01-19-2023, 03:35 PM
(This post was last modified: 01-19-2023, 04:01 PM by ncbeareatingman.)
Yet more TID from OGSF, this afternoon I took a much needed nap, for 3 hours. As I was awakening slowly, I saw in my mind a re-living of a beating that I'd gotten in NYC ,when I lived there. I was 23, at the time, I was married at the time, yes to a woman, and the whole thing went down in front of her
The shame and humiliation, was damn near unbearable. That was April 1982.
I had not thought of that incident for years and years. It's still painful as hell to recall but not unbearable
I just want to ......the dude who did it but he's long gone now ...in another realm, one day, we shall git the shit straight. I was hit from behind
Sore for weeks. Why in the heck would this "suddenly"come up now of all times? OGSF
TID at work.... Wow! The healing work is underway and more I'm not upset or grovely
Though, by recalling it consciously. The forgiveness is mine to do, especially to forgive myself like Loving the self, both are seemingly hard as hell to do!
The shame and humiliation, was damn near unbearable. That was April 1982.
I had not thought of that incident for years and years. It's still painful as hell to recall but not unbearable
I just want to ......the dude who did it but he's long gone now ...in another realm, one day, we shall git the shit straight. I was hit from behind
Sore for weeks. Why in the heck would this "suddenly"come up now of all times? OGSF
TID at work.... Wow! The healing work is underway and more I'm not upset or grovely
Though, by recalling it consciously. The forgiveness is mine to do, especially to forgive myself like Loving the self, both are seemingly hard as hell to do!
Sherlock-your're an amazing fellow,Watson.Though You,yourself,not luminescent, you're an amazing conductor of Light"/"Loving You ,Heals Me"-an-NDE'er.""Blessed are those who can give without remembering and take without forgetting."-Trust is abouve ALL else!!"Money,does NOT change people,it ONLY reveals them!"