03-23-2012, 06:08 AM
(03-21-2012, 12:56 PM)Spiral Wrote: By doing these subs... we sort of cheat the "first" phase of failures.. and then the subliminals change us to where our view on things such as failure and success change so there will be those horrible days. I do my best on my bad days to not be in other people's precense if I can help it because it usually makes me feel funny or I just bring them down with my low energy. It's tough though on those days when you need a hug. Ahh I must be doing it right now. It's been real mellow and low key for me lately but I'm riding up the roller coaster right now. I'm sure you are too.. it's been a week since you last posted.
Thanks Spiral. I actually am feeling better this week although disconnecting from the negativity of others has been a problem. I'll be in "the zone" and then when I'm interacting I take a comment too personally. It's mostly been related to this chick who I'm working with who has BPD. She can be nice but sometimes her instability pokes its head out. And I've been feeling unsure of myself quite a bit this week.
I've actually begun reading John Alexander's book again How to Become an Alpha Male, and I've noticed that during my times of heavy resistance these past few weeks I have been displaying beta-male behaviors which is quite disconcerting considering how confident and Alpha I felt two weeks ago when I thought ASC was finally working.
