EPHRA 1 (free version) experiment

[TheWeapon]

Oh yeah I didn't mean to downplay it's effectiveness by describing it as the "free version" in the title, I thought it would help make it clear what I am using for people who may be interested in testing E1. I think it's a great idea that you offer some quality subs for free, because I never would have made a purchase without some testing, and now I am certain to make a purchase in the future.

AM6 sounds good. I was going to use E1 for 6 months. Do you think that's a good idea, but you say AM6 has E1 in it too? How long would you suggest I use E1 if the plan is to transition to AM6? I am currently on day 22.

As for DMSI-A side, I am married, but that sounds pretty nice, having people I am attracted to wanting to have sex with me lol. That would be a first. I like the thought that DMSI-A has better H&C than E1 though. I think that's what I need more than anything is to clear out all the limiting self-beliefs that formed around different traumatic experiences.

I've still been having some crazy dreams and even though they don't make logical sense I can tell it's my brain trying to rearrange my beliefs in an abstract way. Like taking bits and pieces from different situations that would or did hurt my ego but in the dream there is never the pain. It's as if I am learning that this is OK, and I don't need to feel and react to this type of thing, as I would in person. It's a hard thing for me to explain but the sub is definitely doing things. Some days the depression continues, but now I am embracing it and viewing it as part of the healing. The more I accept, the more I heal and the better things will eventually be. I am sure some people have noticed my ups and downs but I won't let that make me feel bad, I'll keep marching on.

[RTBoss]

Oh yeah I didn't mean to downplay it's effectiveness by describing it as the "free version" in the title, I thought it would help make it clear what I am using for people who may be interested in testing E1. I think it's a great idea that you offer some quality subs for free, because I never would have made a purchase without some testing, and now I am certain to make a purchase in the future.

AM6 sounds good. I was going to use E1 for 6 months. Do you think that's a good idea, but you say AM6 has E1 in it too? How long would you suggest I use E1 if the plan is to transition to AM6? I am currently on day 22.

As for DMSI-A side, I am married, but that sounds pretty nice, having people I am attracted to wanting to have sex with me lol. That would be a first. I like the thought that DMSI-A has better H&C than E1 though. I think that's what I need more than anything is to clear out all the limiting self-beliefs that formed around different traumatic experiences. [...]

Based on this, I would recommend E2. I only ran it for 90 days, before switching to the first version of DMSI (over 2 years ago), but it was an amazing 90 days. DMSI will focus healing anything standing in the way of achieving the goals of the program - which can indeed be myriad things - but you may find E2 a better fit for what you're describing.

If you're going to run AM6 - which will change and empower you - running E1 for at least 32 days first has helped many people get more out of AM in the past.

[Shannon]

Oh yeah I didn't mean to downplay it's effectiveness by describing it as the "free version" in the title, I thought it would help make it clear what I am using for people who may be interested in testing E1. I think it's a great idea that you offer some quality subs for free, because I never would have made a purchase without some testing, and now I am certain to make a purchase in the future.

I wasn't taking it as you downplaying anything. Just saying it that way to emphasize that it's a good program.

[TheWeapon]

Thanks for the info RTBoss, I have looked into E2 before now and it definitely is another good option. I will have a think about it more and decide at a later date. For now I am making progress on E1, so in the future if I upgrade to a newer sub and learn that the benefits are much greater, then I will not have regret, I will be happy and assume the timing was meant to be.

OK no worries Shannon, I probably read into what you wrote too much but I didn't want you to think I was disrespectful or unappreciative of the free sub, because it has been helping me.

[TheWeapon]

Day 27

I thought today how much my life has changed in such a short time since I started listening to EPHRA. It's changed very covertly, that you could almost guess it was natural and not the subliminal. I feel like EPHRA has changed my trajectory in life in respect to both my behavior and thinking. For example I have been into strength training for a long time and it comes to my attention how far I was truly pushing myself away from my goals. I'd lift heavy weights to help raise my self-esteem, making me feel superior to others, but all I did was promote tiredness and injury. I have gradually over these weeks transitioned away from obsessively counting calories and began moving/training for the purpose of fun and movement quality. I am not obsessing over diet and instead eating healthy one ingredient foods when I am hungry. I am allowing my body to heal physically, something I have not done for a long time, normally having too much focus on training and achieving strength goals to take the time off to allow old injuries to heal. I can see now that a lot of things I did were in response to low self-esteem (look at what I can do, I am better than you) and other things were in relation to anxiety (perfectionism - e.g. perfect diet, perfect body). I edited and rewrote this post because it did not read very well and made no sense, but what I mean by this is that I have had a realisation that EPHRA is changing my behavior and thinking in a way that it feels natural and was my own doing. It almost came as a surprise to think about what changes are happening and then make the connection to the sub. I have also been looking at the "self-esteem 5.5g" subliminal as another option when I have finished with EPHRA. But for now the experiment continues.

[TheWeapon]

Day 30

Looking back, it’s been a damn good 30 days. EPRHA has helped immensely and I am excited to have found such a powerful tool. I had some serious financial matters hanging over my head that were recently resolved and I am now in position where I do not need to be concerned with money for the foreseeable future. A big relief, and I am grateful for how fortunate I am to be in such a position. For the past 30 days, instead of watching porn on a daily basis, I have watched once every 6-8 days for only a single and brief period of time. I still sleep in a separate room from my wife but we are now being intimate on a regular basis.

As for EPRHA, the most noticeable impact has been what I discussed in my last post. I had an insight, and realized that I unwittingly harm myself physically, mentally and emotionally. This insight came as a huge surprise and I am certain that it was triggered by EPRHA. Not only have I started looking after myself but I notice I am now looking after my property too. I have serviced the cars and have been completing different repair jobs on the house. I have been making the family home a more comfortable place to live. They are jobs I am capable of doing but for whatever reason, I’d always put them off, instead mindlessly browsing the internet or watching porn. I was in a rut so deep that I did not even know it and my behaviors were fueled by fear, anxiety and depression.

It’s my 30th run of EPRHA tonight but I wanted to do a 30 day report because I am excited. I have talked to my wife about the subs and explained how they work and what a difference this one has been making to my life. I know I have a long, long, long way to go but it feels like the sky is the limit. I might update here less frequently, but I will continue with EPRHA updates.

[TheWeapon]

Day 36 (tonight)

I hit some some tough resistance since my last post, the worst I experienced since the first week of the sub. I am happy to experience it though and I have tried my best to accept it but it's tough when I feel so depressed and yesterday I had panic attack level anxiety.

Today I am feeling better, still not at 100%, but I can tell I am coming out the other side. Last night I had a lot of dreams. I can't remember then, but I remember waking up and in a half-asleep state, I was visualizing trimming my issues into a neat little rectangular prism. That sounds weird, but it was like I was trimming back a hedge inside my head. I don't know what the hell that was all about but it felt as if it signified that I was successfully processing something through my dreams.

Another note. I bought new speakers with a 20khz frequency output and from day 32 onward I have been using the ultrasonic track at night. It feels like I sleep better because I can't hear anything but I have been waking up with that familiar tired feeling that I noticed when I first began the masked track. I think it made the resistance stronger too, but perhaps it would have been the same had I continued with the masked track, I will never know. It's been a tough week though, and I thought this was worth an update. I also thought it was interesting that the resistance peaked around the day 32 mark. Not sure if there's any significance there, but I know these subs are recommended to be run for a minimum of 32 days.

[TheWeapon]

Day 41

Still having heaps of weird dreams where people are coming to me and having a conversation with me about life and suffering. The weird part is, without naming names, they are all 90's B grade actors for some reason. Don't know what it's all about, but it feels like it's the kind of stuff that my dad should have talked to me about when I was growing up but for whatever reason he didn't. I can also see how my dad who was too afraid to make a decision and go for it without seeking some type of approval from an external source rubbed off on me and it helped make me indecisive in life. I have improved a lot in this area, but it certainly stuffed up my life in my 20's. It made me insecure and afraid of making a mistake and because of that I missed out on some opportunities.

I think I am still in a type of low level resistance, I am feeling a bit down and out during the day sometimes but I am also noticing that I am giving less fucks about what people think of me or what they say to me. Things are happening but it's difficult to consciously decipher exactly what it is that's happening. I have come close to crying again a few times but it's only happen within a dream, the other few times when I was awake I came close but it kind of went away. It's definitely I tough time running this every night but I think it's worth it. I think I know what was meant by the forced march now, this thing isn't stopping for nothing lol. Hopefully the clouds will completely clear soon and I'll enjoy some pleasant days.

[TheWeapon]

Day 45

I had a crazy dream last night. It started with me sitting down and testing some seats for comfort on a new carriage / roller coaster type cart. All of a sudden it unexpectedly took off. Nothing was holding me in and I was terrified. I held on to the sides of the cart for dear life as it moved through this huge tunnel network at what felt like light speed. Somehow on the sides of the tunnel I could see glimpses or flashes of experiences/events in life that frighten me. The flashes weren't clear but I remember seeing a few that related to primary school (age 5-12) era events somehow. I finally came to the end of the tunnel and my heart was pounding and I was relieved to have survived the experience. All of a sudden I felt someone pull a helmet off my head and I was in some type of lab with about 5 scientists standing around me. I said WTF was that? Was that even real? And they confirmed that it was not. I was wearing some type of advanced virtual reality helmet. Then at that moment I realised that life is like a dream, or a virtual reality hallucination and all the things that I have been scared of aren't even real. It felt like a breakthrough of some kind, like a climatic conclusion to the resistance I have experienced from about day 32 or so. It was crazy enough that I thought it was worth mentioning. I have felt a lot more at ease today and less depressed. Maybe a little more emotional but in a good empathetic type of way, like a barrier has finally been torn down. Good stuff

[TheWeapon]

Day 57

I continue to listen every night and a little during the day. I have not noticed much happening lately but after reflecting today perhaps there is more happening than I think. I thought about how I would dwell over personal setbacks or perceived insults and although various short comings and setbacks still occur, I seem to be gaining an ability to get over the "failures" a lot faster than I used to. Almost like I have my sights set on the big prize, and I can continue moving forward towards positive outcomes without dwelling negatively over small setbacks. I still have a lot to work through and I think after day 64, I might switch back to the trickling stream for 32 days. Both the masked and ultrasonic versions work for me but they also seem a little bit different. I can't explain what it is, but when I switch back to the masked version I will detail any observations relating to this switch. Other than that, life goes on, things are never as bad as they seem and there's basically no need to rush for anything in life at the moment. I think I was always looking for a magic bullet to fix my problems but in truth much of the problem never existed beyond my own ego. After reading some positive comments here, I also bought the book; the six pillars of self-esteem. I have not read much of it yet but I thought it would be good to read now and then reread it when I eventually move onto a new sub.

[TheWeapon]

Day 60

It’s been a crazy couple of days…

I got sick with a virus and have had a bad fever. I was bidridden and most of the time I was dozing in and out of consciousness. I had a lot of weird dreams and at times I woke up feeling as if I understood something important. I was a little off, almost like the fever created a lucid state of mind. My brain felt like it was cooking, my eardrums throbbed and my ears randomly buzzed/rung. I remember having a lot of dreams about my dad and every situation we were in I felt frustrated, angry, ignored and made to feel stupid. As a kid, he treated me like I was too stupid to do anything because he’s such a perfectionist he could not handle me doing something that was not to his standard. Of course as a kid I wouldn’t have known this, but what he did was help create a distorted lens which I viewed my life experiences through. I was under the assumption that I was not smart enough, good enough, and others were better than me.

After these dreams, next came ones of my own kids. I don’t know what this all meant, but in the dreams every time I was out somewhere with the kids I would lose one of them. I’d search frantically and not be able to find them but eventually after much panic and anxiety I would find them. This morning I started to think about what I mentioned in this post and a few other things and all of a sudden I lost my shit and the tears started to pour. I couldn’t go all out because my wife and a few of the kids were home, but liquid poured out of my eyes like nothing I have ever experienced. I am not sure if this is linked, or if it was to happen anyway, but since then I have gradually felt stronger and better physically, like I am getting over the virus at a rapid rate. The fever did break a night ago so I was probably getting better, but crying like that seems to have accelerated recovery.

This E1 subliminal stuff is no joke. And I notice more stuff too relating to all said above. Like when I’d see a tradesman (carpenters, builders etc) in the past, I’d feel inferior, like I am less of a man. But lately when I look at them, I see them as someone with 2 arms, 2 legs and a set of hands just like me. I think this stems from, as a kid, being treated like someone who was too stupid to do anything. I was trod down and left to feel stupid and useless. Perhaps if the opposite happened I’d have followed a career path that would have made me happy, rather than studying for a degree that I don’t really give a shit about.

[Shannon]

And just think, E1 isn't even 5.5G tech!

[TheWeapon]

And just think, E1 isn't even 5.5G tech!

Yes sir, I look forward to upgrading in the future

Day 86

I won't go into too much detail but I have had a very difficult time after being sick, reverting back to behaviours and mindsets from some bad years between the ages of 18-21. In some way it feels like I did it to relive a fraction of that time for perspective and understanding but I am not sure. I don't know if it has to do with the subliminal and resistance but it seems like it might be. I have not felt like listening lately, but I continue to run it every night. Man it's really breaking me down. I can feel myself coming out the other side of it though, I've almost pulled through. I don't know why I have so much resistance but at least I eventually cave. I could feel things begin to turn 3 or 4 nights ago when I had a dream that the clown from IT was chasing me around an old abandoned house, but I was in full control and out witted him at every turn until the end when we stood a short distance apart face to face outside the front of the house. He showed those nasty sharp teeth and smiled but I maintained eye contact and I was no scared. It's so bizarre that I get past my fears and trauma through such abstract dreams. I wonder if it's because so many of my fears and pain etc have been so irrational, based on corrupted belief systems. I dunno, just thought I'd check in though to give an update. It's been a tough time but I feel like things are about to get a whole lot better.

[TheWeapon]

To add onto the last update. I was looking through the store and reading up on E2 and DMSI, fully thinking that I should make a switch after 96 days of E1, instead of the originally planned 192 days. But I am sure that I am resisting something still and am trying to get the hell away from E1. I had a lot of dreams last night, the most in a while, and although today I generally feel well, I have this feeling that a breakthrough is imminent. The dam wall is about the burst, I can notice a powerful optimism below a surface level of sadness. I wouldn't be surprised if I cry again in the coming days. I haven't kept track of it but I seem to cry about once a month running this subliminal compared to never crying before it.