LionKing's Mating Season (SM3)

[LionKing]

Stage 1, Day 10. I was feeling quite down these last days, like pretty much anything I do is useless because nothing is going to change in any area of my life (I guess I just got really lucky before). But its shifting, much better now. I must have just been too tired, I was listening for 14+ hours a day.

Ima focus on eye contact for a week or so and see what comes of it. Trying to hold it everywhere and then pstec on any anxious feelings and run the positive track for one affirmation. "I always enjoy the connection I feel through intense eye contact" or something like that. I had good progress with this at some point during AM6, but didn't keep it up.

If I'm talking to woman I can hold eye contact forever, with a woman I just met and even during sex.. but if its on the street, a guy I don't know that well or anyone from work then I can only hold it for a few seconds. At work its usually me who looks away first. I guess I just think that I don't want to be inpolite.. Like I'd be intruding on them for no reason or something. If its a more confident guy I'm talking to, I can hold it much easier, I guess because "he can take it". Same with family.

And what the hell is up with those women who are looking at you on the street and then when you lock eyes they try to stare you down with an unhappy expression, like "what are you looking at, jerk"? Looking for a *man* who can hold it or just being bit*hy? I could just hold the gaze full-sexual if she's hot (usually is), but I get that instinctual "creep alert" that tells me to look away. Not down though, to the side or a little upwards. Click click click click BRRRRRRRR...