03-18-2016, 02:13 AM
Day 9
Today is ok, nothing too special. I've been a bit confused, maybe not so motivated.
A day or two back I had a dream where I was doing pull ups again and, to my surprise, there was no pain or discomfort in my forearm whatsoever. It wasn't magically healed in real life though, but I've been using more cold on it and massaging it with a base ball, and it just might be getting a little better. Btw, just read that astaxanthin blocks nitric oxide. Usually there's talk of all possible ways to increase NO, thus expanding the blood vessels. Good for working out and libido, blood pressure. Too tired to research this now, but I hope the effect isn't too strong.
It seems my energy expenditure might be slightly up for some reason. Could be anything.
Yesterday I was having a conversation and noticed I was holding my own with this very high-energy friend of mine without any doubting thoughts. I even marveled at it for a while. And then I gradually lost it.
Day 12
Idk, can't remember much of these last days. I've been tired and I'm reducing my hours a bit. I'm keeping my attention on wanting and I'm thinking about how I want to go about things - life, women, work. I've been meaning to journal on some beliefs that are holding me back like suggested in The ultimate goal: how to not give a fuck book, and I did some yesterday. Good stuff, great insight. Socializing is as good as its ever been, I guess.
Today is ok, nothing too special. I've been a bit confused, maybe not so motivated.
A day or two back I had a dream where I was doing pull ups again and, to my surprise, there was no pain or discomfort in my forearm whatsoever. It wasn't magically healed in real life though, but I've been using more cold on it and massaging it with a base ball, and it just might be getting a little better. Btw, just read that astaxanthin blocks nitric oxide. Usually there's talk of all possible ways to increase NO, thus expanding the blood vessels. Good for working out and libido, blood pressure. Too tired to research this now, but I hope the effect isn't too strong.
It seems my energy expenditure might be slightly up for some reason. Could be anything.
Yesterday I was having a conversation and noticed I was holding my own with this very high-energy friend of mine without any doubting thoughts. I even marveled at it for a while. And then I gradually lost it.
Day 12
Idk, can't remember much of these last days. I've been tired and I'm reducing my hours a bit. I'm keeping my attention on wanting and I'm thinking about how I want to go about things - life, women, work. I've been meaning to journal on some beliefs that are holding me back like suggested in The ultimate goal: how to not give a fuck book, and I did some yesterday. Good stuff, great insight. Socializing is as good as its ever been, I guess.
Thoughts, opinions and beliefs subject to change without prior notice.
