E3 Journal.

[THolt]

So I had some hunger pang symptoms this morning but they quickly went away. Seems like E3 is working on something and breaking through. My heartburn symptoms have totally gone away and my hunger pangs are manageable. Guess it was some healing and clearing I needed. Tbh I am getting kind of bored with E3 but I know running this program is good for me. I just don't know how long I will run it for.

[THolt]

Another thing I have noticed with E3 is that some of my ocd symptoms have lessened such as obsessive thoughts. I haven’t noticed a change in the area of checking. I’ll check everything way too many times before leaving the house. It’s crazy. Maybe E3 is already working on it. Hard to tell with program.

[EvolvingPhoenix]

So your OCD is lessening with E3? That's really interesting. Right now, I'm on some powerful meds to deal with (among other things) my OCD. Maybe with LTU5, I'll naturally have less OCD, of course right now, I'm suppressing it with meds. But that's really interesting. Shannon's subs sure do a lot, don't they?

[Shannon]

I believe that OCD is a fear based response in which a feedback loop gets established. If we disrupt the fear, the loop should naturally end. That doesn't surprise me as a possible result. It will be interesting to see how this plays out further.

[THolt]

I believe that OCD is a fear based response in which a feedback loop gets established.  If we disrupt the fear, the loop should naturally end.  That doesn't surprise me as a possible result.  It will be interesting to see how this plays out further.

Yeah for me, my OCD has ebbed and flowed. during periods of stress, it is worse.  I use to have to trouble falling asleep because of my OCD checking habits but now I check everything before I go to bed and I sleep well.

[THolt]

So today I had some hunger pangsi n the middle of the day but nothing that I could not handle. I slept really welll last night and once again had really vivid dreams. Out of all the programs I have run with IML, I have slept the best on E3. Its like I am clearing a bunch of emotional clutter through my dreams.

I do not feel like my relationships have gotten any better but I feel more content with myself and less clingly. its like I dont have to have the company of other people to feel secure. This was an issue before. I don't know how long I plan to run this sub but I will run it at least one more month or so before I switch to either USLM4 or UMS.

[Infinite]

That is really great progress, Tholt! There are people that spend a lifetime dealing clinginess.

[THolt]

So last night I slept really well and had another vivid dream. I feel like I am not getting enough sleep. I woke up and didn't get out of bed until a half hour later.

On the other hand, I felt really emotionally clear this morning. Very tranquil. Also I had no hunger pangs or anything else upon waking up. Had a little heartburn after coffee but it wasnt too bad. Seems like those physical symptoms I was having were in large part caused by the program healing and clearing.
This makes me want to stay on the program longer but we will see.

On the not so good side, I had a really bad phone conversation. It was more like a word salad than a conversation. I cringed so hard at myself over that. It's like I couldn't communicate clearly. I was bothered by it for a little bit but now I am over it.

[josh84]

Hi THolt, with your hunger pangs did you get them while listening to the subliminal or at different times in the day?

[THolt]

Hi THolt, with your hunger pangs did you get them while listening to the subliminal or at different times in the day?

@josh84

Sometimes they came on when I listened to the program.  Othertimes they would come and go during the day. 

Are you having them?

[josh84]

Hi THolt, yes noticing last few days when i listen i do get them, im not eating that much at the moment as im trying to get a bit leaner so my calories are low, but even on days where eating at a higher amount when listening will still get the hunger pangs but only while listening, i normally listen around 8 at night.

Did you find those hunger pangs led to making good progress the days after?

[THolt]

Hi THolt, yes noticing last few days when i listen i do get them, im not eating that much at the moment as im trying to get a bit leaner so my calories are low, but even on days where eating at a higher amount when listening will still get the hunger pangs but only while listening, i normally listen around 8 at night.

Did you find those hunger pangs led to making good progress the days after?

@josh84

On sunday, i had some hunger pangs that went away and I felt emotionally good afterwards. i also noticed I had heartburn too but that has gone away as I have taken some antacid tablets. 

Are these hunger pangs of yours really intense? 

Seems like it is a subconscious reaction to something. This program is hitting me hard. I can sleep 7 hours and feel like I need several hours more sleep.  I feel like I need 9-10 hours instead of 7-8 hours of sleep.

[THolt]

So one thing I have noticed today is that I have had some lucky incidences. I don’t know if it is maybe TID from USLM4 or whatever. For instance I was thinking about how I want a healthy dinner and a relative called me up and wanted some salmon they had had. Nothing big but very noticeable.

This sub is very pleasant to run. I feel like I have made a lot of progress this past month.

[THolt]

So I woke up this morning with some hunger pangs but I ate somethng and they went away for the most part. I still feel clear as the wind. It's like a lot of the emotional baggage and garbage has been removed. On my way to work this morning, I didn't feel any anger or irritation over traffic. I feel relaxed right now.