I think I am getting a small taste of what it means to have self-esteem. I had a meeting today at work with one of my bosses and he talked about what kind of companies we look for, and the entrepreneur who we had the meeting with always in some way was in some mode of trying to prove himself to my boss, instead of listening to what he actually was saying. So like if he was telling an anecdote to illustrate an example, instead of reflecting on the anecdote and the point that was being made, the entrepreneur just tried to fend of what he though was a search of his/his company value. I recognized myself in the entrepreneur, and how I previously often was trying to impress other people and prove my value for them, rather than being present in the conversation and listening to what was being said, and learning from people with more experience then me. This was really a mind-shift, and I'm sure that Shannons subliminals is playing a part in this. Self-esteem is the ability for me to relax and not be so defensive, but to stay with an open mind and not letting my hurt ego come in the way of whatever I am trying to achieve in life. Amazing revelation. It's like something is starting to show itself to me, a reality in life where you don't need to prove yourself, but you can stay true to your words, gain experience and become valuable in yourself, rather than going around trying to make other think that you are good. Like I am going on a path of substance rather than shallowness. This feels good.
The day on work was pretty smooth, even though I felt horrible in the morning, but I still went to work and see it turned out to become a pretty good day! I feel less and less need to prove myself to others and put my self-esteem in their hands.
The day on work was pretty smooth, even though I felt horrible in the morning, but I still went to work and see it turned out to become a pretty good day! I feel less and less need to prove myself to others and put my self-esteem in their hands.
