EP UMS JOURNAL

[Have at ye]

Ah. Gotcha. God, this is going to be HELL. I dunno HOW I'll resolve this. I've been gicen resources but lack the time and energy to put them into practice. I hope you're right that things will get better soon. I really do. I hooe UMS is finally working as well. I really do. Thank you for your input and your encouragement and tour support.

Try not to assume it's going to be hell, maybe it'll become pleasant after a short while, I mean, who knows.

Your subconscious is now receiving a very well-made set of instructions to deal with stuff that stands in the way ASAP, and should you keep executing and not stand in its way, it's going to do it.

No probs, I like pretending I'm a wise-ass. I mean: wise-man.

[EvolvingPhoenix]

Thanks. Just took a nap. Still feel bad like I did before it. Had a dream where I was already a rich and successful person and UMS had worked for me and some employee was doing well for herself after reading a book I had read to get to where I was at, and encouraged her to keep on reading, but didn't tell about UMS. Only part of the dream I remember. Wonder if it's a sign I'm executing?

[Shannon]

What you are doing in your previous long post, EP, is expressing resistance to UMS. That is a response.

I am looking for why you keep "hoping UMS starts working", when it's not a question of if it's working, it's a matter of are parts of you fighting the parts of you trying to execute it. And you know that. The program is an inanimate sound. You are the actor, in the sense that you are the one doing that acting out of, and acting on, the set of instructions it represents. Looking for it to "start working" is trying to give away your responsibility in the action or lack thereof you experience. You are fighting it; that means it's working, and some part of you is trying to (and so far succeeding in) dominating the parts of you that are cooperating and trying to execute it. But it is a response to the program's execution. You are executing it, or that resistant part would not be trying to stonewall and express such negativity.

Now then, I'd say that if I were you, I would simply carpet bomb until I broke through when I started using it again. In other words, play it on loop all night every night until you see results. How many days has it been since you listened to the last loop?

[EvolvingPhoenix]

Today is day 5 of the RE-reset.

[EvolvingPhoenix]

Okay, carpet bomb, here I come! Thank you Shannon! I WILL fucking execute as programmed. How will I know when I'm seeing results? And what do I do at that point?

EDIT: Wait. You want me to wait until day 7 of the RE-reset, when I go to sleep that night to begin the carpet bombing, right? Just so I'm clear. Will not be carpet bombing tonight, as I am uncertain if you want me to do that or wait until the end of the 7 day cycle.

[Shannon]

Okay, carpet bomb, here I come! Thank you Shannon! I WILL ***** execute as programmed. How will I know when I'm seeing results? And what do I do at that point?

EDIT: Wait. You want me to wait until day 7 of the RE-reset, when I go to sleep that night to begin the carpet bombing, right? Just so I'm clear. Will not be carpet bombing tonight, as I am uncertain if you want me to do that or wait until the end of the 7 day cycle.

Given your results so far, it is clear enough that you're resisting.  You are free to start when you like.  We just needed to see how you responded to low levels first.  So start tonight or wait until the day after 7 full days.  Your choice.

[EvolvingPhoenix]

So how will I know when I'm getting reaults? And whatbdo I do at rhat point?

[Shannon]

So how will I know when I'm getting reaults? And whatbdo I do at rhat point?

Well, let's take a look at this.

Virtually everyone else is seeing results, and you're only seeing occasional bouts of resistance symtoms.  That means two things:

1. The program must work in general;
2. You're resisting it.

Resisting it is a result.  It is a result of using it, it working, and you trying to stop that on some level.  So you're already getting results.

What you're looking for is going to be signs of execution that don't just indicate resistance.  When that happens, you'll know it.  At that point, we'll consider what to do when we know what it took to get you to that point.

[EvolvingPhoenix]

Okay thanks. I really cant wait for this auric shield to kick in, you have NO IDEA, living in this house. Would be even better if it were the DRS. I'd LOVE to serve my parents up their own shitty energy back to them. But at least with the auric shield, it won't be touching me.

[EvolvingPhoenix]

Day 6 of RE-reset: I'm in a shit mood again, but that's because I just woke up and I'm already having a bad day. I have been CONSISTENTLY having bad days lately. 

I wake up to my parents yellibg and screaming at each other. Over me. Then I find that this new dog we brought in has ONCE AGAIN chewed away ALL THE LINING of a significant portion of the cell phone charger I'm using. My homework is nowhere near finished. I don't know how to do it. Dad can't help me because it's bewn forever since he last took a stats course, it's due tomorrow morning. And I am OBLIGATED (by giving my word) to go to this job fair. And I can't find thw fucking black tape I need to patch up my phone charging cable and most of our cables are missing. In fact, this is the ONLY charger I have to use and the dog has torn up most of it. I'm probably gonna get a shit grade on the HW and wouldn't be surprises to bomb the exam, which is ALSO tomorrow. And things are just getting started. I really shouldn't have fone back to college, but it was the best course I could think of at the time. UMS changes everything. Once I start executing the program in the ways I consciously want and the resistance ends, things should RRALLY be changing as far as my ootions are concerned. I might just become a proud college dropout who makes money to travel the world as he pleases rather than being a b*tch to the system.

[Shannon]

Don't bank on becoming a college dropout and getting rich doing it because it sounds cool. Think. There is a big difference between fantasy and reality. You need to be in line with reality before you do something like drop out of college. I say this as a college dropout who left the formal education system because it didn't work for me. I was forced to endure the high school system and then pushed into college by a mother who only understood "go to school, get a degree, get a job, work there for the rest of your life and retire".

Dropping out of college was a BIG risk for me, and before I did it I had this business up and running. I was planning to use it as a backup plan to pay off my student loans if I got the degree and couldn't find a job. When one day in a history class the instructor said, "I hope nobody's here because they think they're going to get a JOB with this degree," I stood up, thanked him, walked over to the main office and withdrew. Then I taught myself the stuff I wanted the degree to teach me and within 6 weeks I was working as a wedding photographer and doing this business. The wedding photography didn't last too long, but this business did in fact pay off my student loans.

You have to plan ahead, have a plan, know what you're doing and keep it real. Maybe dropping out of college will free you up to achieve your wealth and goals. I'm not saying it can't. But you need to keep your feet on the ground and cover your ass. Making decisions of that magnitude "because it seems like it would be easier and more fun" is how you fail. Think, plan, and make sure you have your bases covered before you do something like that.

[EvolvingPhoenix]

Yeah don't get me wrong, I'm still going. I'm just hoping UMS will ma ifest opportunities to get out of this game and just start making mo ey instead. That's all I mean. Until then, I'm still going. Although after this semester, I might just take a break to serve in the Peace Corps for 2 years.

[Greenduck]

Man I recognize the thinking patterns you are making because I have done them myself. You don’t need to be a successful entrepreneur or a soldier to feel like you are valuable. Sure thing if you really aspire for it, go ahead, but don’t make the mistake thinking it’s the only way feeling good about yourself. You can feel good about yourself AND do all those stuff, they aren’t a prerequisite for self worth. And having a career being employed can be a valuable and rewarding experience in itself. No need to hurry through life, you can become an entrepreneur at the age of 50 with the experience you make up to that point. Do what you need that satisfy your current needs financially and do something that make you feel like you are learning and moving forward in your life alongside getting your emotional health in check and you will be fine and will see the natural choices unfold in front of you.

[EvolvingPhoenix]

Well I don't luke how I'm living right now and I dont like the lack of freedom. I would like to change that. This isn't just some ego trip based in lack of self esteem, I wanna be free and actually making real strides in my life and not be enslaved to this bullshit system. I want independence, not just validation. I want to be free! I want ro live a life I like and am passionate about what I'm doing. Remember what I said about Sadghuru and enjoying the process, not just the goal. I am NOT EVEN REMOTELY enjoyung this process.