DMSI 5.1 (FRM + DRS v2) Journalings and Musings

[Have at ye]

Well, that despondency thing is, I think, a side-effect of healing with pain relief absent, as it seems to be passing with sleep and listening to loops of DMSI. So it'll probably start disappearing gradually as time passes. Good.

This morning I decided to try a different bakery than I usually use, on a lark, and there was an *extremely attractive* woman there when I came in. Autopilot kicking in?

[Have at ye]

Cancelled lady psychoanalyst today because I don't feel like wasting my time. I will be switching therapists anyway, as my doctor-chick says I can get one for free in her institution and it'd be better for coordinating efforts anyway, so we'll do that next month. I need a break from this pseudo-therapy anyway, nice knowin' ya. Just wondering how easy I should let her go, probably not very. She's a tremendous piece of MILF, has mad knowledge about psychoanalysis, but her actual *therapeutic* skills are direly lacking or even counterproductive. That's my official review, lewlz.

And yes, I needed to cut cords to her, apparently, so thanks for that too.

Anyway, going to a non-metalz gigz tonight, hopefully I'll meet some fine women.

[Have at ye]

Did not go to that non-metalz gig because I didn't feel like it either. Gonna go to singing practice and strutted my stuff a bit, chanced into an ultra-gorgeous blonde chick in my 'hood, she looked at me with pleasant curiosity. Not much to report beyond that, though.

Signed up for a playwrighting course (it's run by the dude who, funkily enough, wrote the libretto for that opera thingy we did last year, when I ended up in the psych ward, lewlz. The consultant I talked to figured out who I am, I think, and said "it should be interesting for you to see how they [actors/performers] act toward you when you're on the other side of the fence", double-lewl. I actually laughed out loud ). I've been meaning to write a thingy with composer-bro composing for over a year now, and it seems like a proper opportunity to actually get my butt in gear as well as get some "official playwriting course" certification.

It could feature one, or more, attractive women, we'll see about that. I gotta get more live-action snipees going, for science, of course.

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Oh yeah, lest I forget - had a *bonanza* of new wonky sensations. Like, seriously, it'd take me pages to describe them. It's kinda difficult at times to keep up with them, and interpret what signifies what exactly.

[Have at ye]

Pah, that course is remote. Still, could be a good opportunity to make some new, good contacts in the arts-and-farts world.

For some reason, I chose not to commute to my practice room but walk the entire way (and it's actually a bit of a stroll). I feel very energetic.

I'm gonna strut my stuff over the weekend. I'll check the uni library (gotta renew my card) and spend some time there, there's always hot college chicks around. I intend to do reasearch for that thing I wanna write.

The other book I was writing, the wonky one, is ready, contents wise. Now I need a cover, editing and typesetting and such. I found some sort of online service, gonna inquire how much they charge. I could try to do it all on my own, but I can't be arsed TBH. I'd have to learn how to do all that stuff on my own from pretty much zero (except editing, but I need a native-speaking editor anyway, yah).

I feel like I'm getting back into the swing of things, DMSI-wise. I'm noticing my behavioral patterns in general are more akin to what they were when I was running the older versions.

[Have at ye]

Another piece of the puzzle has fallen into place, I think, in me regaining my health - my ability to self-heal and regenerate even - and personal power and autonomy.

It is, currently, kinda "ouch" and "ooooomph" (kinda like the entire procedure of negative cord cutting, ouchie at times for me) but it's necessary. 20 years, give or take, have already been wasted by nonsense, idiocy, incompetence and autoritharianism, maybe I'll be able to salvage at least a little bit of it, somehow. No wonder I'm pissed off at the entire world, hahaha.

[Have at ye]

Had some teremendously fascinating DMSI-dreams, which involved sex and seduction. Also woke up with mrorning wood.

Got an invitation from friends to go with them to a nerd-convention of some sort over the weekend. I think I'll bite - there may be hot nerdettes in kinky cosplay outfits and such. I've never been to such a thing.

[Have at ye]

Oh yass, owing to DRS v2 and another thingy I'm now implementing, I am gradually moving towards my goal of becoming un-f-withable, heck yeah. My morale is good, I'm cool calm collected, no despondency no mo', back to being "more me", so to speak.