DMSI 3.1 and MLS exploration - Ascension to ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)hood

[Shannon]

She knows I want women to chase me, lol. But she flat out called me lazy because I'm a man and men are supposed to do the chasing. Honestly speaking, even 3.1 may have trouble getting her to pursue me, considering how strong of a personality she has.

I call BS.

You are using a program that is designed to get HER to pursue YOU, and when she gives you any challenge to that at all, you cave and show her that you're not really as high value as she thought you were.

"I'm a man and men are supposed to do the chasing."

Sexist much? I think you're getting oneitis.

[eternity]

I sense that happening too, Shannon. That's why I need to demonstrate that I have options. For no reason but for my own personal sake of avoiding oneitis.

But just to clarify, she's the one who told me that I'm the man and I'm supposed to do the chasing. I do not believe that statement at all, considering the programI'm running. I Even Told Her I Don't Believe it. I'm glad you called out that devaluation of myself I am committing. I had an inkling I was doing it but am so not self-aware that it helps to get another opinion. Totally not sure how to proceed, though. Except to pursue other women or just wait for women to pursue me as per the goals of the program.

Btw, she's an ENTP.

[eternity]

Due to the hail two weeks ago, I had to reschedule the date with the INTJ mexican girl. So I hit her up and we flirted a tiny bit. Trying to reschedule this date, but it isn't as straightforward as i would like it to be. She's being silly. I also hit up the other Mexican girl that I took to the rave 3 weeks ago. She sounded like she was on drugs or something it was weird....
Spinning more plates, even if I have to let them fall.

[SargeMaximus]

Due to the hail two weeks ago, I had to reschedule the date with the INTJ mexican girl. So I hit her up and we flirted a tiny bit. Trying to reschedule this date, but it isn't as straightforward as i would like it to be. She's being silly. I also hit up the other Mexican girl that I took to the rave 3 weeks ago. She sounded like she was on drugs or something it was weird....
Spinning more plates, even if I have to let them fall.

I'm getting the same thing man. Something tells me it's gonna be a while before we "get" this shit.

[eternity]

Yeah it probably would take a while.... but it's all good, I suppose. At least we are taking ACTION.
BTW the date with intj is scheduled for Friday night. I think dmsi is pulling me to her. For many reasons. We exchanged more light hearted banter, and I called it good night. But I actually spent the next 20 min talking to another member of this board about intj and reading about seducing female intj too. I feel like if I am just my authentic self with her, there's no way I can fail. Enfp and intj are supposed to be soul mate pairing. We will see how it goes!

The other Mexican girl told me she was on pain meds, lolz. But she sent me a picture of her at a space exhibit and she looked HOTTTT. What does it mean if a girl sends you unsolicited pics of herself?

[SargeMaximus]

Yeah it probably would take a while.... but it's all good, I suppose. At least we are taking ACTION.
BTW the date with intj is scheduled for Friday night. I think dmsi is pulling me to her. For many reasons. We exchanged more light hearted banter, and I called it good night. But I actually spent the next 20 min talking to another member of this board about intj and reading about seducing female intj too. I feel like if I am just my authentic self with her, there's no way I can fail. Enfp and intj are supposed to be soul mate pairing. We will see how it goes!

The other Mexican girl told me she was on pain meds, lolz. But she sent me a picture of her at a space exhibit and she looked HOTTTT. What does it mean if a girl sends you unsolicited pics of herself?

My immediate thought is: baiting.

I believe it works something like this:



Picture: More clothed ------> Naked

Baiting for: Validation ---------> Your dick

[Benjamin]

Arrgh Sarge you come up with all kinds of strange shit.

It's just something girls do when they like you and it's a good sign. Don't try to make up any strange meanings for it. Of course if they are less clothed it's better haha.

Sometimes I send them selfies, usually stuff like having my finger stuck up close to my face and be like "oh my face is itchy". Another one i've done is "I thought you'd like a photo of me in the shower" and send them a photo of the shower with just my foot in it hahaha.

[eternity]

I read that post right before I got into the shower. I almost sent her a pic of my foot in the shower but that would have been over the top weird. LOL. But to be fair, she's the same girl I sent the " when are we gonna eat and bang?" Message to.

[SargeMaximus]

Arrgh Sarge you come up with all kinds of strange shit.

It's just something girls do when they like you and it's a good sign. Don't try to make up any strange meanings for it. Of course if they are less clothed it's better haha.

So... how was my post "strange" then??

[eternity]

Day 4 on A.

I cried twice today.

The first cry was a sad cry, with just watery & puffy eyes.

The second cry was a FULL on cry. Luckily I was alone in the office, so nobody saw. But this one was a relieving cry. Like, tears of a weight being lifted off of me. As if I don't have to put on an ACT anymore. The theme of the cry was "Just be true to yourself"

Something DEEEEEEEEP is happening here. :')

[Benjamin]

I read that post right before I got into the shower. I almost sent her a pic of my foot in the shower but that would have been over the top weird. LOL. But to be fair, she's the same girl I sent the " when are we gonna eat and bang?" Message to.

Hahaha I guess it depends on the situation. I've mainly sent it to girls i've already fucked and it's like "You want a photo of me in the shower?" and they get all excited expecting some cock and just get my foot. The couple of times I did it, it's only gone down well. Not that i'd do it to a girl i've just started talking to or anything.

The other thing I guess is it's something that just comes from my personality, girls I attract have a similar sense of humor or they don't stay around too long or they bore me. If a girl seriously got upset at me doing that or throught it was too weird she's not a girl i'd like.

So... how was my post "strange" then??

The way of thinking is just strange and it's not helping you at all. The best thing I can think of it's like a robot trying to attach these meanings to it because it read pua material, and it's not a thought process that's going to help you just respond naturally or well.

The highlighted part is simply me saying that either way her sending you photos is good, she's not up to any alterior motive but of course less clothed is better. Which should go without saying.

Day 4 on A.

I cried twice today.

The first cry was a sad cry, with just watery & puffy eyes.

The second cry was a FULL on cry. Luckily I was alone in the office, so nobody saw. But this one was a relieving cry. Like, tears of a weight being lifted off of me. As if I don't have to put on an ACT anymore. The theme of the cry was "Just be true to yourself"

Something DEEEEEEEEP is happening here. :')

I've had alot of sadness on DMSI recently and feelings of wanting to cry, but I just can't. If it actually does make me cry then i'll know that's a big thing cos it rarely happens. It just happened once during AM after an intense tapping session. It was definately moving because it was so unusual for me to do so.

[SargeMaximus]

So... how was my post "strange" then??

The way of thinking is just strange and it's not helping you at all. The best thing I can think of it's like a robot trying to attach these meanings to it because it read pua material, and it's not a thought process that's going to help you just respond naturally or well.

The highlighted part is simply me saying that either way her sending you photos is good, she's not up to any alterior motive but of course less clothed is better. Which should go without saying.

Whatever man. Obviously I don't think like you (or most people for that matter). Doesn't mean it's not helping me.

I've gotten progress lately specifically because I analyze shit the way I do.

And for the record: responding naturally doesn't work for me.

[eternity]

What the actual fuck.

I cried 5 times today. For 5 different reasons. WHAT AM I CLEARING?! plus, the attraction from women on A is now much stronger than during B.

I just arranged a camping trip with a girl tho. A different girl. =)

One who is an ENFP like me. =) who was excited to go camping and crystal hounding with me.

Also, this one INTP girl I mentioned from a couple weeks ago, who was not very receptive to me then..... she was very open to my advances today, and her hug with me proved it. =)

Why da fuq would I have oneitis with all deez wimmenz in my life? It baffles me. Oh well. It is what it is. I got a lot more growing up to do, in the mean time

Such is life.

I wonder what whacky clearing experience I'll have tomorrow?

Oh BTW. .......... if 3.1 has this long range sniper in it, deez wimmenz are fuqqed.

[eternity]

Went to bed early, and woke up feeling as if I had moved mountains. All that crying yesterday was well worth it. I ended up speaking with 3 of my mentors about my clearing experience, 2 of which are 50+. The common theme was that this life and growing up into a true to self man is a journey. To be taken one step at a time, but in stride.