Aventus's Side Quest of Life: DMSI 2.4

[chaosvrgn]

That's scary as hell. I used to fly from NC to Manhattan all the time and stay at Chelsea International Hostel. Like, at least twice a month, just to kick it for the weekend.

[Aventus45]

I wonder how V2.4 and Natural grounding will mix... Is Geodude still around?

[Aventus45]

Day 16

I'm starting to forget about the subliminal. In the sense of just setting and forgetting the sub. I'm not looking for results anymore. Started to get ideas of completely surrendering to the idea of death as in it will happen eventually. Then it shifted to surrendering to DMSI too. Maybe I'm releasing something major and it's the calm before the storm.

Had a chance to join a professional development program but I encountered tremendous amounts of resistance that was stopping me from applying. It seems like there was a part of me that was terrified of it. I had to push through it and eventuality took 2 hours to apply for.

I was talking to the people who are offering the program, whom I consider friends, and quite honestly told them about my predicament. I told him about how it took 2 hours for something simple and how some part of me is probably terrified and how I overcame it by literally pushing through the Resistance. He was shocked by the amount of time it took but he gave me bonus point for pushing through it. It may help with the interview too.

[Aventus45]

Going to change my listening to headphones trickling stream and see if I get better results.

[Aventus45]

Day 21 9/26/16

Results? Nothing I can tell. Healing is probably underway.

-I don't care too much about results anymore. I'm just making sure I play it every night and get the five loops required and then moving on with life.

-A couple of days ago I had a group interview. I completely bombed it, but I do feel better about going through it instead of making excuses and not doing anything.

-Unrelated but interesting- I was on my last set of squats, and I was tired, but then something flipped the switch inside of me. Everything in my mind and extremely focused, my body didn't feel tired at all. I ended up squatted much more explosively than before. Finishing the set like it was a warm up.This battle trace is super addictive, and I want to see if I can replicate it in different aspects of my life.

-Re-reading "the subtle art of not giving a ****" to ingrain it into my mind to reframe how I see the world. Reframing adversity into something that's good and something to conquer to get better. After this workout, I felt exhausted, and I felt better, even energized after I reframed it to something of a "better problem" in Mark's terms.

Edit: We are going to die sooner or later, and people are arguing over who is better than the other on an internet forum. Lol

[Aventus45]

enormous amounts of resistance when I'm talking to the classmate. She's like another me and I'm not attracted to her but my mind is telling me to go for it.

[Aventus45]

Day 22,

-Tore everything at the gym. I tried to replicate the focus I had yesterday. I found it briefly and it promptly lost it after my first lift.

-I have a hunch to go to my college gym even after I basically tore everything. It's probably a DMSI hunch.

-i went on a train and this Asian lady made this massive disgusted face. She then points her face toward my direction anf it happens to be on crotch level. Later she point her face towards me and gave me this big smirk before leaving.

[Aventus45]

Day 24

That hunch was a warning. I tweaked my back from over confidence in deadlifts.

-After finishing the 5 loops, I started getting strong vivid zombie nightmares. It probably dissolved a chunk of negative stuff. Maybe ill get a break through soon.

-Haven't experienced the "Sniper" effect.

-Felt a lot more carefree, especially when I was volunteering as an event photographer. I used to hide behind my camera and run and gun. Now I run and gun with a cheerfulness that opens up my subjects.

[Aventus45]

Surface thought: I feel like I need to run and finish AM6.

Context: I received a rejection from a business leadership program and I felt it. Then I'm starting to think about how I have a weaker version of the "go getter" mindset. As in " I know I have to work on a,b,c" but it's either half assed or I had no action what so ever due to fear and garbage.

I feel like I'm simply have a reaction to the rejection which is to think I need to get better for the next chance to apply. Now I'm questioning whether or not to act on this.

[Catman]

I've had to get through a lot of rejections, and problems, to be where I am in business.

Here's some advice:

Realise it isn't personal, it's simply feedback. Observe what you did wrong or that caused it, learn and adapt, and get back out there.

Don't quit this sub, all of us get that AM6 tinge, it's weird, I've had it too a few times with earlier versions of DMSI. Anyway, apply what I said, you'll come out better. Getting to the top in business, is just a process of improvement. Stay emotionally detached from your work, let the data speak for itself, and improve constantly. You'll get there.

WHY DO WE FALL, BRUCE?!

[4Kingdoms]

Surface thought: I feel like I need to run and finish AM6.

Context: I received a rejection from a business leadership program and I felt it. Then I'm starting to think about how I have a weaker version of the "go getter" mindset. As in " I know I have to work on a,b,c" but it's either half assed or I had no action what so ever due to fear and garbage.

I feel like I'm simply have a reaction to the rejection which is to think I need to get better for the next chance to apply. Now I'm questioning whether or not to act on this.

In my workplace, jobs are awarded with a bidding process through seniority. There have been times when I "knew" I would get that job only to not get it because someone came out of the woodworks and got it. I've also been accused of "taking" someone else's job through this process.

I don't know how you "feel". However, I can tell you that you will end up with something better. I've seen it happen over and over to me and even to that person that accused me of taking his job.

[Duke.Togo]

I've had to get through a lot of rejections, and problems, to be where I am in business.

Here's some advice:

Realise it isn't personal, it's simply feedback. Observe what you did wrong or that caused it, learn and adapt, and get back out there.

Don't quit this sub, all of us get that AM6 tinge, it's weird, I've had it too a few times with earlier versions of DMSI. Anyway, apply what I said, you'll come out better. Getting to the top in business, is just a process of improvement. Stay emotionally detached from your work, let the data speak for itself, and improve constantly. You'll get there.

WHY DO WE FALL, BRUCE?!

I love the Batman Begins Quote... Nicely done CatMan.

And I echo everything you said.

Aventus, stick with 2.4 and see it through. I had a lot of strange urges since running 2.4 also. Some of it good, some of it bad. I had some really, really bad days these past two days. So bad as a matter of fact that I resigned today from my work. My manager however would not accept it and tried talking me off a ledge.

I don't know what it is about this sub, but it's got a weird way of healing. I can say this much, the fact that I was willing to resign earned me a lot of respect hits from certain people, cuz apparently that takes balls. Or, as I tend to look at it rationally, it's stupidity.

It's a thin line between being ballsy and being stupid.

The point is, I think by the time you get past your hump, you'll be more alpha than you have ever been before in your life.

Also, why stop before Shannon releases 3.0. Keep at it until the next release - who knows what'll happen next.

[Aventus45]

Thanks guys. I just get really impulsive when I'm faced with rejection lol.

[Aventus45]

Day 30

Fairly uneventful week, I managed to pull my lower back muscles twice in a week so I was at home recovering.

Intense zombie dreams again.

For s***s and giggles and I was pretty horny at the time, I , started visualizing me doing sexual acts with the girl next to me, funny enough she started become more fidgety. We were watching a bunch of dark humor videos in class and she would lock eyes and laugh. At the peak, she has her hands on her critch and adjusting the bottom of her shirt while occasionally look back. It was hard to focus in the whole visualizing while responding to her iois.

Mind told me to touch her hair. I did and she freak out. I immediately thought I did something wrong. but she responded well after class.