EP UMS JOURNAL

[Shannon]

What you are doing in your previous long post, EP, is expressing resistance to UMS. That is a response.

I am looking for why you keep "hoping UMS starts working", when it's not a question of if it's working, it's a matter of are parts of you fighting the parts of you trying to execute it. And you know that. The program is an inanimate sound. You are the actor, in the sense that you are the one doing that acting out of, and acting on, the set of instructions it represents. Looking for it to "start working" is trying to give away your responsibility in the action or lack thereof you experience. You are fighting it; that means it's working, and some part of you is trying to (and so far succeeding in) dominating the parts of you that are cooperating and trying to execute it. But it is a response to the program's execution. You are executing it, or that resistant part would not be trying to stonewall and express such negativity.

Now then, I'd say that if I were you, I would simply carpet bomb until I broke through when I started using it again. In other words, play it on loop all night every night until you see results. How many days has it been since you listened to the last loop?