09-04-2019, 04:47 AM
Ok so I have a distant dream that I want to work with and produce music. I love music. It's a big part of my life, and I figured, why not give it a shot. So I downloaded some tutorials on producing music and started looking into it. However, I feel it's associated with some (a lot) anxiety. Questions are popping up like "will I ever be able to do this, shouldn't I just focus on a normal career?" "I'm wasting all my university degree" "I don't have real talent anyway". So apparently I have this critical voice inside of me.
I figure that maybe I can have a day-time job to get the money in, and work on this as a hobby, but with a clear goal in mind that it's what I really want to do, and if I just work on it enough, and give it enough attention I will figure it out.
But I also ask myself the question "is this the right way to go" and I really hate that voice. Like that "there is so much more to explore", I have trouble with dedication right now, and I figure that this voice isn't really worth listening to, better to listen to the quiet voice inside that got me to start looking into this stuff.
I think I can really enjoy working with music and be happy with it. And I think that I have a talent for it somewhere. But It's scary looking down that path for some reason. Because it's not a "standard path" and whatever I had in mind for myself in life. But going you own way is scary I guess, and starting to work with music doesn't make it impossible for me to work with other stuff I want to do, like going into business and stuff. Or it does. Maybe succeeding in music require a full commitment into it. But I don't have to do it right now, I can just start exploring it, and figuring out the other parts of my life to make money etc. at the same time.
I figure that maybe I can have a day-time job to get the money in, and work on this as a hobby, but with a clear goal in mind that it's what I really want to do, and if I just work on it enough, and give it enough attention I will figure it out.
But I also ask myself the question "is this the right way to go" and I really hate that voice. Like that "there is so much more to explore", I have trouble with dedication right now, and I figure that this voice isn't really worth listening to, better to listen to the quiet voice inside that got me to start looking into this stuff.
I think I can really enjoy working with music and be happy with it. And I think that I have a talent for it somewhere. But It's scary looking down that path for some reason. Because it's not a "standard path" and whatever I had in mind for myself in life. But going you own way is scary I guess, and starting to work with music doesn't make it impossible for me to work with other stuff I want to do, like going into business and stuff. Or it does. Maybe succeeding in music require a full commitment into it. But I don't have to do it right now, I can just start exploring it, and figuring out the other parts of my life to make money etc. at the same time.
