01-15-2016, 03:20 PM
(01-15-2016, 08:29 AM)in3deep Wrote: Hi guys... been a super super long time since i made any post in this forum
thought would just update on my life in general
i was running AYPW from Oct 2014 - June 2015.. saw no results
stopped running the sub and started learning visualisations and applying before bedtime.. still doing it till now
just some updates
End Aug: was on training for 1 week... saw a girl.. 1st instance din take too much notice... overtime found her attractive in her own way... we never talked though.. i was comfortable talking to everyone but her cause of the attraction i was feeling
End Sept: another training and finally casually talked to her.. found out we were in the same mini project grp as well.. did manage to find out shes single
Oct - Dec : just some casual chats in office communicator.. most of the time it was me initiating chats.. and not like i did it often.. prob 4 or 5 times... she did put lotsa effort into covnersing but she never initiated any chats on her own
Jan: 3 days course with her... i got cockblocked by a colleague of hers for the 3 days.. obvious he was intrested in her and they had a common grp of friends so they stuck together the whole time.. so just limited to casual hi/byes when bump into each other
suddenly since the course ended, things have suddenly changed... from not talking much in the course, she now initiates conversations and we are chatting on whatsapp... for past 2 days we have been talking nonstop on office communicator and carrying on the conversations on whatsapp after work etc... could stretch till 11pm at night.. its like suddenly shes telling me everything about her life... she mentions that she hasnt told others these stuff before etc... which includes *drumroll* how shes been emotionally damaged for past couple of years cause of an ex.. and tt she bumped into him recently and it made her depressed etc.. ofcoz she also talked about alot of things not related to her ex
i know some of you may say she may be a result of the leftover effects of the sub.. some will say its my visualisation... some will say its neither and shes juz a random person screwing ard with me
even i'm unsure... sometimes i feel like its one of those LOA things where the pressure has been building up behind the scenes invisibly and the floodgates suddenly juz abt opened , thus explaining the sudden unexpected talks for 2 full days.. at other times i think maybe shes just lonely and sad and would have been willing to talk to anyone
since months back, something has been telling me tt she could actually be the one , i actually felt she was sorta perfect in her own way... but im wondering, if she is the one, would she be telling me abt how damaged life and how seeing her ex made her feel like crap.. so i'm in 2 minds.. at times i feel shes the one yet at times, my rational brain says if she she one, she wont be still damaged by her ex despite all the time and effort she has spent talking to me recently
(she did put lotsa effort into covnersing but she never initiated any chats on her own)
Social pressure from many sources and beliefs prevents her from initiating the conversation. Doesn't want to look like a slut.
(i got cockblocked by a colleague of hers for the 3 days..)
She may have asked him to do this to find out how sincere you were or just a creep.
My friend in school liked a girl and she asked her friend to pretend he was her boyfriend so my friend would leave her alone.
(if she is the one, would she be telling me abt how damaged life and how seeing her ex made her feel like crap.)
Most guys aren't willing to hear this, the fact you are listening means you are interested in her and it means a lot. Sounds like she is still healing, eventually she will stop talking about her ex and change the topic to you and her. We all have a past and we all make mistakes.
It is good and bad that she experienced this. Bad that it happened to her, good because she can see you are a better person than her ex. We meet a lot of people throughout our lives and it is from those experiences that we figure out what we really want in a relationship.
INTP-A
When you imagine something vividly... your subconscious will bring it into reality.
When you imagine something vividly... your subconscious will bring it into reality.