12-12-2020, 07:16 AM
Stage , Day 1
Tonight I'll begin running my Stage 5 loops. I say that to clarify that this post if about Stage 4.
Last night I slept for 10 hours. Today, I feel great. During my worst bouts of exhaustion, I could easily sleep 12-13 hours (non-work days only) and feel like I hadn't gotten any rest at all. Fatigue has probably been the worst issues I've had with LTU6 as a whole, but I'm not experiencing any today.
Stage 4 turned out to be something really special for me on a lot of levels that I'm not sure I fully comprehend. I can't even adequately articulate the things I'm aware of. As I type this, I'm sitting here in my living room in silence. The TV is off. The only sounds are ambient noise. The house lights are off but the Christmas tree is lit up. My usual restlessness is gone. I'm experiencing something that I've only gotten glimpses of over the course of my entire life...peace. I'm content. The words I'm typing don't capture what's occurring within me. I am at peace. I am content.
In another post, I mentioned gaining an intuitive understanding about how reality changes. I'm going to try to describe it, but I'm probably going to come off as being totally nuts. The mental image I have is of a circle where I'm the nucleus. In this circle, I'm the only thing that's solid. Everything else becomes increasingly undefined, out of focus, and fluid as the distance from the nucleus (me) increases. There's no real sense of movement on my part, but there's a sense of position. And although my surroundings haven't changed per se', there's something very different. As I said above, this is difficult to articulate.
Tonight I'll begin running my Stage 5 loops. I say that to clarify that this post if about Stage 4.
Last night I slept for 10 hours. Today, I feel great. During my worst bouts of exhaustion, I could easily sleep 12-13 hours (non-work days only) and feel like I hadn't gotten any rest at all. Fatigue has probably been the worst issues I've had with LTU6 as a whole, but I'm not experiencing any today.
Stage 4 turned out to be something really special for me on a lot of levels that I'm not sure I fully comprehend. I can't even adequately articulate the things I'm aware of. As I type this, I'm sitting here in my living room in silence. The TV is off. The only sounds are ambient noise. The house lights are off but the Christmas tree is lit up. My usual restlessness is gone. I'm experiencing something that I've only gotten glimpses of over the course of my entire life...peace. I'm content. The words I'm typing don't capture what's occurring within me. I am at peace. I am content.
In another post, I mentioned gaining an intuitive understanding about how reality changes. I'm going to try to describe it, but I'm probably going to come off as being totally nuts. The mental image I have is of a circle where I'm the nucleus. In this circle, I'm the only thing that's solid. Everything else becomes increasingly undefined, out of focus, and fluid as the distance from the nucleus (me) increases. There's no real sense of movement on my part, but there's a sense of position. And although my surroundings haven't changed per se', there's something very different. As I said above, this is difficult to articulate.
