JAKE'S IYGSH 4G JOURNAL

[Bookstacks DC737]

Dude you're going to need to just start working instead of posting a bunch of stuff whining about how you can't start.

If you're new to completing things and you've been avoidant your entire life, you have a weak willpower muscle. You're going to have to start things and probably fail a bunch and continue going to get it stronger.

[Jake2015]

Dude you're going to need to just start working instead of posting a bunch of stuff whining about how you can't start.

If you're new to completing things and you've been avoidant your entire life, you have a weak willpower muscle. You're going to have to start things and probably fail a bunch and continue going to get it stronger.

I understand, I'm sharing it so that if there is a change then I can spot it but as I type I realise more stuff so type that out too.

I have will power but in other areas of my life yet then I don't in other areas too.

I have mainly been avoidant of school/scholastic related stuff which doesn't make sense at all because all around me would assume I'm a top student since I'm a last minute guy and get the grades etc.

Starting for me isn't so easy, thats become more obvious otherwise I would and could just start, its why I'm here and why I now hope that MLS 5.5G will help me if not this IYGSH during this short run of it.

Im trying to start but sometimes I can and most times I can't

[Jake2015]

Day 9 Update

So had an exam yesterday and passed.

For 3 days I've had food poisoning, with runs and vomitting.

Vomitting has stopped, runs may have still finding out.

That being said, the procrastination hadn't really changed and now I feel back to being relaxed with hopeful dreams of being a great student and working hard, but that dream needs to become a reality one day.

[Jake2015]

Day 9 thoughts

I was on another thread where someones facing resistance after 1 year of having done E2.

I can't but feel down, that as someone that is apparently a resistor that there are others that even after a year of playing a clearing sub still have issues to clear.

I feel as if all clearing subs, whether E2, DMSI A etc can only really work if someone listens for years and years and years, which is far far too long for anyone to commit to a sub because life changes and grows and evolves and we have a finite time on this planet to spend it clearing issues because we need and must reach other goals.

I do hope sincerely hope of 2 things:

1) that when the 6G subs come out that they are noticeably more powerful than any sub ever have come before them and thus that those that seek to just clear atleast work within a year. Anything longer would make me feel as if that sub is no different to a 3g or 4g or 5g, because they all work longer than a year it seems to me.

2) That any clearing on other subs, all work together to add to the benefit of clearing done on other subs, so that those listening to say AYP clear issues for that goal so that those branches are removed so that MLS if played next works better and clears more and if say then E2 is used that it has less to clear and vice versa.

Im just thinking out loud because coming here for hope is one reason I come here to keep my hope and optimism high yet I can't help but feel whenever I read journals that yes there are those that get results, but I feel they get it short term for results they need at that time but almost everyone reaches a point where there is no change or increase and thats when we seek the next version.

I do remember when e2 came out it was touted as a very powerful sub, but how much more powerful is it than e1 I wonder.

Im not trying to be negative just having a downer I guess :/

[Jake2015]

Day 10 Update

Loss of motivation, loss of enthusiasm and joy, just feel closed and blah

Spend time alone in my apartment on youtube or online

Don't feel the desire to go out, the desire to do much or anything

Im not down, I'm not sad, I'm not negative, I'm just boring

No idea why

[mojamhaque]

Day 10 Update

Loss of motivation, loss of enthusiasm and joy, just feel closed and blah

Spend time alone in my apartment on youtube or online

Don't feel the desire to go out, the desire to do much or anything

Im not down, I'm not sad, I'm not negative, I'm just boring

No idea why

Same thing also happening with me. I also have some more and that's are Nervousness, Performance Consciousness and Money Consciousness. Also my interest on study is gone

[Shawn]

Day 10 Update

Loss of motivation, loss of enthusiasm and joy, just feel closed and blah

Spend time alone in my apartment on youtube or online

Don't feel the desire to go out, the desire to do much or anything

Im not down, I'm not sad, I'm not negative, I'm just boring

No idea why

Same thing also happening with me. I also have some more and that's are Nervousness, Performance Consciousness and Money Consciousness. Also my interest on study is gone

E2 shifts you attention toward your inner self instead of outside, this could explain your lost of interest in studies. Also E2 can bring up some insecurities towards the surface. This is the healing process.

[Zane]

Procrastination, Fear and Avoidance.

Whereas yesterday I did some work which I forgot to mention, I did around 2hours yesterday I today have done none.

Whereas the 2hours were done due to fear of the approaching deadline for the exam....today there is fear and no action.

The fear is a feeling inside that results in inactivity.

Today I realised while wasting time with a friend who is a fellow procrastinator, that we both plan and dream of what we will do in the future, such as in the summer and then in our 3rd year, how we will do this and that, but in actuality we procrastinate today and we will tomorrow.

The biggest dream I have is that MLS 5.5G comes out, I start it and it not only kicks my procrastination to the ground but motivates me to study and not only motivates me but gives me hope and positivity and not only hope and positivity but gives me a memory where I can read far few times and remember far more and far longer....all while studying with intense focus and concentration.

My issues isn't studying its starting.

Don't move me and I will stay, move me and I will not stop...this is what I am, not Jake1015 but more like Super Inertia haha

somebody move me or as the mask would say....

Day 5 update continued....

I think on deeper level we all this that MLS-5.5G will solve all our issues related to studies, memory, focus, procrastination and motivation. I am not saying that it won't. But dreaming about MLS-5.5G only signifies that how badly you want to improve your cognitive issues. I had those same dreams when I was on my MHS-5.5G journey. It was at the end of 3-4 week that I started having dreams related to MLS-5.5G and Shannon telling me to use it.. . After day I started having other dream in which I started taking supplements to fix my brain and dreams in which I was productive and good student in school (which I never was as I was a looser due to ADHD).

Thing is that after I few days I realised that I really have to do something to fix my brain and can't be sitting on my ass and expect MLS-5.5G to fix all of my issues... Right now I am on OF-5G and I seriously don't care if if MLS-5.5G comes out or not. Subconsciously I don't wanna use MLS-5.5G right now cause with fear out of the window I see that I have nothing to loose as I have already lost what I could that is Time..But consciously I know MLS-5.5G can fix my issues..
What I am trying to say is that I seriously don't want to depend on anything.. People, subs etc.. All I wanna do is depend on myself. It's okay to ask for help but to depend on someone or something will only make you a weak person..

It's okay to use MLS-5.5G to help you fix ur issues but don't depend on it. How can u expect to grow and become independent if u keep depending on something and someone?

Right now I am trying to fix my focus issues, memory issues and procrastination issues all by myself. Won't say it's will fix all of it but it's just a start.

[Jake2015]

Day 10 Update

Loss of motivation, loss of enthusiasm and joy, just feel closed and blah

Spend time alone in my apartment on youtube or online

Don't feel the desire to go out, the desire to do much or anything

Im not down, I'm not sad, I'm not negative, I'm just boring

No idea why

Same thing also happening with me. I also have some more and that's are Nervousness, Performance Consciousness and Money Consciousness. Also my interest on study is gone

E2 shifts you attention toward your inner self instead of outside, this could explain your lost of interest in studies. Also E2 can bring up some insecurities towards the surface. This is the healing process.

Thanks Mr Anderson, except that I havent been on E2 now for a while so I'm doubting its that which has caused me to become so slow.

[Jake2015]

Procrastination, Fear and Avoidance.

Whereas yesterday I did some work which I forgot to mention, I did around 2hours yesterday I today have done none.

Whereas the 2hours were done due to fear of the approaching deadline for the exam....today there is fear and no action.

The fear is a feeling inside that results in inactivity.

Today I realised while wasting time with a friend who is a fellow procrastinator, that we both plan and dream of what we will do in the future, such as in the summer and then in our 3rd year, how we will do this and that, but in actuality we procrastinate today and we will tomorrow.

The biggest dream I have is that MLS 5.5G comes out, I start it and it not only kicks my procrastination to the ground but motivates me to study and not only motivates me but gives me hope and positivity and not only hope and positivity but gives me a memory where I can read far few times and remember far more and far longer....all while studying with intense focus and concentration.

My issues isn't studying its starting.

Don't move me and I will stay, move me and I will not stop...this is what I am, not Jake1015 but more like Super Inertia haha

somebody move me or as the mask would say....

Day 5 update continued....

I think on deeper level we all this that MLS-5.5G will solve all our issues related to studies, memory, focus, procrastination and motivation. I am not saying that it won't. But dreaming about MLS-5.5G only signifies that how badly you want to improve your cognitive issues. I had those same dreams when I was on my MHS-5.5G journey. It was at the end of 3-4 week that I started having dreams related to MLS-5.5G and Shannon telling me to use it.. . After day I started having other dream in which I started taking supplements to fix my brain and dreams in which I was productive and good student in school (which I never was as I was a looser due to ADHD).

Thing is that after I few days I realised that I really have to do something to fix my brain and can't be sitting on my ass and expect MLS-5.5G to fix all of my issues... Right now I am on OF-5G and I seriously don't care if if MLS-5.5G comes out or not. Subconsciously I don't wanna use MLS-5.5G right now cause with fear out of the window I see that I have nothing to loose as I have already lost what I could that is Time..But consciously I know MLS-5.5G can fix my issues..
What I am trying to say is that I seriously don't want to depend on anything.. People, subs etc.. All I wanna do is depend on myself. It's okay to ask for help but to depend on someone or something will only make you a weak person..

It's okay to use MLS-5.5G to help you fix ur issues but don't depend on it. How can u expect to grow and become independent if u keep depending on something and someone?

Right now I am trying to fix my focus issues, memory issues and procrastination issues all by myself. Won't say it's will fix all of it but it's just a start.

I think I understand but that isn't the purpose of Subs and all mental programming.

My understanding is that we take responsibility by trying to change ourselves. We then do this by finding out why we do what we do and all self help literature stems from mental programming. We think therefore we do.

This thinking is subconscious scripting. We must therefore change this dialogue. It isn't easy and the ways I'm aware of such as hypnosis and visualisation and self affirmations are all there to try and change you eventually but take time for some and a lot of time for others.

This is also effort, even hypnosis is an effort for some. If there was a way to bypass the gate keeper i.e. our conscious mind and allow us to pour in posititive suggestions into our subconscious then we can change and become better. This is the purpose of subliminals.

I therefore don't see it as dependent but hopeful reliance on a tool that can change what or that which we all struggle to change and improve ourselves.

Im finding it a struggle to change my behaviour. Its clearly a behaviour of procrastination that has got worse over the years and has stemmed from childhood at some point in my life.

The current procrastination I have could very well be due to the healing slowly change of E2 but theres no guarantee it is that.

I have no choice but to therefore rely on these subs and hope that they make the change upon me.

I haven't had the subs work on me so far, I believe this is either due to myself not giving them a chance, and by chance I believe 3 months minimum is needed to evaluate or that I'm not listening to them properly (I believe I am, because I've asked so many on here time and time again to help me on this) and therefore the only other conclusion is that I may be a resistor.

Shannon has said resistance doesn't mean it impossible but clearly I'm taking time to change, and time is needed.

I am also desperate to change, because I am at uni and have exams which must be passed otherwise I'm going to screw up my life even more.

I guess we are all here depending on these subs, and believe me if it was so easy to by pass my emotions and feelings to do what I must do then I wouldnt be here at all.

I also came here because these subs can be played in silence thus not interfering with my life and this makes them powerful tools.

I would love like all here to cleanse my inner garbage and be reborn a new but so far I don't think the subs are able to do this for anyone as I havent met anyone here that has used the subs and continued to grow.

I hope that 6G achieves this but I therefore don't see 6G being released for a few more years yet as Shannon has said that 6G means the end of the line for development and development must mean the goal of bypassing resistance and finally achieving what the subs intend to.

So many here seem to not get the full listed goals that the various subs purpose to help you achieve and thats why its paramount that 6G achieves this.

Until then I have no other choice, because there is no other way for me to achieve my goal easily.

Hope that made sense lol

[Jake2015]

Day 14 Update

Procrastination

I find myself slower than usual and this could be due to some antihistamines/allergies pills I have started to take to ward off some minor hay fever or seasonal allergies I thought I may be coming down with.

These pills cause drowsiness and so whenever I wake I do find myself completely drowsy and slow at times.

My sleep is terrible I'm not sleeping until 6am which causes me to wake at 2pm and exams are around 8am so I'm struggling right now.

Shannon has said something about MLS taking longer so I'm going to take his advice as to how to progress since I didn't expect to be on a 4G sub for longer than 2 weeks to be honest.

I forgot to add also that when I'm sat alone in my apartment, I'm not on the phone to anyone, no friends nobody, my social group here is kinda dead and I don't have anyone to really chat to, then I end up sometimes thinking about how I have been cruel or bad to my brother, or said things in the past to family I shouldn't have or didn't mean to.

Im not a bad person, but I have bad reactions like all and I regret upsetting or hurting them. I regret causing any internal low self esteem in my family too and I regret not being the son and becoming the son they expected me to and hoped I would. I have so much potential and I havent lived up to it and i always wanted to support my family and help them but instead they helped me and they supported me. I have been nothing but a liability and a burden and I don't know how or why I have but I even now while writing this seem to be going down a downward spiral of regret so ill stop but yeah this is all.

[Jake2015]

Got my answer and sharing here so I can refer back to it whenever I need to

ReeZox said
...DMSI will aim to clear/heal anything keeping you from being your most sexually attractive self. If you become unattractive while procrastination, well guess what DMSI will take care of? That's right - procrastination!
It's also likely DMSI will instruct your mind to overcome SOME fears of why you're procrastinating. But not necessarily all of them.
How "far down the rabbit hole" you go with DMSI depends on how much shit you've been through in your life, and how much DMSI needs to work with. Sometimes it definitely gets tough, but with the emotional shield, you'll not notice the majority of it. I haven't at least.

E2: Will "heal" everything in your life, goes at your own pace. Will solve the procrastination issues (as they are based on fear) eventually. Could take 1 month, could take 3 years
DMSI: Will "heal" everything RELATED to your sexuality, and make you as sexually attractive you can be. Which likely means you won't procrastinate, at least not as much you are doing now. But there is no guarantee as none of us except you knows how your subconscious would change your life around with DMSI.
IYGSH: Focuses on improving your grades and study habits. Which will get rid of procrastination and most of your problems as you describe it.

[mojamhaque]

Got my answer and sharing here so I can refer back to it whenever I need to

ReeZox said
...DMSI will aim to clear/heal anything keeping you from being your most sexually attractive self. If you become unattractive while procrastination, well guess what DMSI will take care of? That's right - procrastination!
It's also likely DMSI will instruct your mind to overcome SOME fears of why you're procrastinating. But not necessarily all of them.
How "far down the rabbit hole" you go with DMSI depends on how much shit you've been through in your life, and how much DMSI needs to work with. Sometimes it definitely gets tough, but with the emotional shield, you'll not notice the majority of it. I haven't at least.

E2: Will "heal" everything in your life, goes at your own pace. Will solve the procrastination issues (as they are based on fear) eventually. Could take 1 month, could take 3 years
DMSI: Will "heal" everything RELATED to your sexuality, and make you as sexually attractive you can be. Which likely means you won't procrastinate, at least not as much you are doing now. But there is no guarantee as none of us except you knows how your subconscious would change your life around with DMSI.
IYGSH: Focuses on improving your grades and study habits. Which will get rid of procrastination and most of your problems as you describe it.

03 Yearssssssssss? Why not 03 months?????

[Jake2015]

Got my answer and sharing here so I can refer back to it whenever I need to

ReeZox said
...DMSI will aim to clear/heal anything keeping you from being your most sexually attractive self. If you become unattractive while procrastination, well guess what DMSI will take care of? That's right - procrastination!
It's also likely DMSI will instruct your mind to overcome SOME fears of why you're procrastinating. But not necessarily all of them.
How "far down the rabbit hole" you go with DMSI depends on how much shit you've been through in your life, and how much DMSI needs to work with. Sometimes it definitely gets tough, but with the emotional shield, you'll not notice the majority of it. I haven't at least.

E2: Will "heal" everything in your life, goes at your own pace. Will solve the procrastination issues (as they are based on fear) eventually. Could take 1 month, could take 3 years
DMSI: Will "heal" everything RELATED to your sexuality, and make you as sexually attractive you can be. Which likely means you won't procrastinate, at least not as much you are doing now. But there is no guarantee as none of us except you knows how your subconscious would change your life around with DMSI.
IYGSH: Focuses on improving your grades and study habits. Which will get rid of procrastination and most of your problems as you describe it.

03 Yearssssssssss? Why not 03 months?????

I think this may be something to ask Shannon about directly but from my limited understanding, I think e2 may even take 6years.

It all I think depends on how quickly you respond to E2 and then once you respond how it works to heal you at YOUR own pace. Since we have 1000s of issues I assume, then it makes sense that going at whatever pace is correct and safe for your subconscious multiplied by the number of issues you have results in healing maybe starting for some at 3months, but healing everything or major things I cannot say, but 3 years seems rather optimistic.

The more time I spend here on the forum the more I learn, but honestly I'm not qualified to answer this question of yours bro.