11-30-2018, 10:38 PM
Looking back reading some of the post I made on 3.2 to say it was a roller coaster to say the least. 3.2 brought me a long away I think biggest benefits was the anti-sniper off opened doors that had been closed, yes it made a lot more drama but was worth it. The anti-flap wall did help. With it I was able to take control of getting past porn and focus much more on real girls. I think on past versions I did manifest more girls from a long ways off with the long range sniper which is good. Before the 3.1 the antisniper kicked in and nothing became of it because the girls had a lot of issues which I think I liked so I could try to fix there problems. Needless to say still ending up mainly being with the girls I had before cause it was safer. On 3.1-3.2 I was still too scared to do a lot of the things I really wanted to do. The healing and clearing helped but something held me back as far as what I truly capable of doing or having. I'm sure the anti fear mod will help with that.
Since it had been a while since a up dated to make a long story short of course still more or less around with dancer, announcement/ singer girl used to had a single mom friends with benfits also although that one when down in flames and ending up with the single mom getting jealous and trying to ruin all my relationships with the other 2 girls. every time the single mom see ones the other 2 she starts stuff with her and even though me and single mom is over I still thinks she has feelings for me none the less. She's pretty crazy a lots of issues. I known her and singer girl from way back in the day before I even started using subs. The singer girl is the most consistent with putting the most effort into to being with me she of course wants to be with me solo so that's not happening so her jealousy issues pretty much pushing me away. Also with singer girl she's the most committed to me but not really attracted to her physically as much which is a problem. Dancer girl has since 3.2 has gone to being nothing to a girl I hangout with daily and can tell she has feelings for me. She has a guy she sees pretty much over him cause he really don't do nothing for her and pretty much the reason she started hanging out with me. Plus do to the anti-sniper thing being turned off, she's very aggressive with a lots of angry problems. That being said she has been getting better.
During the summer and most of the drama being coming form this crazy arrangement with a few time dancer still trying to give her old bf a new chance, or trying to be with us both. Or singer being super jealous pushing me too hard and wanting me herself and crazy single mom trying to wreck everything.
My social circle had been going well with a lot of girls interested with ether me no really into or the biggest issues has been ether dancer or some other girl around blocking all new girls form getting a chance to be around me. With the celerity effect that generally has stopped me a lot is some girl in some situation be around me and other girls see that and they kind of subtlety stop the other girls from making a effort to seduce me. The only exception has been girls I like which are very aggressive and could care less about what the other girls are doing or saying. Dancer being one of those girls most girls wouldn't dare say anything to me with her around even though we wern't technically together persay as far as they knew she has quite a presence
The last month or so things were starting to change maybe last 2 weeks
Just been getting a boost of confidence and a feeling that non matter what everything is going to be ok. Which I know that but been feeling it more. Also still getting a lot of attention. Started a new job that has a high number of girls than the last one, so getting a lot of attention which is good. Until the last few weeks as dmsi get's closer
and with dancer girl who has become my main girl. Something rose up in me because it was a situation where she was taking me for granted as I've been helping her a lot and I let her know it's not going to be her way all the time. We had a big fight over it and like today and this week she's been a lot nicer as I think for the first time she really thought she might loose me. a total shift in her attitude.
It's something in this new version with TID effects that causing me to really question should I be in any of these relationships at all and was serious thinking about just walking away from all of it and starting over. A lot of the reason I am in the boat I'm in is because I settled for less than I thought I deserved. So for the first time I really felt strong enough that I could leave these girls and just find new and better ones to replace them and am planning on doing that.
Before I was just so eager to have attention I just took anything that came along now I'm raising standards or a least considering doing that even before the new version comes out. I did have some TID effects the last time before it came out as a lot of things including the whole relationship with dancer started because of it. These new effects although they haven't lasted a long time or constant are started to make a big change in my thinking and actions
I would like to if nothing else take things to the next level with dancer with this new version as well as make a new and better circle of friends with benefits etc and it has seemed if nothing else using 3.2 as I guide I generally get a new major girl out of each version. I'm confidence that I might of already met her or will shortly as to totally take the place of single mom that thing didn't work out so well with. And maybe a few more for good measure. I also plan on extending my social circle to be much more the person getting asked out or invited to stuff you know like a celebrity should be. And for the first time really starting to get the feeling like it might happen. All the other girls I wanted it to happen but never felt like it really was. This time feel different. Ether way big changes are on the way
Since it had been a while since a up dated to make a long story short of course still more or less around with dancer, announcement/ singer girl used to had a single mom friends with benfits also although that one when down in flames and ending up with the single mom getting jealous and trying to ruin all my relationships with the other 2 girls. every time the single mom see ones the other 2 she starts stuff with her and even though me and single mom is over I still thinks she has feelings for me none the less. She's pretty crazy a lots of issues. I known her and singer girl from way back in the day before I even started using subs. The singer girl is the most consistent with putting the most effort into to being with me she of course wants to be with me solo so that's not happening so her jealousy issues pretty much pushing me away. Also with singer girl she's the most committed to me but not really attracted to her physically as much which is a problem. Dancer girl has since 3.2 has gone to being nothing to a girl I hangout with daily and can tell she has feelings for me. She has a guy she sees pretty much over him cause he really don't do nothing for her and pretty much the reason she started hanging out with me. Plus do to the anti-sniper thing being turned off, she's very aggressive with a lots of angry problems. That being said she has been getting better.
During the summer and most of the drama being coming form this crazy arrangement with a few time dancer still trying to give her old bf a new chance, or trying to be with us both. Or singer being super jealous pushing me too hard and wanting me herself and crazy single mom trying to wreck everything.
My social circle had been going well with a lot of girls interested with ether me no really into or the biggest issues has been ether dancer or some other girl around blocking all new girls form getting a chance to be around me. With the celerity effect that generally has stopped me a lot is some girl in some situation be around me and other girls see that and they kind of subtlety stop the other girls from making a effort to seduce me. The only exception has been girls I like which are very aggressive and could care less about what the other girls are doing or saying. Dancer being one of those girls most girls wouldn't dare say anything to me with her around even though we wern't technically together persay as far as they knew she has quite a presence
The last month or so things were starting to change maybe last 2 weeks
Just been getting a boost of confidence and a feeling that non matter what everything is going to be ok. Which I know that but been feeling it more. Also still getting a lot of attention. Started a new job that has a high number of girls than the last one, so getting a lot of attention which is good. Until the last few weeks as dmsi get's closer
and with dancer girl who has become my main girl. Something rose up in me because it was a situation where she was taking me for granted as I've been helping her a lot and I let her know it's not going to be her way all the time. We had a big fight over it and like today and this week she's been a lot nicer as I think for the first time she really thought she might loose me. a total shift in her attitude.
It's something in this new version with TID effects that causing me to really question should I be in any of these relationships at all and was serious thinking about just walking away from all of it and starting over. A lot of the reason I am in the boat I'm in is because I settled for less than I thought I deserved. So for the first time I really felt strong enough that I could leave these girls and just find new and better ones to replace them and am planning on doing that.
Before I was just so eager to have attention I just took anything that came along now I'm raising standards or a least considering doing that even before the new version comes out. I did have some TID effects the last time before it came out as a lot of things including the whole relationship with dancer started because of it. These new effects although they haven't lasted a long time or constant are started to make a big change in my thinking and actions
I would like to if nothing else take things to the next level with dancer with this new version as well as make a new and better circle of friends with benefits etc and it has seemed if nothing else using 3.2 as I guide I generally get a new major girl out of each version. I'm confidence that I might of already met her or will shortly as to totally take the place of single mom that thing didn't work out so well with. And maybe a few more for good measure. I also plan on extending my social circle to be much more the person getting asked out or invited to stuff you know like a celebrity should be. And for the first time really starting to get the feeling like it might happen. All the other girls I wanted it to happen but never felt like it really was. This time feel different. Ether way big changes are on the way
