LTU6 Journal

[Shannon]

Hi Guys,

I'm starting a journal to monitor my progress, invite discussion, gain insight, and use this journal as reminder to have gratitude. I'll probably just talk about my dreams and anything that seems like I'm achieving results. I've gone through the first six stages of LTU6 5.75G and am on month 3 of Stage 7. 

A few years back, I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder and had to take a break from subliminals, and I've been in recovery for 3 years for which I've received professional care. I really do want to continue changing my reality and I think that these subliminals are the way to do so rather than consistent visualization. 

So far, I've made friends on LTU6 through the gym, work, and old acquaintances from college. I've had an increase in salary by switching jobs. My old work environment was difficult and had a lot of office politics. My new job as a data analyst is low stress and no drama compared to my last one. 

The friends that I feel the most connected with and enjoy talking to are the ones I met at the gym, one friend in particular who I met there and hang out with introduced me to his other friends at the gym. 

On LTU6, I have dreams that I can and cannot remember, and I usually try to interpret those dreams to try and figure out what progress I'm having internally. I just try my best to have a good guess. I haven't cried on subliminals in a long time like I did on E1 and E2, so I really am not sure when I'm healing and clearing. If the energy flooding is true, I think the unconditional love from E4 within LTU6 is awesome!

As Shannon has said before, our outer reality matches our inner beliefs and we tune ourselves to a radio channel in which we meet certain types of people, have unique experiences, and achieve certain types of success.

Goals:

• Learn and be successful at my new job
  
• Make progress through the Google Data Analytics Certificate to learn new skills like SQL and R (currently my job uses excel and I like the certificate but sometimes I have trouble motivating myself and concentrating to do it. I'm pretty happy with my current life circumstances. I probably also have fear that I'm not smart enough to learn how to code in SQL and R too which is a belief I've struggled with for a long time now. I tend to be way more positive on LTU6 so I haven't consciously thought I can't learn to code, but I wonder if I put off doing the certificate for lack of interest, motivation, or fear of not being smart enough. I combat this by just doing 25-50 minutes of the course a day.)
  
• Get an attractive girlfriend through manifesting her into my reality (this is a big one, I haven't had a girlfriend before. I'm Indian by origin and was born and raised in the USA. I seem to only be attracted to Indian girls which I've figured out through experience but I wonder why I'm not attracted to white girls for instance. I've had experiences where I've kissed a white girl and felt nothing. @Shannon Is this related to fear of some type and will LTU6 work on this?
  
• Continue manifesting the right friendships into my life
  
• Hopefully lose weight by controlling my calorie intake and go to the gym more consistently to gain muscle (going to the gym feels like a chore to me, but I still do it even if i don't put in a full hour and just do 30 minutes.)
  

In response to the bolded section...

There are a lot of reasons why you might only be attracted to Indian girls, and it's not a bad thing.  It may just be personal preference; it may have to do with your cultural upbringing, it may be early experiences, and so on and so forth.  So kissing a white girl and feeling nothing isn't necessarily anything negative, and in fact it may be that you just kissed a white girl you were not compatible with in the right way!  Lot of possibilities.

LTU will most likely only "worry on it" if your reasons for not liking white girls stem from guilt, shame and or fear.  If you're subconsciously afraid of negative social consequences or the like, and that's why you don't respond to white girls when you might otherwise, for example, then it would be helpful.  But if you just prefer Indian girls... well, nothing wrong with that and nothing to work on or "fix".