LionKing's Mating Season (SM3)

[LionKing]

I have yet to notice any change since tapping on that scene (if anything, I'm hornier lol) but what do you mean by "I MUST have it"? Isn't that what lust is, and isn't that good? See, that's the exact feeling I had with that porn scene, so yeah.

No I didn't mean that.. it's kinda difficult to explain with words. I mean a kind of stinging need to get something to complete me, this feeling that I'm not enough without that thing or person, a feeling of weakness because I'm "lacking" and so on. So I'm only trying to clear those kinds of feelings now.

Anyhow, since you've tapped on the shame surrounding porn, do you find you're more accepting of it, maybe even don't care if your GF knows?

I think its 2-3 months back, I can't remember... Anyway I haven't masturbated to porn in.. I guess in over 6 months. I don't think I did while on AM6, to finish anyway. I downloaded a single video a few times to see an especially hot girl and I might've taken a few good squeezes. I'm just not into it anymore, I'd much rather project that energy somewhere else. I can't even remember the last time I came on my own, except those 3 energy things.

Stage 1, day 12. Went out yesterday, which was an almost complete bust. The place we went to was just almost empty. One thing that was kinda funny was that for some reason the bouncers suspected us of throwing up all over the place and pulled us aside to question us. I'd had 2 beers the whole night and my friend 1, so it was completely ridiculous. Anyway, I thought it was funny and raised my voice quite a bit to challenge them and for the rest of the night the bouncers always quickly looked down when they saw me. Its something I've noticed lately: I'm not feeling angry or anything but I've been making my points unusually strongly and maybe loudly.

I'm feeling like crap today. Like a huge hangover, even though I only had two beers?! Blah. Went to the gym for legs anyway. The only hot girls I saw were a teenager and my currently only fb. I want to quit drinking completely, its just lame. I'm only doing it to escape anxiety and maintain presence.

The guy from MasculineIntent has a book out and I like his style so I got it and will read it this weekend. Low-energy, high sexual intensity, meeting girls as you go out & about.

When he saw a woman he desired, he would ask himself, 'ok, what must I do in order for her to like me'. This is not showing love. The contrast to that, is how I feel when I see a woman I desire, 'I want to share her beauty with HER'. I see her 100 times more beautiful than she sees herself, and I share this with her.
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Trees grow, the rain falls, night becomes day, and women are sexually attracted to men, and demonstrate this through sexual intimacy.
STOP GETTING IN THE WAY!

EDIT: lol, its only day 12 of the 1st stage so I shouldn't even be expecting anything! It just feels like I'm much further because I've seen some internal shifts happening already :) With AM6 I had to wait some 3-5 months for anything tangible.