EP UMS JOURNAL

[EvolvingPhoenix]

I have been doing this damn stats homework ALL FUCKING NIGHT. I probably got a lot of shit wrong, but fuck it. I did it the best I could. It's finally fucking done with, for better or for worse. We'll just see how shit plays out. Time to finally get some well earned shut eye and commence the carpet bombing. Subconscious mind, time for a pounding! Prepare your prostate mother*******! LOL

[EvolvingPhoenix]

Day 1 of carpetbombing:

I went to sleep immedately after that post and have JUST woken up. 6 loops. 8.4 hours. I am SOOO TIRED. I can barely get out of bed.

[DavisMind91]

Day 1 of carpetbombing:

I went to sleep immedately after that post and have JUST woken up. 6 loops. 8.4 hours. I am SOOO TIRED. I can barely get out of bed.

I'm just now getting to the point where UMS no longer drains me, trust me man, the fatigue will pass.

[Shannon]

Day 1 of carpetbombing:

I went to sleep immedately after that post and have JUST woken up. 6 loops. 8.4 hours. I am SOOO TIRED. I can barely get out of bed.

IMMEDIATE RESULTS!  Amazing.  Now you just have to keep it up until you can't resist it anymore.  Once you stop being able to resist, the exhaustion is significantly lessened because you're not fighting the program.

[EvolvingPhoenix]

I would normally argue that it could be because of how late I went to sleep after pulling an all nighter doing stats HW (~3AM) but I got about 7-8 hours of sleep. So yeah, probably results from the carpet bombing. DEFINITELY a good sign! Hopefully, this carpet bombing breaks through the resistance swiftly, like, withun a week or less, hopefully. But however long it ends up taking, I'm glad to know I'm bound to reach that point! Thank you Shannon for yet ANOTHER amazing subliminal!

[EvolvingPhoenix]

On another forum, I am reading about topics that upwell within me all kinds of negative feelings once more about the friendship breakup. I am really hoping thesw feelings are tied up enough to my achievement of UMS that the E3 in UMSv1 help to swiftly move past these issues and heal them in short order.

[EvolvingPhoenix]

Day 2 of carpetbombing: tired AF buy also got only 7 hours of sleep max. Dad "brilliantly" deducted I was awake because my computer was on. Doesn't get I keep it on all night, running UMS. His deduction skills are shit. Also, there's no way this dumbass could know the computer was on, because it wasnt fuckin facing him. He could not see the screen. All he knew was that the laptip was OPEN. That doeant mean it's on.

[EvolvingPhoenix]

I am already so donion rings with my fucking day today. Why is it EVERY FUCKING DAY has to be utter shit and I can never sleep in, even on days like this when schooling doesnt prevent me? And dad just took off early because I was on my phone for like a minute tops and his impatient ass couldn't wait one minute. We argued. I hung up on him. I hope he has fun carrying that cat crate with 1 arm. Question is: if he could do that no problem, what'd he need me to wake up for? Dumbass tried to play off his shit deductions as deliberate trolling. Not buying it. He has been making shit deduction after shit deduction after shit deduction this morning. All's I know is, if this motherfucker truly needed my ass so bad, he could have had the patience to wait 1 minute. But he didn't so I don't wanna hear him bitch when he gets back. GOD I wish I had a DRS running so every rime he tries to guilt trip me, it just hits him back. And this is how my day is beginning. Hope my whole day isn't shit like this. God, I'm tired.

[EvolvingPhoenix]

So I've been having a rough day today, and a rough week in general. Just saw my therapist and bitched to him for like an hour about all kinds of shit that just doesn't seem to be going right lately. My attitude seems pessimistic, which means I'm still resisting the program. 

ON THE OTHER HAND... 
Dad is acting like a raging toxic angry man with a fuse so short, it's almost nonexistent. And I am unaffected or less affected than in the past by his negative energy he's throwinf out there. May this be a sign the auric shield is working? May this just be because I've matured over time? May it be both? Right now, I am uncertain, but felt it worth noting.

[Shannon]

So I've been having a rough day today, and a rough week in general. Just saw my therapist and bitched to him for like an hour about all kinds of shit that just doesn't seem to be going right lately. My attitude seems pessimistic, which means I'm still resisting the program. 

ON THE OTHER HAND... 
Dad is acting like a raging toxic angry man with a fuse so short, it's almost nonexistent. And I am unaffected or less affected than in the past by his negative energy he's throwinf out there. May this be a sign the auric shield is working? May this just be because I've matured over time? May it be both? Right now, I am uncertain, but felt it worth noting.

The closer you get to UMS dominating the resistant parts of yourself, the more you will typically find that those resistant parts of you get upset about it.  Once UMS dominates, that will stop and so will your negativity.  I knew that you were starting to be affected significantly by the fact that you started complaining and being negative.  My GF does the same thing, until the program dominates.  And when it's time for a re-up, the negative attitude and bitching and such begins, and I know it's time to run it again.

One of the good things about UMS is that as it does its thing, the resistance will fade over time because the causes for the resistance will be getting worked out.  It may take a while, but it will happen.  Just need enough exposure to dominate and then some time to process.  Once you find the program has started to dominate, you can start trying to find the right bloom time for you.

I would say that you have to be at least somewhat executing, and that sounds like NDRS is starting to kick in to me.

[EvolvingPhoenix]

Thanks for the input, Shannon. I'm glad we've got this mostly figured out and know how to handle it and I'm glad it's already starting to affect me! I can't wait for the resistance to get dominated! How often do you find your GF going back into resistance and needing another carpet bomb run btw? Just curious. I'm also glad the auric shield is working. I REALLY needed that. To bad it's non directional. I'd love to throw these peoples' negativity eight back at rhem. But what's most important on that front is it doesn't negatively affect me.

[EvolvingPhoenix]

I can't wait for the kivkass monetary opportunities to start manifesting! I really intend to make hella cash with this program, even if I have to run it for a whole year.

[Shannon]

Thanks for the input, Shannon. I'm glad we've got this mostly figured out and know how to handle it and I'm glad it's already starting to affect me! I can't wait for the resistance to get dominated! How often do you find your GF going back into resistance and needing another carpet bomb run btw? Just curious. I'm also glad the auric shield is working. I REALLY needed that. To bad it's non directional. I'd love to throw these peoples' negativity eight back at rhem. But what's most important on that front is it doesn't negatively affect me.

I have to re-up about every 3 to 5 days to keep us on an even keel so to speak.  Which is about what seems to be the average.  It may be different for you, though.  

In the future, you will have the option of running a version of UMS that does not include a shield, and then plugging in whatever shield you want separately.  But you're right - what's most important is shielding yourself from being affected by their negativity.

[EvolvingPhoenix]

Also, I look forward to these fiture titles that give us our choice in protective auric shields! Stoked!