Jennie's Journal with Emotional Pain Relief and Healing Aid

[jennielee]

Day 38: i honestly dont know what to say this morning. I had an old issue that i thought was purged with hypnosis come back. I noticed i was able to completely face it without issues, and even talk openly about it to a friend. The feeling seemed to dissapear almost as quick as it came. Like it bothered me for a few minutes then after talking about it, it went away. I also find myself not accepting no for an answer, and am starting to see my subconscious work to that effect. Its a very odd thing to see. Now lets see if i can channel that into making some sales today lol

[jennielee]

Well so far no sales, but someone i haven't seen or spoken to in years just got in touch with me today. It was a very pleasant turn of events. I spent over 4 hours on the phone and probably could have talked for 4 more if his battery didnt die lol! I feel so incredibly happy today i cant even describe it. I guess everything happens for a reason.

[jennielee]

Day 39: i feel happy beyond belief at the moment. Life is definately making a turn for the better. All the pieces are falling into place one at a time. I find myself still facing fear from time to time but now its more of a simple challenge than a crippling force. I find that when im scared i simply focus on the solution instead of the fear.

[risingwarrior]

Great progress, jennie. I remember feeling that way when I tried EPHRA myself. Keep it up!

[jennielee]

Great progress, jennie. I remember feeling that way when I tried EPHRA myself. Keep it up!

Thanks! Its been a rough road, but the destination makes it all worth it

[jennielee]

Apparently lately i have become very attractive to men lol! I was over at the park and was being hit on today. I guess the aura i have has changed significantly. Previously being hit on to the degree i have been lately was unheard of. I have to wonder if this sub has any of the be irresistibly attractive in it lol!

[jennielee]

Day 40: it is without a shadow of a doubt that my soul mate has walked back into my life. He was my best friend since we were kids, and high school lovers. I have to say this was not the turn of events that i had expected, but it is certainly amazing. The timing of all this is beyond perfect. Just a month ago i wouldn't have been "ready" for him. This most certainly has to be the result of destiny. He is a man i can never get tired of talking to, and a man who never gets tired of listening. He is a man with the same views on life and love, and we both enjoy the same simple things alot of people take for granted. Things such as spending as much time as possible together, long walks, cuddling, sitting quietly together enjoying each others company. We have a complete ability to be open and honest even on the tough subjects. Its without any doubts that i say all of the recent events have been a training or preparation for this absolutely perfect moment. If it wasnt for the recent heartaches i wouldn't have figured out what i wanted, and what would make me happy. But now i am totally prepared for this. I have reached the point where i know i am independent and able to stand on my own, that i dont need anyone to complete me. I am whole in and of myself and as such i have far more to offer. I can now choose to be with someone instead of needing to be. So anyway the last piece of this puzzle is funding his trip across the country so we can be together again.

[ffaux]

So anyway the last piece of this puzzle is funding his trip across the country so we can be together again.

So my finger was hovering over the like button until I read this. I hope you're not planning on being the one to fund his trip.

[jennielee]

So anyway the last piece of this puzzle is funding his trip across the country so we can be together again.

So my finger was hovering over the like button until I read this. I hope you're not planning on being the one to fund his trip.

No, he is paying his way here, and he is also planning to help me with my bills etc while i get my business off the ground. But i have known him since i was in the first grade. There is no worry about anything when it comes to him. Id have to say he is the only man aside from my most recent ex that i have had such a strong bond and history with. My ex may have been my perfect sexual lover, but he is my perfect romantic lover and soul mate. Honestly, while sex is great, i really want the romance more in my life. I know that in the end this choice is going to lead to my happiness.

Day 41: there isnt much new to report. I am still extremely happy, and my ability to think clearly is really at its peak. I find myself making choices based on logic rather than emotions. I also have a great confidence in everything working out. I did notice however that lately ive had an unusual change in my eating habits. Its probably not related to anything, but ive been finding myself wanting to stay away from hamburger for the most part, and for some reason i have had alot of tuna in my diet. Its just an odd craving i guess.

[jennielee]

Day 42: things seem to have reached their peak. I almost feel done with this sub. I know im far from finished, but i feel all the major improvements have been made. Now its just time for refining and polishing. I know what i want out of life now, and how i plan to get there. I feel confident in both my choices and my abilities. Im sorry there isnt much more to write at the moment.

[jennielee]

Day 43: i find myself with all the vision i need to accomplish what i want but the means is lacking. Normally i would be terribly panicked because i couldn't tangibly see the path to the end result, and yet in spite of everything i am totally calm even with sales slower than a snail. I am expecting to start a booth at the local downtown event as soon as the finances permit. Once i get that im sure the exposure will cause things to start rolling. I have been debating on the idea of a loan, or just being patient and let it all come together without debt.

[jennielee]

Day 44: i have been distracted lately from my business due to trying to make arrangements. Today is going to be a day of refocusing and getting stuff done. The last few days though i have been feeling really good emotionally but i am noticing an increasing level of fatigue. Even coffee seems to barely have an effect. I cant seem to reasonably figure out what could be causing the lack of energy. I still get out of the house daily and then some. The last 3 days ive done 5 miles on the bike too. I have a dr appointment next week anyway so maybe i can ask them.

[jennielee]

Day 45: im finally getting somewhere! I got some really good feedback about my product descriptions. Apparently they are too wordy and vague and dont seem to make my product stand out from the crowd. So i guess the time has come to once again update them. Apparently my ex wasnt as good as i thought with his descriptions. Thats fine though, it will give me a chance to develop my own style and improve myself.

[jennielee]

So i finally finished rewriting all my product descriptions. I feel very happy with my accomplishments for today it was raining here so it was a good day to stay in anyway. New labels and a nice website are on the horizon. Ive picked the design for the labels, but i wont start with them untill the current stock is gone. Im excited to see how the product description changes affect sales!