Stage 2, Day 17. Ok, so... this stuff works. Subliminals work, pstec works and the masculine intent mindset works very well with SM3. I don't know if (I doubt that) SM3 will make me into exactly what the product description page says in one go, but its clearly guiding me TOWARDS that image at the pace I'm able to proceed. I'm still waiting for those sexual performance results (haven't tested in over a week, will today), but if I get them in the following weeks on stage 2 I'll be completely sold and I'm most likely a customer for life already. Stage 2 has been a bit of a downer compared to stage 1, but now my sex drive is up again and things seem good.
The day before yesterday, I did pstec on "not knowing what to do". Click tracks, 1 PN and 1 PP. Along with "I've already known what to do before", my main "counter argument" for the PN track was what's in MI's book - that I don't even have to know, because its not me that's doing it. I'm aroused and my instinct are telling what to do, I just have to listen to them and not get in the way. While doing the PP track, I realized some extra details:
1. I was thinking about a situation where I'm sitting with a group of girls and I feel like "I don't know what to do" with that best-looking girl who's attention I can't seem to get.. Well, actually I do: my instincts are telling me to get up and leave. There was no chemistry between us in that situation, it was just my PU habits and ego that was needy to get that girl's attention. I was going against my instincts, and this resulted in me "not knowing what to do".
2. There's one situation I'm very familiar with where I can clearly feel my instincts telling me something: when I see someone stunning and I feel the DRIVE to approach. I guess that's just like in the later stages of the interaction, I just feel this urge, and alongside it comes this slight trepidation and excitement - to approach, to touch her, to go for the kiss, to "pull the trigger". Again, my job is not get in my instinct way, do what it says and enjoy. If its clearly shouting "GO TO HER!" then there's no point in me debating what to do after that.. new instructions will come.
Yesterday, I was psteccing on eye contact. The truth is I get paralyzed by passing eye contact; my brain freezes, breathing stops, basically like a deer in the headlights. If I'm with a woman and I know its "on", I have extremely strong eye contact. If I'm out night time, I generally have very strong eye contact. But daytime in the streets, at work and such, its "deer in the headlights", and I've never been able to get over that. So yesterday I went out for coffee and got some fresh memories like that, went home and click tracked while imagining I was forcing myself to hold eye contact for the whole track. I was shaking the whole time, it was pretty funny. Then I went to visit a male friend who I know has extremely strong eye contact, then got home and did more tracks on imagining holding it with him. Got it to zero, then PN and PP... And I felt absolutely free with my eyes the whole night, awesome stuff! Also the feeling changed from "trying to hold eye contact" to this kind of "opening my eyes to the other person so (s)he can see, or we can both feel, everything I'm feeling inside."
Aand then finally going out yesterday. It was pretty great. I went out more or less alone, but ended up meeting my regular friends anyway. The beginning was pretty stiff. I felt confident in myself and I feel very good about the new & improved upper back posture that I now have, but felt nervous about talking to girls. After a change of venue, 1 drink and 2 beers, and meeting one of my friends, it was completely different. For example, I'd just stand by the dance floor, leaning back and openly looking at some of the girls there, just enjoying myself. Some guy approached me to talk about the girls for a moment, good fun. My level of directness was just completely different than before.. I was going up to girls and just affectionately touching them all over the whole time we were talking (and they all seemed 100% comfortable with that). I went up to 2 or 3 girls on the dance floor, pulled them close to me and started talking that way. That's something I've never been able to do with intention. I'd just put my hand under this one's hair on her neck and guide her face close to mine a few times and she was just all giggly about it. At the end of the night there were these 2 absolutely fucking gorgeous sexy short girls standing on the dance floor I'd have never approached before.. and I didn't right away this time, I went for the bathroom and had already decided to leave when I saw them again close by and went to the one I preferred. She was liking it, I was very grounded and touching her arm and thighs constantly without thinking about it, but I already had the momentum of leaving the bar, so I was a bit weird about it ("I'm just leaving") so that was that. I wasn't out to get laid anyway, because me & "my girl" have been teasing each other for more than a week and I'm meeting her today. Would've sucked to have to cancel on her.
But there was something quite negative about last night, too... My very good friends' GF was way too much into me. She was very bubbly when I saw her, very touchy, but I laughed with her and then kept my distance. She was saying to me that her friend is horny today and tried to push her friend onto me for many times, but the friend didn't let herself show any interest and I wasn't attracted anyway. Anyway, the GF got all weird at some point, acting clearly avoidant towards my friend and still very smily towards me.. She dragged me by the hand onto the dance floor alone when my friend was in the bathroom, which got me a bit panicked b/c I didn't want to be "rude" to her (as my friend would have to deal with that), and also there was (and is) ZERO change of me doing anything with her b/c he is a very good friend, so I didn't know what to do. I danced with her a bit, keeping my distance and avoiding her eyes, until my friend found us there and I felt it got a bit weird. Feeling a bit guilty about that, though all I wanted to do was to avoid the situation.
So it seems I'm on schedule: the self-development side is starting to show itself clearly and my interactions are going very well, but no mass attraction or women approaching me yet. Well, they come & dance beside me but I mean more direct approaches by walking up or by giving clear eye contact signals that she wants to talk. And of course the most impressive results show up in a club/bar environment. Its already getting colder & darker here during the days, so meeting people outside is much less probable.
ps. I'm reading Rich dad poor dad. Very interesting. I got more interested in the money/career side of things towards the end of AM6, and I guess SM3's reduced neediness is making space for it too. I'd like to clear out my negative programming towards money asap, but I probably won't go for BASE just yet... Getting that area of my life going in the right direction is definitely a challenge I'm interested in facing, but I believe it'll take me many years and I want to finish this socializing & women thing I've been working on for so long and enjoy it for a while before I use BASE or something to direct my focus elsewhere. Something like "EPRHA for money" would be a good fit for me during these SM/AM/WM runs.
The day before yesterday, I did pstec on "not knowing what to do". Click tracks, 1 PN and 1 PP. Along with "I've already known what to do before", my main "counter argument" for the PN track was what's in MI's book - that I don't even have to know, because its not me that's doing it. I'm aroused and my instinct are telling what to do, I just have to listen to them and not get in the way. While doing the PP track, I realized some extra details:
1. I was thinking about a situation where I'm sitting with a group of girls and I feel like "I don't know what to do" with that best-looking girl who's attention I can't seem to get.. Well, actually I do: my instincts are telling me to get up and leave. There was no chemistry between us in that situation, it was just my PU habits and ego that was needy to get that girl's attention. I was going against my instincts, and this resulted in me "not knowing what to do".
2. There's one situation I'm very familiar with where I can clearly feel my instincts telling me something: when I see someone stunning and I feel the DRIVE to approach. I guess that's just like in the later stages of the interaction, I just feel this urge, and alongside it comes this slight trepidation and excitement - to approach, to touch her, to go for the kiss, to "pull the trigger". Again, my job is not get in my instinct way, do what it says and enjoy. If its clearly shouting "GO TO HER!" then there's no point in me debating what to do after that.. new instructions will come.
Yesterday, I was psteccing on eye contact. The truth is I get paralyzed by passing eye contact; my brain freezes, breathing stops, basically like a deer in the headlights. If I'm with a woman and I know its "on", I have extremely strong eye contact. If I'm out night time, I generally have very strong eye contact. But daytime in the streets, at work and such, its "deer in the headlights", and I've never been able to get over that. So yesterday I went out for coffee and got some fresh memories like that, went home and click tracked while imagining I was forcing myself to hold eye contact for the whole track. I was shaking the whole time, it was pretty funny. Then I went to visit a male friend who I know has extremely strong eye contact, then got home and did more tracks on imagining holding it with him. Got it to zero, then PN and PP... And I felt absolutely free with my eyes the whole night, awesome stuff! Also the feeling changed from "trying to hold eye contact" to this kind of "opening my eyes to the other person so (s)he can see, or we can both feel, everything I'm feeling inside."
Aand then finally going out yesterday. It was pretty great. I went out more or less alone, but ended up meeting my regular friends anyway. The beginning was pretty stiff. I felt confident in myself and I feel very good about the new & improved upper back posture that I now have, but felt nervous about talking to girls. After a change of venue, 1 drink and 2 beers, and meeting one of my friends, it was completely different. For example, I'd just stand by the dance floor, leaning back and openly looking at some of the girls there, just enjoying myself. Some guy approached me to talk about the girls for a moment, good fun. My level of directness was just completely different than before.. I was going up to girls and just affectionately touching them all over the whole time we were talking (and they all seemed 100% comfortable with that). I went up to 2 or 3 girls on the dance floor, pulled them close to me and started talking that way. That's something I've never been able to do with intention. I'd just put my hand under this one's hair on her neck and guide her face close to mine a few times and she was just all giggly about it. At the end of the night there were these 2 absolutely fucking gorgeous sexy short girls standing on the dance floor I'd have never approached before.. and I didn't right away this time, I went for the bathroom and had already decided to leave when I saw them again close by and went to the one I preferred. She was liking it, I was very grounded and touching her arm and thighs constantly without thinking about it, but I already had the momentum of leaving the bar, so I was a bit weird about it ("I'm just leaving") so that was that. I wasn't out to get laid anyway, because me & "my girl" have been teasing each other for more than a week and I'm meeting her today. Would've sucked to have to cancel on her.
But there was something quite negative about last night, too... My very good friends' GF was way too much into me. She was very bubbly when I saw her, very touchy, but I laughed with her and then kept my distance. She was saying to me that her friend is horny today and tried to push her friend onto me for many times, but the friend didn't let herself show any interest and I wasn't attracted anyway. Anyway, the GF got all weird at some point, acting clearly avoidant towards my friend and still very smily towards me.. She dragged me by the hand onto the dance floor alone when my friend was in the bathroom, which got me a bit panicked b/c I didn't want to be "rude" to her (as my friend would have to deal with that), and also there was (and is) ZERO change of me doing anything with her b/c he is a very good friend, so I didn't know what to do. I danced with her a bit, keeping my distance and avoiding her eyes, until my friend found us there and I felt it got a bit weird. Feeling a bit guilty about that, though all I wanted to do was to avoid the situation.
So it seems I'm on schedule: the self-development side is starting to show itself clearly and my interactions are going very well, but no mass attraction or women approaching me yet. Well, they come & dance beside me but I mean more direct approaches by walking up or by giving clear eye contact signals that she wants to talk. And of course the most impressive results show up in a club/bar environment. Its already getting colder & darker here during the days, so meeting people outside is much less probable.
ps. I'm reading Rich dad poor dad. Very interesting. I got more interested in the money/career side of things towards the end of AM6, and I guess SM3's reduced neediness is making space for it too. I'd like to clear out my negative programming towards money asap, but I probably won't go for BASE just yet... Getting that area of my life going in the right direction is definitely a challenge I'm interested in facing, but I believe it'll take me many years and I want to finish this socializing & women thing I've been working on for so long and enjoy it for a while before I use BASE or something to direct my focus elsewhere. Something like "EPRHA for money" would be a good fit for me during these SM/AM/WM runs.
Thoughts, opinions and beliefs subject to change without prior notice.
