I'm working on becoming more grounded every day and every day and I see progress. I feel more inside of my body, less worried about stuff that's about to come, and more present, in general less fear around other people and more ability to "stand my ground" in a general sense. I feel more and more at ease. I still have some bad days, and bad parts of good days, but things are constantly improving and moving toward a better place. I don't take stuff so personally as I did before. I'm feeling more and free. Today I sat down and played the piano for one hour, something I haven't done in years. And you know what? Many of the songs I knew before still are there, I can't recall them by writing them out in notes, but my fingers know how to play them. So cool. And I am starting to learn a new song that will take some serious dedication to master, and before I would think it would be impossible to master it, but now I just take it a step at the time and know that with dedicated effort and patience I will get it over time. Huge progress!
Oh yeah I went out this weekend and just enjoyed the music and dancing. I had some ladies rub themselves on me which felt pretty good, haha. Also a super cute girl came up to me and started chatting but I didn't really know what to do. Anyway, progress in being noticed at least! With time and as I heal and become more comfortable in myself again, things will become more smoother in the area of talking to girls I believe.
Oh yeah I went out this weekend and just enjoyed the music and dancing. I had some ladies rub themselves on me which felt pretty good, haha. Also a super cute girl came up to me and started chatting but I didn't really know what to do. Anyway, progress in being noticed at least! With time and as I heal and become more comfortable in myself again, things will become more smoother in the area of talking to girls I believe.
