Magnus' journal

[Shannon]

I had one more question as well. Can I use AOS during the day and let go of past relationships at night?

You could - but I suggest you consider what you're actually trying to do by doing so. Basically, trying to jump into one relationship before you're finished with another. Which suggests codependency issues... I strongly support that you spend the three months of let go of past relationships all alone, healing, and coming to terms with being your own man after such a major relationship (at least it sounds like it was major?)

Having been single and alone for a long time now, I can tell you it sucks sometimes, but I love what has happened to me as a result. I don't need anyone else. I can be perfectly happy all alone, although I do miss the sex and emotional intimacy. But now the healing process for me is almost over, and I suspect a few ladies are going to get what's coming to then in the next couple months. Hehehe...

[Magnus]

Been having all sorts of weird dreams on this sub. Last night I dreamed I was having my blood tested for drugs and they found anti-depressants very bizarre and my ex was in it as well. Not gonna read to much into it.

First night on the new speakers but unfortunately the phone I had connected up to them died during the night as the plug that I was using to charge the phone broke.

Another thing I'm trying to find out is the frequency response rate on my phone speakers (Galaxy S2) doubt it will be 20Khz but would be great if it was as I could then add listening during the day as well.

The Samsung Galaxy S II speaker can handle ultrasonics just fine. I know this, because I own that particular make and model of phone, and I use it to play subliminals for myself while I am driving. You'll want to keep the volume at 11 or less, as it begins to encounter speaker distortion otherwise... but it works just fine.

Thanks Shannon. This is one thing I have been wondering about and will mean I can get so much more time out of subs and will also mean using them while away on holiday will be so much easier

It was just I read somewhere speakers were only 800hz but I'd trust you over that

Also an update. I found that I am starting to sleep a little better now and I am having dreams about other girls without my ex involved. I had a weird one last night where I was with penny out of big bang theory and she was flirting with me.

Also been noticing that girls are generally becoming a bit more flirty and playful (Just joking around more no touching) with me as well not to sure why as I still feel a little insecure

If the Galaxy S II speaker had a limit on either end of 800 Hz, you probably wouldn't like the result very much. But if it has such a limit, it will be on the low end, meaning it can't play bass very well, which would make sense. We want the high end, where the treble is.

Someone said 800hz on the high end which I can't see how it could possibly be this low myself.

[Magnus]

I had one more question as well. Can I use AOS during the day and let go of past relationships at night?

You could - but I suggest you consider what you're actually trying to do by doing so. Basically, trying to jump into one relationship before you're finished with another. Which suggests codependency issues... I strongly support that you spend the three months of let go of past relationships all alone, healing, and coming to terms with being your own man after such a major relationship (at least it sounds like it was major?)

Having been single and alone for a long time now, I can tell you it sucks sometimes, but I love what has happened to me as a result. I don't need anyone else. I can be perfectly happy all alone, although I do miss the sex and emotional intimacy. But now the healing process for me is almost over, and I suspect a few ladies are going to get what's coming to then in the next couple months. Hehehe...

Thanks. I agree I do have co-dependency issues and will stick with the Get over past relationships sub alone even though it is very tempting to add in AoS.

It was major both in length and emotional intensity (Which quite often happens with BPD) It was off and on for 6 years of which we only spent 4 together with the last 1.5 years living together. So really 3 months healing is nothing plus the extra month its been already. I see my ex has already jumped into a new relationship and moved on which always makes me think if she can get over it so quick why can't I but I have to remember she has BPD and is to scared to visit her issues.

Something has been helping me a little with co-dependancy issues as well. I'm a long way off being over them but neediness was down last night when I approached some girls specifically just to settle a debate with my mates. The girls actually responded very well and there wasn't as much pull to try move things forward. PUA moved me to pushing things forward at all times instead of being natural.

Looking forward to hearing your successes as well Shannon as i'm sure with most of the guys in this forum you will have some great ones coming up

[Magnus]

Wow if I didn't believe this sub was working I do now.

I just got contacted by my ex saying she is seeing someone else and is very happy.

Its amazing before I would have been destroyed, I would have been a mess. Now it still does hurt but the pain is so much less. Definately going to keep this one up for three months to completely remove that pain

[Shannon]

I went through almost exactly the same length and intensity of relationship with a BPD woman also, and I was co-dependent at the time too. People who have BPD have no self image... they latch on to someone else for that, which is why she immediately got back into a relationship. It really blew me away when my ex told me she was engaged two months after I left her, and married a month later. I spent four years doing everything in my power to make her my wife, but in the end, I couldn't fix her and I couldn't trust her. So she got her marriage, and I got destroyed by the apparent betrayal... but I honestly think that BPD people just don't connect emotionally the same way the rest of us do. For them, it's an overriding and obsessive need to fill that void within them concerning self identity.

[Magnus]

I went through almost exactly the same length and intensity of relationship with a BPD woman also, and I was co-dependent at the time too. People who have BPD have no self image... they latch on to someone else for that, which is why she immediately got back into a relationship. It really blew me away when my ex told me she was engaged two months after I left her, and married a month later. I spent four years doing everything in my power to make her my wife, but in the end, I couldn't fix her and I couldn't trust her. So she got her marriage, and I got destroyed by the apparent betrayal... but I honestly think that BPD people just don't connect emotionally the same way the rest of us do. For them, it's an overriding and obsessive need to fill that void within them concerning self identity.

Thanks Shannon sounds exactly like my ex breaks up with me then gets married almost straight away. Then wants to get back with me later.

Even now she has a new relationship she keeps trying to contact me which makes everything so much harder. Oh well 3 months on let go of past relationships and ill be well over her

They do don't connect the same as most people do. They think they are madly in love then the next minute they are onto the next thing if that doesn't work the next or back to the old.

I believe that because of the co-dependancy/abandoment I tend to attract these sort of women hence the abandoment sub and Alpha Male will blow these issues out of the water.

[Magnus]

I also gave my sister a gift of maximum sales success after she said she was struggling at work.

I haven't told her what it is and gave her no expectations at all. She trusts me though and have told her to listen to it every night while she sleeps.

Will be interesting to see her results

[Shannon]

I am looking forward to seeing the results of that myself.

[Magnus]

Interesting. What I've been noticing over the last couple of days while using let go of past relationships is I feel great in the afternoon but then after listening all night I get a lot of memories of my ex coming up and lots of thoughts of her coming up. I feel very negative in the mornings and a lot of stuff is coming up around not feeling good enough. Dreams of rejection and not being worthy or good enough. Its quite demotivating at the moment.

I'm guessing I just push on through this

[Magnus]

So I am starting to feel the pull and attachment dying down slowly (Still a long way to go). Theres a lot of memories still coming up but the attachment is going down slowly. This is being replaced by a feeling of not feeling good enough or not being worthy of anything. I have come to believe that many of my issues come from this low sense of self esteem rather than from abandonment. Its allowed me to realize this is why I become needy and clingy in relationships and go for insecure and unhealthy women as well

Another interesting thing thats came up over the last few days is I have had zero desire to view porn. This coming from a guy who watched it twice a day. I'm not sure why this is but I just don't get anything from it anymore. To me it feels like it objectifies women and puts them on pedestals instead of treating them like other human beings. Just cause they have good looks, tits and a pussy doesn't make them special compared to anyone else.

[Shannon]

Low self esteem is a common result of abandonment. The subconscious "logic" says... "If I was abandoned by ______, I must be worthless." Perhaps it would be helpful to use Life Tune-Up all day, and LGOPR all night.

Regardless, expect that you're stirring up a lot of stuff from down below, and you're going through processing it at a much accelerated rate through this program.

[Magnus]

Thanks Shannon.

Agree. My therapist has been amazed at my progress in a lot of areas. I'm starting to become more real and authentic

Its like I'm starting to see things in a new light not just myself but women as well. I don't understand why its happening but its like I just have a desire to have fun with women and have nothing to prove even though I don't feel the best at the moment things are changing.

I'm starting to become happier just being alone and having fun with people without any expectations

[Shannon]

I like being single. I can do whatever I want, when I want, how I want... it's great. I wouldn't mind having a girlfriend, though. But that will come with time, as lately I am just too busy to worry about finding one shy of using an attraction sub. And if I am too busy to socialize, I am surely too busy to properly attend to the needs of a girlfriend. But if LTU is a bit spendy, I realized you should be able to get good results from Extreme Self Esteem, and if the budget is zero, ASC is a good third choice.

[Magnus]

Awesome thanks Shannon. Ill run with Extreme Self esteem even though Life Tune-Up would be great I do want to save up for Alpha Male 2012 when that comes out

Its very bizarre for me though. I'm not checking out girls and have zero interest in porn but love chatting to them in just a normal manor.