-minded people that want each other to succeed. There's nothing like it. I also want to say thanks to Shannon for all that he's done. Seriously Shannon, I hope you exceed what you think is possible with your sub technology and in your personal life. I know nothing compares to exceeding what you think is possible!
I'm not saying goodbye yet. I just felt that I should tell everyone now while I know I can. I'll stay here as long as I can, but the time will come when I have to go. I'll probably still stay a customer though.
I have less thoughts of aggression towards people and I'm starting to see the world differently. I'm really starting to see everything as just energy. A persons problems, money, the new hit song each year, it's all just a form of energy.
In terms of resistance, I've been frequently watching porn and masturbating. It's almost like I don't care anymore about avoiding it. I watched but didn't keep going for the full PMO both today and yesterday. I guess I'll consciously avoid it again and see how that goes.
Really, it's difficult for me to objectively know exactly what E2 has done and what I have done through conscious efforts. Regardless, E2 is definitely helping. Part of me is thinking that E2 is helping me with success in my career. If that's the case, that's AWESOME! The most noticeable difference that I've noticed that I haven't tried to consciously change is that I look in the mirror and see my face and I think my face is hot. Like I have a sexy island man look, but not the stereotypical kind. I still don't have totally flawless skin, but without my glasses/contacts my face looks pretty hot. First time I've ever thought about myself like that that strongly. I also tend to think "Why wouldn't hot girls want me" and then proceed to list the reasons they should (but I've thought that in the past, so it's not that big of a deal to me)
Outisde of subs, I'm on Day 15 of my Whole 30. At first it was a total pain in the butt. I don't have a gluten allergy, I've tested it. I actually miss Primal. At the same time, I'm now kinda use to it. I still have chocolate daily (100% cacao) blended into my green smoothies (the smoothies are also new, but great for getting in carbs!). It's also a good position to be in to have trouble getting in my macros for the day. When I first got on Whole 30, I had this problem (which in a way is nice). I'm also doing strength training. I'm gonna do a pure serious cut for the whole summer or until I get lean to my liking. I also have the 28 day FitTea. I have already seen results in the first two weeks and I've only been strength training and walking. When I add in HIIT, it'll be insane.
I also have Julien's product TenGame. I haven't had the chance to watch it yet, I've been so busy. Online classes are time consuming and with how often I eat, my training schedule, and house chores, I'm busy until night rolls around.
I'm also going to start looking into these astrological cycles when I get the time. I'm a sun Leo and a moon Cancer. I have to figure out how the Saturn cycles relate to this.
I'm also going to buy Preston Smiles's book, Love Louder. He's a great dude.
I'm still getting anywhere from 10 hours to 17 hours of E2 a day. Most of the time 13-16. I plan sticking with it until I am Shannon's description of what someone who's hit Day 1 on this is like. I don't know how long that'll take, but that's how long I'll do it. And ideally, AM7 will be out by then!
My life at the moment is definitely in transition. I'm doing what I can take the next step in my career. Something tells me that it's practically written in stone somewhere that I have already succeeded. It's just a matter of time and preparation now. I don't see the absolute in front of me yet, but I've experienced too many coincidences. At the VERY least I KNOW that without a doubt I'll be a successful actor and spend practically my entire career in the entertainment industry. Just a heads up, I may delete my account and all of my posts. So I want to say now thank you everyone for your support! It's awesome to be a part of a community of like-minded people that want each other to succeed. There's nothing like it. I also want to say thanks to Shannon for all that he's done. Seriously Shannon, I hope you exceed what you think is possible with your sub technology and in your personal life. I know nothing compares to exceeding what you think is possible!
I'm not saying goodbye yet. I just felt that I should tell everyone now while I know I can. I'll stay here as long as I can, but the time will come when I have to go. I'll probably still stay a customer though.
I have less thoughts of aggression towards people and I'm starting to see the world differently. I'm really starting to see everything as just energy. A persons problems, money, the new hit song each year, it's all just a form of energy.
In terms of resistance, I've been frequently watching porn and masturbating. It's almost like I don't care anymore about avoiding it. I watched but didn't keep going for the full PMO both today and yesterday. I guess I'll consciously avoid it again and see how that goes.
Really, it's difficult for me to objectively know exactly what E2 has done and what I have done through conscious efforts. Regardless, E2 is definitely helping. Part of me is thinking that E2 is helping me with success in my career. If that's the case, that's AWESOME! The most noticeable difference that I've noticed that I haven't tried to consciously change is that I look in the mirror and see my face and I think my face is hot. Like I have a sexy island man look, but not the stereotypical kind. I still don't have totally flawless skin, but without my glasses/contacts my face looks pretty hot. First time I've ever thought about myself like that that strongly. I also tend to think "Why wouldn't hot girls want me" and then proceed to list the reasons they should (but I've thought that in the past, so it's not that big of a deal to me)
Outisde of subs, I'm on Day 15 of my Whole 30. At first it was a total pain in the butt. I don't have a gluten allergy, I've tested it. I actually miss Primal. At the same time, I'm now kinda use to it. I still have chocolate daily (100% cacao) blended into my green smoothies (the smoothies are also new, but great for getting in carbs!). It's also a good position to be in to have trouble getting in my macros for the day. When I first got on Whole 30, I had this problem (which in a way is nice). I'm also doing strength training. I'm gonna do a pure serious cut for the whole summer or until I get lean to my liking. I also have the 28 day FitTea. I have already seen results in the first two weeks and I've only been strength training and walking. When I add in HIIT, it'll be insane.
I also have Julien's product TenGame. I haven't had the chance to watch it yet, I've been so busy. Online classes are time consuming and with how often I eat, my training schedule, and house chores, I'm busy until night rolls around.
I'm also going to start looking into these astrological cycles when I get the time. I'm a sun Leo and a moon Cancer. I have to figure out how the Saturn cycles relate to this.
I'm also going to buy Preston Smiles's book, Love Louder. He's a great dude.
I'm still getting anywhere from 10 hours to 17 hours of E2 a day. Most of the time 13-16. I plan sticking with it until I am Shannon's description of what someone who's hit Day 1 on this is like. I don't know how long that'll take, but that's how long I'll do it. And ideally, AM7 will be out by then!
