10-24-2019, 12:36 PM
Holy shit, I had one of the darkest episodes I've had for a long time today. I just felt detached from reality but still emotionally stirred up, at the verge of having a breakdown. Had really big anxiety at work at my performance and just interacting with my colleague. Took a long walk from walk and it got a bit better, came home and had dinner with my parents and it just got worse, felt like I was somewhere else but still emotionally suffering. Went to bed listened to some music and just breathed through it. It took a couple of hours, but I got out on the other side, but in the gist of the episode things just felt eternal and I felt the darkness pulling me in. But I didn't shy away from it, just tried to accept it and breathe through it, and well, I got through it.
