LTU6 Journal

[Sky]

I dreamed of a current, long-distance friend of mine being a hardware product manager and he did it because he could stream product updates through his current hardware product manager job. He moved on to a software product manager job in the dream. In real life, he's a software product manager working for a big company. Then I dreamed about product parts not being available or shipped or something which is related to my current job and industry of manufacturing. 

One of the career paths for my job is the potential to become a hardware product manager for my manufacturing company if that's what I want to pursue. I've always thought about becoming a software product manager but it's difficult to get an entry level job as one. I've considered data analysis which i'm doing the certificate for, product management, and other career options that would help me develop my skillset and earn good money. 

Then I dreamed briefly about a pretty girl walking through the doors to the outside of my work building. I'm not sure if the last dream about the girl was a dream or a visualization upon waking up in the morning.

Yesterday, I decided to stop going to the gym and decided to work out with resistance bands at home with my family. Not sure if that's the best choice, but I don't feel like going to the gym anymore. I'm going to contemplate whether this is the right choice. I won't be going unless I change my mind. Resistance bands should be a good workout.

[Sky]

Dreamed about an unattractive, black girl asking me why I didn't ask her out when I had expressed interest earlier but didn't follow up with her. I didn't think she was attractive so that's probably why I didn't ask her out.

Dreamed about representing my data analyst position with a data analyst t-shirt.

Dreamed about going over a set of steps covered in trash bags and going to a room where this white guy met me. He and I wrestled over a set of instructions. First, I got the instructions, then he stole the instructions from me.

Had another dream about fighting vampires/guys who were level 4 or level 5, and my comrades and I couldn't beat them because our weapons were only level 2 and 3. We needed to level up our weapons to beat guys who were at a higher level. I can't be certain these guys were vampires, but that's what I think of when I try to remember the dream.

I dreamed a lot of dreams last night. Surprised I can remember most of them. I wrote them out as soon as I was able to.

In real life, I'm going to meet two people to hangout with today. Yesterday, I hung out with some other friends too. I also just did 25 minutes of my Google Cert. I'm going to do another 25 minutes.

[Sky]

Dreamed about a guy who knew about the CRM system I use at work. Dreamed about two girls afterwards. I thought I knew one of the girls but she was someone else wearing a mask and I think she was middle eastern or Indian. Anyways, she liked that I took initiative to say hi and took my hand and held it while walking me to a table to sit together face-to-face. We sat in front of each other. It was a good dream! I slept for 10 hours last night which was so refreshing.

[ncbeareatingman]

I've been meaning to tell you for a while...that I Love your Name/Handle here "SKY". I once knew a fella who was a manager at a Major retail business named "Sky". He was a good soul....

In honoring and respect..... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qwcM9NPWWtc

walk in balance...
A-Hye-Oh -Wopila wash'te !!

[Sky]

I've been meaning to tell you for a while...that I Love your Name/Handle  here "SKY". I once knew  a fella who was a manager at a Major retail business named "Sky". He was a good soul....

In honoring and respect.....      https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qwcM9NPWWtc

walk in balance...
A-Hye-Oh -Wopila wash'te !!

Thanks ncbeareatingman. The song was peaceful in the youtube video.

[Sky]

Dreamed about Stanford and how this girl I knew from college was super smart to get in. I dreamed about the Google data analytics certificate too. I had other dreams about people but I can't remember.

[Sky]

I remember dreaming about grabbing an Indian girl's (I talked with her briefly on Hinge, the dating app) big butt and trying to help her feel better about her headache by massaging different parts of her body.

I remember dreaming about being at a friend's place where he was visiting and having a get together. He and two other friends  were fighting over his glow in the dark backpack. That ended and His friends including this girl I used to be friends with came over. She and I were friends in college and dated for two weeks. She stopped talking to me after she got married post-college. One of the guys said he was leaving. A girl wanted to sit in my place so I got up and told her I was leaving. Then I went outside passing her (the girl I used to be friends with) by, and when I got outside she opened the door again and followed me out. She tried to give me a hug and I said don't touch me. I said she ignored me for two years and that I moved on. My guy friend who was visiting and hosting the party was there to witness this. She said a couple of things like "should I go back inside" after I didn't reciprocate her hug. The meeting with her ended after I told her I moved on. My guy friend talked to me afterwards and said I should go to Colorado, a place I've been wanting to visit.

I dreamed about being in a church and seeing my cousin and some people who were on the indian dance team from college together. I was in a church and this blonde girl (someone I used to be friends with in highschool) was looking at me from close by. I sat in another area and held this black baby to see above the seat in front of it while putting my phone in the person's lap next to me. The dreams ended. Can't remember much else.

[Sky]

I dreamed about the crew (the men's rowing team that I used to be on for a short time) team. I apologized to two guys I didn't get along with in real life, and they said they would invite me out in the  next couple of weeks. I talked with the Crew guys including this tall 6'4'' guy and said the Crew team had a good impact on me. The 6'4''guy gave me a piece of paper to put into my wallet. He had a request of some sort and he was happy I liked Crew. I was going to row again with another guy who was the reason I tried out Crew in the first place. Then, there was this guy on the crew team that doesn't exist in real life that looked like my old Danish friend who was 6' something, really tall. My danish friend happened to also be there and I introduced him to this look-alike in the dream. I talked to two indian girls about apologizing to those first two guys and they said they would not have apologized. End of dream.

In real life, I didn't really leave the crew team on the best of terms because I was very vocal about how I didn't  like the guys I was rowing with and that I liked the varsity more than the JV. I was older than the guys I rowed with in college so that could have been part of the reason. I was also laughing really loudly due to my emotional outbursts stemming from previously using E1 in college which caused me to change, and then at the time on the crew team I was using the old LTU and was really happy, carefree, threw my head back and laughed extremely loudly, and had anger issues that I couldn't control that were released from E1 and needed to be worked through on other subs since I had stopped E1. LTU worked on it, but I had only ran the old LTU for a semester. I think I was the happiest I ever was on LTU, but I kept getting sad that I wasn't connecting with the freshman crew guys and making friends so I gave it up after a semester. The rowing was stressful for me because I couldn't maintain a fast stroke in a race so that also contributed to me leaving. I think that if I was connecting with the guys and making friends then I would have stayed no matter how much I messed up, but that wasn't the case. It was mainly rich white people on the team, which is what my college was mainly composed of, and I didn't come from a rich background so maybe that's another reason there was a disconnect. I think I had a perception that the crew guys were entitled and had an elitist attitude which I think is true. I can't prove they were entitled but the elitist attitude was definitely in some of them. It is what it is. I'm glad I tried and then left because I learned from the experience, used rowing as part of my workouts, and actually grabbed a basketball rim for the first and only time in my life by using rowing, squatting, and running to help me jump higher which had always been a goal of mine or a dream. I don't actually like basketball but it was an outlet for me when I was younger because I didn't know much about other sports. Anyways, after I left the crew team I was happy again but was sad I wasn't making friends still. I was also going through psychosis around this time, so that hurt my chances of making friends because I was inconsiderate of other people's feelings. Too much anger leftover from E1, being happy and care-free on LTU, going through psychosis, and trying grow taller which didn't work for me caused me to change a lot and go through a transition period where I had to recalibrate my responses after I realized some people that I wanted to be friends with shied away from me because of how rambunctious I was. I struggled to make friends so I was lonely for a time in college which sucked. When I finally ran AM5 I got control of my emotions while still going through psychosis and became friends with a spanish guy who had shied away/kept it cordial with me in the past. The spanish guy and I became actual friends which made me a lot happier. This happened on the final stages of AM5 during my last semester of college. All in all, I'm guessing LTU6 is healing and clearing away some baggage from the past and helping me move on, though I thought I had moved on already. I wonder what this dream is symbolic of?

Yesterday, I hung out with my friend by going to different stores so he could buy pokemon cards, and then we went to the mall to go look at girl's butts. Not much attractive scenery at the mall when we went but I saw a few pretty girls, but my friend wasn't impressed. He wanted to see some outstanding looking girls lol. He also gave me a data science presentation which was really cool, and excited me about my path to become a data analyst and eventually a data scientist. His brother got an associate data scientist position by creating a github so that's awesome and he only has a bachelor's degree like me. Knowing that proved I can become a data scientist too if I just keep consistently putting in the work in my google data analytics certificate. I am motivated.

[Sky]

@Shannon Will the Love Life Module in LTU6 help me manifest a girlfriend? Was just curious. Thanks.

[Sky]

I dreamed about a white girl I briefly hung out with in college and she was rubbing lotion on me. I was rubbing lotion all over her legs. Then, I dreamed about a friend who went to eat food at my place. I dreamed about other stuff but can't remember. Whenever I dream about girls, I usually have a hard-on when I wake up.

[Sky]

In a dream, I was staring at this Asian girl's butt who brought food to my mom's kitchen. I think she was Asian because she had tan skin. I was telling my cousin why I was going to have to leave my mom's place soon. I told him it was too depressing here and that I had made some good friends like R.

In real life, I hung out with a few friends yesterday at the mall to stare at girl's butts. We also went to a bookstore and my friend R and his brother bought pokemon cards. Then, we went back to my friend's place and we watched him play bloodborne. Another friend had joined at that time. Bloodborne is too scary of a game for me, but i don't mind watching him play. I like playing trails of cold steel 4.

[Sky]

I dreamed about running away from a group of white guys with Spencer from Survivor.

I had a date two days ago with an Indian girl. She was pretty hot. She had a deep voice though which surprised me. It is what it is.

[Sky]

The Indian girl said I'm not what she's looking for so she's not interested in me. I was bummed but I have another date with a thicker Indian girl this upcoming weekend. Maybe she and I will have better chemistry. Who knows. Also, I don't get that many dates. I just happen to be fortunate enough to have matched with these past two indian girls that I can go on dates with and who are attractive enough to me.

In terms of results, my president/CEO of the company had a talk with me today and said I will get to use PowerBI to automate reports and create graphs/dashboards. I wonder if this is luck magnifier at work because I've been wanting to use data visualization technology for a while. The CEO said he came across a consulting company that can automate reports into PowerBI which was surprising to him and he learned this by mistake through a presentation from one of his managing directors who is  working for a subsidiary of the company in another country, so luck magnifier maybe?

[RTBoss]

I dreamed about running away from a group of white guys with Spencer from Survivor.

I had a date two days ago with an Indian girl. She was pretty hot. She had a deep voice though which surprised me. It is what it is.

Ha, Survivor dreams.  I wonder, why Spencer?  Do you identify w/ traits that he has?

I used to have dreams I was on Survivor many times, including as a repeat cast member.  Always a fun dream.

Russel Hantz retweeted one of my tweets a few weeks ago...That was pretty cool.

How much longer do you intend to run LTU6 Stage 7?