07-05-2019, 10:52 AM
I remember having a dream last night. It was a dream where I was in a VERY hostile/negative environment. These dreams are not new. What is new is that ususally in these dreams, my response is to become incredibly negative myself. Ultra violent, biting peoples' eyes out of the face, raping or threatening to rape people, killing people, sometimes even going on killing sprees, but as I've healed I've noticed myself respinding with love more and more often. Last night in my dream, I was stuck in an inescapable hostile/negative environment populated by supervillains and horror movie characters: The Joker, Leatherface, Negan, Michael Myers and the list goes on. There also heroic figures like Batman. The heroes were VASTLY outnumbered. Even the civilians were ruthless, vicious and downright predatory, to me and to one another. But what's interesting is that THIS TIME I didn't respond with threats, violence or killing sprees. I decided to be a force of love and kindness in an environment that was insanely negative and hostile. An environment that made prison look like day care, and I responded with love where in these dreams I used to respond with extreme violence and anger. This is a sign not only that a great healibg is taking place in my subconscious, but that the FRM is working, because those violent responses in my dreams were often due to fear. E3 is working on a deep level, I think.