Guys I seriously don't know why I am having thoughts like this.
I feel that MHS hitting my mental issues so that it can heal. I can't explain I feel like a blank canvas and I really don't know what's right or wrong. I am seeing things with multiple perception. I mean I can see a situation and I can find multiple ways to look at that problem and due to this I am not able to decide if that is right or wrong...
For example.. My Uncle came and told my sis that he was the reason my father got the job and is so much successful.
But then my sis told this to my father in front of my mother and then my mother got angry that he(uncle) shouldn't have told this to my sis and they she will make sure that he will pay for this but then my father got defensive and said that what my uncle said is true he did alot for him when he was poor.. But then my mother said kids don't need to know all this.. But father said no.. Kids have the rights to know this cause it's the truth...
After that I said told my sis that she should have kept her mouth shut in front of mom and then she began fighting me
First perception : If only my uncle didn't came then we won't have been fighting.. Cause we only fight when any relatives come and says shit like this.. So it's their fault.
Second Perception : My sis should have kept her mouth shut. If only she had done this then we won't be fighting.
Third Perception : I should have stayed away and should have said nothing.
Fourth Perception : What my uncle said was true cause he did help my father and still do even in bad times... So my egoistic mom and sis should learn to accept this truth and no one can become successful without some or someone's help..
Fifth Perception : Women and girls always create problems even of simple stuff..
I seeing all this at same time.. . Idk what or whose right or wrong..
Before this I had only perception and I believed in that but right now Idk what to believe in.. I feel like a blank canvas.. Idk what's right or wrong..
I am feeling confused about so many things..
I feel that MHS hitting my mental issues so that it can heal. I can't explain I feel like a blank canvas and I really don't know what's right or wrong. I am seeing things with multiple perception. I mean I can see a situation and I can find multiple ways to look at that problem and due to this I am not able to decide if that is right or wrong...
For example.. My Uncle came and told my sis that he was the reason my father got the job and is so much successful.
But then my sis told this to my father in front of my mother and then my mother got angry that he(uncle) shouldn't have told this to my sis and they she will make sure that he will pay for this but then my father got defensive and said that what my uncle said is true he did alot for him when he was poor.. But then my mother said kids don't need to know all this.. But father said no.. Kids have the rights to know this cause it's the truth...
After that I said told my sis that she should have kept her mouth shut in front of mom and then she began fighting me
First perception : If only my uncle didn't came then we won't have been fighting.. Cause we only fight when any relatives come and says shit like this.. So it's their fault.
Second Perception : My sis should have kept her mouth shut. If only she had done this then we won't be fighting.
Third Perception : I should have stayed away and should have said nothing.
Fourth Perception : What my uncle said was true cause he did help my father and still do even in bad times... So my egoistic mom and sis should learn to accept this truth and no one can become successful without some or someone's help..
Fifth Perception : Women and girls always create problems even of simple stuff..
I seeing all this at same time.. . Idk what or whose right or wrong..
Before this I had only perception and I believed in that but right now Idk what to believe in.. I feel like a blank canvas.. Idk what's right or wrong..
I am feeling confused about so many things..
both of them are true at the same time and there are also false at the same time.
This is the way I look at it tho. I love that part of me. Well... I used to hate it. But I've come to the realization that the world needs nice guys.
