DMSI 3.1 and MLS exploration - Ascension to ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)hood

[eternity]

She's starting to get super weird and is outright making things awkward and ugly. She's gonna bail tomorrow, I'm going to bet. And if she does, I'm probably going to have to cut her off

[SargeMaximus]

She's starting to get super weird and is outright making things awkward and ugly. She's gonna bail tomorrow, I'm going to bet. And if she does, I'm probably going to have to cut her off

That's what ALL of my girls have done. Especially ones from online. I wonder if it's a DMSI thing.

Did she ask you to change something in your guys' plans by any chance?

[eternity]

No she didn't, but she may well do so tomorrow. We will see.

Well, as furious as I was, I just did the adult thing to do and squashed the childish squibbling by calling her and owning my faults but at the same time making her well aware of what she was doing. The phone conversation ended with "I'm falling asleep, ive been up since 5. I love you, and I'll see you tomorrow at 2".

Whatever man, I'm more elated about having passed whatever shit test she was throwing at me than I am about getting to spend time with her tomorrow and get laid.

All this experience is just going to fuel the shit out of SATT in 3.1 and women aren't going to know what hit them. I think I'm outcome independent right now, and it's a good place to be.

[SargeMaximus]

Funny you say that about shit tests. I can't pass them because I don't care enough to recognize them and pass them I'm just like "huh, that must have been a shit test" :/

Is that outcome independent? lol. I have no idea.

Glad you got your girl to wise up tho. I wish I had the patience to do that but I don't.

[kalmah0804]

Damn, you hit me hard when you said you were "outcome independent". I've been feeling exactly the same way the past week and a half or so. It's like with all of the OGSF, Ultra Success, and other healing/clearing scripts involved, we're just feeling so high-value and high-status that we don't need sex to be content.

Ironically, as we all know, this will (probably) help us get a lot more sex

[eternity]

@sarge: outcome independent meaning idgaf if i get laid or not. i just want a fun weekend, that's all. hanging out by a fire in the good old outdoors, with a book & a female i really enjoy spending time with. don't get me wrong, sex would obviously be a bonus.

3.0.1 is definitely penetrating the core of my being. 3.1 is gonna be THE CHRONICLES OF RIDDICKULOUS

[eternity]

The good news is she didn't bail. Now she's playing ultra hard to get and is being super womany, and seeing how far I will go to pursue her. I actually enjoy the experience of the chase, which is completely out of character for me, as before, I would give up after a while. She also knows how I feel about monogamy, so I will openly and freely pursue other girls. We ended up not camping due to an error in the reservation. But oh well. It was still a time spent well. And outcome independence is at an all time high. I listened to 3 loops of A last night so my mind can process clearing for the coming days.

Hopefully 3.1 reverses the chase role and puts her on the chasing team and me on the chased team.

She knows I want women to chase me, lol. But she flat out called me lazy because I'm a man and men are supposed to do the chasing. Honestly speaking, even 3.1 may have trouble getting her to pursue me, considering how strong of a personality she has. 3.0.1 got me out of the friend zone at least. But there's more work to be done, both internally and externally. The important thing to me is that I demonstrate that I have options, but I also don't want to disqualify her because she's a true to life amazing woman with a lot to offer. Definitely MLTR material, as described in the Unchained Man alpha2.0 book

[SargeMaximus]

So you guys didn't f*ck? Sounds like friendzone to me.

[eternity]

I just realized how bipolar my response about her has been between Friday and today. Welcome to the life of an enfp

[eternity]

So you guys didn't f*ck? Sounds like friendzone to me.

Nah, I don't see it being friendzone. I was in the friendzone before 3.0.1. this is certainly not friendzone. I just didn't divulge much details here, so I see why you think that. I escalated with her, with a positive response.

I think I know what's going on though, and she keeps wanting to friendzone me but her attraction comes in waves. It's more that she has no idea how to handle how she feels about me. Lol. But it'll change.

Even if I was still friendzoned, I know that it's not a permanent place for me to be in, so I wouldn't be upset for long over it. It's just a matter of time before "As Above, So Below" makes it so that my reality is matching the script of DMSI. In the mean time, I can (and should) focus on my own personal projects, AND pursuing other women. Y'know, fulfilling the other "7 life areas" that blackdragon talks about in unchained man. That's where my focus should be. In the mean time, DMSI will take care of the woman aspect of my life.

[SargeMaximus]

Hmm. Well, I hope you're right of course. I got a milf I wanna bang who is pretty much in the same boat. She's not sure about me, but clearly into me a bit still.

*Sigh* DMSI 3.1 can't come fast enough.

[eternity]

OMG i can't believe i forgot to report this:

I gave her a massage in the back of the van when it was dark. as she lifted her hair for me to get to her neck, I was sitting there, glancing at the back of her neck, and her blonde hair was held up on top of her head, in the dark. I felt like I was re-living an experience.

It is rule violating controversial so I posted the experience in the religion thread.

http://subliminal-talk.com/thread-7533-p...#pid154296

[eternity]

I'm definitely working through something deep. Day two of the clearing as I'm listening to A right now(so much for wanting to be on #teambloom). I feel like I'm losing something close to me. Like my best friend is dead, or someone really close to me.. I keep yawning and my eyes are tearing up and the waterworks have begun again. That nice long run of B was smooth sailing and I forgot how emotionally taxing version A was. I'm crying as I write this. I wish I knew what I am working past. Wait, no I don't. I'd rather not have to live through it, whatever it is. Something tells me that it's an attachment to that girl though. I can't dodge my feelings for ever. I wanted to run A because of the clearing. I can't help but think the path to sexual abundance is a long and grueling one. Does it have to be? Well, growth isn't always pretty. It helps to internalize the fact that this pain is going towards a greater purpose. But this pain shouldn't go in vain, either. The actions I take should be bringing positive change to my life.

[Blink]

Something tells me that it's an attachment to that girl though. I can't dodge my feelings for ever.

If you're thinking that, then it could well be.

FWIW. I've had this kind of feeling a lot with my previous girlfriend. She's an ENFP and I'm an INFJ. The connection was really strong and I'd be anxious for 2-3 days after hanging out with her during the weekend. After a while, I talked to her about the feeling, and it turns out she was in a very similar boat. The only explanation I could find online back then was separation anxiety disorder for adults.

Is she an NF by any chance? If so, that could be why you're feeling the way you are, and she could be feeling it as well.