I'm writing here because I think it is the result of using E2.
I have stopped E2 for about a week, and it's amazing. I still see and feel E2.
Today was another day of noisy arguements, and I was able to handle it calmly (90% of it, at least). The other party was argumentative, finding fault, twisting my words and doing a host of other things angry people do. The thing I probably would have handled differently in future was not to be confrontational at first when provoked, and to give things some thought first.
Although I was eloquent in expressing myself incisively and clearly, it obviously did not sit well with the other party, because I was the perfect mirror, directing the level of energy back at him. People don't really do well with their own poison, even though they enjoy poisoning others with their words. I think my first words set the other party on fire. Not a good tone for subsequent conversations. Nevertheless, I cooled down quickly and I calmly handled the rest of the conversations
During the time the other party was talking I realised how different our levels were. I could see through the intentions, like trying to provoke me, trying to get me to shut up, trying to change the topic, avoidance of the big questions. It's VERY cool. It's like the special power I've wanted all my life.
In the end, the outcome (for that day) was not good. But I am generally pleased with how I handled it and how it did not affect me much.
E2! E2! E2! Fighting those demons and going through that difficult period was worth it!
I have stopped E2 for about a week, and it's amazing. I still see and feel E2.
Today was another day of noisy arguements, and I was able to handle it calmly (90% of it, at least). The other party was argumentative, finding fault, twisting my words and doing a host of other things angry people do. The thing I probably would have handled differently in future was not to be confrontational at first when provoked, and to give things some thought first.
Although I was eloquent in expressing myself incisively and clearly, it obviously did not sit well with the other party, because I was the perfect mirror, directing the level of energy back at him. People don't really do well with their own poison, even though they enjoy poisoning others with their words. I think my first words set the other party on fire. Not a good tone for subsequent conversations. Nevertheless, I cooled down quickly and I calmly handled the rest of the conversations
During the time the other party was talking I realised how different our levels were. I could see through the intentions, like trying to provoke me, trying to get me to shut up, trying to change the topic, avoidance of the big questions. It's VERY cool. It's like the special power I've wanted all my life.
In the end, the outcome (for that day) was not good. But I am generally pleased with how I handled it and how it did not affect me much.
E2! E2! E2! Fighting those demons and going through that difficult period was worth it!
