DMSI 3.2b/a - dissonance

[Benjamin]

Hahaha sounds like you dodget a bullet then.. i'm happy that hardcore feminists and such hate me.

[dissonance]

Lol Speaking of tinder, I just got unmatched because the chick read my bio... My bio says feminists crawl in a hole and die.

I just came across this article today. A bit disheartening cuz I just got on tinder myself lol.

https://thecitybachelor.com/tinder-is-dead/

[Shannon]

You don't need dating apps when you have DMSI. And as good as 3.2 is so far, 3.3 and 3.4 will be significant steps up in each case.

[Theron]

Lol Speaking of tinder, I just got unmatched because the chick read my bio... My bio says feminists crawl in a hole and die.

I just came across this article today. A bit disheartening cuz I just got on tinder myself lol.

https://thecitybachelor.com/tinder-is-dead/

Actually for me this was a like a slap on my face to get up and get out there rather stay stuck to my phone!!! It def better to meet girls in person than through an app...
Thanks a lot dissonance

[dissonance]

Been having some bad sleep lately. Sleeping too much, and not having consistent sleep schedule. Snoozing in the morning because of exhausted feeling when I wake. Feeling exhausted/tired before actual time to sleep as well. My sleep issues are the #1 thing that mess with my anxiety and depression/mood and the resistance is taking advantage of that crutch.

Now that I think about it, however, I'm not 100% sure if it's the sub causing it, or something to do with my testosterone levels, because I'm currently taking clomid and a couple SARMS.

[dissonance]

Got some food at in-n-out (california fast food chain), and the girl taking orders outside with the portable order taking device (they sometimes have people take drive-thru orders outside while the cars are still in line because the line gets really long sometimes), got all flustered and was smiling and stuff. She asked me if i wanted a drink two times, and she was like "nevermind, i asked you that already haha". She was into me. Then when i get to the window to pay and get my food, i noticed she was there too. HOW!?!? Apparently she swapped with that worker so that she could work at the window and see me for a second time. When i drove up to get my food, she asked with a big smile would you like ketchup? and I looked at her and smiled and said yes, and drove off and looked at her again as i was driving away and she was lookin at me smiling mischievously and endearingly at the same time. It was great. I was hoping she wrote her number or something on the receipt but nope lol.

[dissonance]

copy pasting this post from Tesla from another thread:

I have a suggestion: When interacting with a female, you should try operating with a frame that you essentially "Own their pussy." While it may seem vulgar, it helps with cultivating both a prize and abundance mentality, while also doing something else that is a little magical:

It makes everything you say have almost a seductive undertone to it. Try it out. Whenever you're interacting with a female you are attracted to, mentally repeat in your head as you look into her eyes "I own your pussy." Thinking, behaving, and acting within this frame will turn your affirmation into a self-fulfilling prophecy.

Works wonders for me. Cheers.

[dissonance]

3.2a feels like it's pushing me a lot less in doing whatever it takes to achieve the goal than 3.2b. I have less of that autopilot seduction and dominant mindset when messaging etc. Maybe it's cuz I'm in the midst of resetting my sleep schedule and messed up sleep because of jetlag though. We'll see.

[Benjamin]

I've seen some of that and i'm wondering if it's my mindset adjusting. Less desire to 'chase' or really reach out.

In some ways I don't know if it's good or not, because I might have taken more opportunities before, but it was also I kind of was trying to obsessively chase. Now I feel like i'm waiting too much for it and not really seeing them coming to me yet.

Ideally I want it to be either way, I can have attractive girls come up to me but also develop the confidence and power to do so myself if I want to.. but the desire to do that is lessening on 3.2.

[dissonance]

I was talking about 3.2a vs 3.2b, were you talking about 3.2 vs 3.1?

[Benjamin]

Ah ok, I didn't really compute that part when I replied. I meant in general, but also compared to 3.1.. I seemed to have alot more interest in talking to girls and putting in effort with that on 3.1.

I can't speak for 3.2B as I haven't used it.

[dissonance]

Forgot to do the ASRB this week. I think I've done around 12 days in a row. Don't notice anything particular from it, but I'm gonna take a day break today.

[dissonance]

I'm feeling "happy" right now, it's weird. It's as if I'm not feeling depressed or something. I just relapsed TWICE in fapping to orgasm (no porn though) in the past 7 days as well. Whenever that happened in the past, I would feel really iffy for at least 1-2 weeks. Right now though, I feel happy and excited and it's as if the blanket of emptiness of depression and or boredom or whatever is lifted today.

What part of the script could be causing this?

[dissonance]

Today and yesterday, I started to truly come to the realization and acceptance that I don't need sex or a girlfriend or whatever to be happy at the moment. I've been so hung up in the past several months about GETTING SEX or a GETTING A GIRLFRIEND that I've completely stopped working on music. All I do is search okcupid, tinder, match (but mainly tinder) and my mood fluctuates up and down solely depending on how much progress or results im seemingly getting or how close i am to getting laid or getting a girlfriend (which i havent gotten either, nor been on any dates lol)

I realized that I need to focus on my PURPOSE and make that my #1 priority and source of happiness/fulfillment. If I do that, I will feel great about myself because I will be focusing and taking steps toward my life goals and purpose. If I do that, my confidence and self-assuredness will rise. My personal identity will become stronger and comfort in my own shoes will rise even more. My self-esteem will rise a lot as well. Then I think this will seep into all other areas of my life, including attracting women.

This is what I now believe I, in my personal situation, must to do. FOCUS ON MY MUSIC AND LIFES PURPOSE. Then I'll be less desperate about getting women or sex because my passion and goals for music will be progressing, improving, and building, which *should* give me more fulfillment than sex or women could. (shouldn't it...?)

Then (though I don't know how exactly) I feel like after that, it will somehow make me much closer to being my maximum level of sexual irresistibility.