MagicalAlchemist OF v2 Journal

[MagicalAlchemist]

Cycle 1 - Done
30/12/2020 - Off day

Combat Tool :
Poweramp with volume 26/30 (Equivalent 87%) Through Speaker and volume 8/30 (27%) IEM
Ultrasonic FLAC, Sometimes Hybrid FLAC

Summary Pros:

• Listening session with hybrid is fun to be honest, i feel subs massage my head while ASRB is running.
  
• My fear about others opinion is reduced about 80%, raising up IDGAF attitude.
  
• I'm an overthinking person even if just to go out to buy food, irrational reason comes out like : this place is closed but in reality still open, im fine even im hungry (irrational fear to not go out buy food), etc. And then i'm in OFv2 listening Cycle, im getting out without a lot thinking with irrational reason.
  
• All users especially me love DRS so much #DRSGANG. My mother always to be nice with me without reason, even i made a mistake on purpose to prove DRS working. She's not yelling me or give me negative feedback action and word. Oh yeah i want to mention DRS stand-alone it's amazing product to deals with toxic people in my environment and dealing crazy people in the road. To test DRS is working in the road, sometimes i go out to riding in the big city (because so much anger and raging people in there    ) and just got 1 yelled because is my bad mistake can cause accident. And then i'm off from DRS about 1 week, I'm riding very smoothly (long trip) from my home to the big city, and BUM. Morning funny ride to become screwed morning ride. 1 Angry people (traffic controllers are not police) Angry with me without proper reason (just want to angry with random people) but i don't take it personally. 
  

Summary Cons:

• Very very lazy and procrastination. Don't know what happen maybe resistance ?
  
• In the first day listening session until now, im thinking to quit from OF v2 to other weaker subs I've used in my past   , resistance again ?
  
• Annoying brainfog
  

Anyone or Shannon, fell free to give me suggestion about anything. Thank you

[Shannon]

Cycle 1 - Done
30/12/2020 - Off day

Combat Tool :
Poweramp with volume 26/30 (Equivalent 87%) Through Speaker and volume 8/30 (27%) IEM
Ultrasonic FLAC, Sometimes Hybrid FLAC

Summary Pros:

• Listening session with hybrid is fun to be honest, i feel subs massage my head while ASRB is running.
  
• My fear about others opinion is reduced about 80%, raising up IDGAF attitude.
  
• I'm an overthinking person even if just to go out to buy food, irrational reason comes out like : this place is closed but in reality still open, im fine even im hungry (irrational fear to not go out buy food), etc. And then i'm in OFv2 listening Cycle, im getting out without a lot thinking with irrational reason.
  
• All users especially me love DRS so much #DRSGANG. My mother always to be nice with me without reason, even i made a mistake on purpose to prove DRS working. She's not yelling me or give me negative feedback action and word. Oh yeah i want to mention DRS stand-alone it's amazing product to deals with toxic people in my environment and dealing crazy people in the road. To test DRS is working in the road, sometimes i go out to riding in the big city (because so much anger and raging people in there    ) and just got 1 yelled because is my bad mistake can cause accident. And then i'm off from DRS about 1 week, I'm riding very smoothly (long trip) from my home to the big city, and BUM. Morning funny ride to become screwed morning ride. 1 Angry people (traffic controllers are not police) Angry with me without proper reason (just want to angry with random people) but i don't take it personally. 
  

Summary Cons:

• Very very lazy and procrastination. Don't know what happen maybe resistance ?
  
• In the first day listening session until now, im thinking to quit from OF v2 to other weaker subs I've used in my past   , resistance again ?
  
• Annoying brainfog
  

Anyone or Shannon, fell free to give me suggestion about anything. Thank you

With regards to laziness: This is a strong indication that until now, you have been "lazy" in the sense that you got used to relying on fear to motivate you.  Now it's being removed, and you have to develop some other way to motivate yourself.

With regards to thinking of quitting OF: That is your subconscious trying to avoid the goals of OF by trying to derail your efforts.  Resistance.  Naturally, you don't want to do that; it will pass eventually as the you make more changes in response to the subliminal.

With regards to annoying brain fog: I'm pretty sure at this point that the annoying brain fog is down to one of two things, but I'm not sure which - A) it's your response to the state shifting attempting to put you in the optimal state for achieving the goals of the program, which may happen to be incompatible with certain waking activities, or B) it is your subconscious trying to find some way to dis-incentivize you from using the program.  Or perhaps a little of both.  I'm not sure.  

I certainly don't get brain fog from this program.  Instead, I get exhaustion, which I suspect is the program having the effect of causing the cooperative parts of my subconscious to override the uncooperative parts, which are very strong willed and fighting the process, using a huge amount of energy in the course of doing so.

[fab10]

love DRS so much #DRSGANG. My mother always to be nice with me without reason

Yes, it makes people eager to please, it’s amazing. Next step up, when people’s energy gets really ugly, even if don’t say it out loud, it hits them back like a brick, but I’ve experienced that only with the stand-alone version. #DRSGANG

[MagicalAlchemist]

With regards to laziness: This is a strong indication that until now, you have been "lazy" in the sense that you got used to relying on fear to motivate you.  Now it's being removed, and you have to develop some other way to motivate yourself.

Yes,yes. Accurate. I can confirm. It's related with my parent parenting style which I've only realized since I was an adult. Making a joke when you doing wrong and not only that, i got beaten up in the same time. Lack of appreciation (I'm never got it from my father btw) also supports the issue. Mocking and yelling is my food whenever I make a mistake in their eyes. Even though I don't think I did anything, always blaming for mistake i never did. It creates a kind of defense mechanism to make me run from reality, and i did. It makes me fear from failure and success. example: If i do plan A and then blablabla.... etc. Overthinking ruining my life with irrational reason. And Thanksfully OFv2 doing a job for clearing and destroying my irrational fear 

With regards to thinking of quitting OF: That is your subconscious trying to avoid the goals of OF by trying to derail your efforts.  Resistance.  Naturally, you don't want to do that; it will pass eventually as the you make more changes in response to the subliminal.

With regards to annoying brain fog: I'm pretty sure at this point that the annoying brain fog is down to one of two things, but I'm not sure which - A) it's your response to the state shifting attempting to put you in the optimal state for achieving the goals of the program, which may happen to be incompatible with certain waking activities, or B) it is your subconscious trying to find some way to dis-incentivize you from using the program.  Or perhaps a little of both.  I'm not sure.  

Thankfully, my tendency for quitting OFv2 is gone right now. My conscious mind can accept easily because i started getting significant changes that i can observe. And for brainfog, i think your reasons can make sense. Since it's 5.75.5G Tech so make my brain burn to optimize my current state and accepting powerfull script in the same time.

[MagicalAlchemist]

Quick Update

File : US FLAC thru speaker and re-adjust the volume from 26/30 to 24/30
Increasing 1 loop today because my desire to listening more kick in. The more I ignore it to not listening, I feel uncomfortable.

So far, im little bit tired, causing an increase my sleeping hours from 6h to 8-9h

[MagicalAlchemist]

Listening Pattern =
3 Loops US at night
1 Loop US during the day (if i have the urge to listening)

OF seems to make me feel depression, feeling anger internally, i'm feeling hopeless with my life progress because it's looks stagnant/stuck (Even while writing in the first paragraph, I shed tears)

In my throughout life and only this time I experienced feeling passive nihilism, where i was like useless, confused with my life purpose because all my opportunity is gone. I really want to have friends, girlfriend but because my condition 2 years ago the result of experiencing major depression so that I still have dysfunction today (ouch ya much better, of course)
I just hope and pray that good opportunities for me will come.

Lets talk about the results so far
OFv2 Improved my life ? hmm lets say my mental condition yes is improved a lot, I usually experience stuttering even talk with my family, now has decreased so far. Sometimes in the crowd i usually experience freeze and awkward body language, and now has decreased. Yes i'm agoraphobia, OFv2 quite helpful.
What about quality in my life like (Relationship with Friends/Spouse) ? Meh, it's getting rid your fear not manifestation subs for friends or girlfriend . I'm still trying to choose good friends, I don't want to waste time with the wrong person.
Watching porn is not fun anymore since starting OFv2.

I've actually been really consistent when running a subliminal in the past, must be used for at least 3 months. My biggest temptation right now is to stop listening to OFv2 and replace it with something weaker. I know it's only resistance and this too shall pass. I will keep my common senses rather than following the mood that wants to stop using OFv2.

[Shannon]

Wise choice.

[MagicalAlchemist]

Listening Pattern :
3 Loops US at night

After i struggled tooth and nail to maintain the use of OFv2, I finally got through it. The funny thing is that I started experiencing unbearable fatigue and drowsiness. I rarely drink coffee unless it's an emergency. 1 shot of coffee for me can keep me awake all day long. But it doesn't work. I have to maintain my consciousness than going to bed earlier in the afternoon which causes me insomnia at night.

I will post a journal about my recent dreams in the near future considering I have to translate it into English first.

[Shannon]

That is called resistance. The part(s) of you trying to fight the program are engaging in a struggle with the parts of you trying to execute, and the result is exhaustion. If you've gotten through it, great! If not, it may help to know that cases of extreme exhaustion are often solved by increasing loops.

[MagicalAlchemist]

Thanks for your feedback Shannon. I started immediately +1 loop after you give me a suggestion. My sleep is more longer than before. When i wake up I'm not like an exhausted zombie again.

During the day, autoconfig module tell me to fulfill my desire to listening and i start with 1 loop, not exhausted but i felt a headache.
Henceforth I will use 4 loops at night. Adding 1 loop in the middle day not a good idea.

[Shannon]

Thanks for your feedback Shannon. I started immediately +1 loop after you give me a suggestion. My sleep is more longer than before. When i wake up I'm not like an exhausted zombie again.

During the day, autoconfig module tell me to fulfill my desire to listening and i start with 1 loop, not exhausted but i felt a headache.
Henceforth I will use 4 loops at night. Adding 1 loop in the middle day not a good idea.

Headache is also a resistance response.  It's your subconscious trying to pull out all the stops to prevent you from achieving the program goals.  If it hurts to do, you won't do it.  You'll know it's a resistance headache because it won't behave like a regular headache.  But if you're getting indicators that you should and should not listen more during the day, then that means you should probably be listening to that additional loop or two at night until the resistance is broken.  Unless you want to just deal with the headache.

[MagicalAlchemist]

Get it Shannon, i will do +2 loops tonight, in total running 5 loops at night.
Just to report
3 Loops i feel depressed, lethargic and nihilism (dont want to conquer anything in life because im still too scared).
4 loops I feel empowered, more energic and feeling grateful.

[GreekGod22]

Poweramp with volume 26/30 (Equivalent 87%) Through Speaker and volume 8/30 (27%) IEM

Ultrasonic FLAC, Sometimes Hybrid FLAC

Am I missing something, why is everyone playing these new subs at very high volume? I don't remember this being a thing around here. I though very high volume is uncomfortable or damaging to the ears.

[Shannon]

Poweramp with volume 26/30 (Equivalent 87%) Through Speaker and volume 8/30 (27%) IEM

Ultrasonic FLAC, Sometimes Hybrid FLAC

Am I missing something, why is everyone playing these new subs at very high volume? I don't remember this being a thing around here. I though very high volume is uncomfortable or damaging to the ears.

Volume is relative.  The goal is the optimal volume.  Volume changes according to the perceive, the player used, the number of amplifiers in the chain, what software is in use, speakers, etc.

In the example above, you have PowerAmp software at volume 87% and the speaker is playing that 87% at 27% of it's (the speaker's) total potential.  That's really not very loud.

You naturally don't want a volume that is too loud because it can potentially damage the ears with an ultrasonic, and also because it can trigger resistance.