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Aventus's AM7 Journal - Aventus45 - 03-06-2026
Stage 0
Day 0/120
Cycle 0/6 4 days on / 2 days off
Well... Looks like I am back here, its been Checks profile Almost four years since my last post, and a lot had happened.
Working and getting burned out from working job for a year then eventually getting either moving to a higher paying job to getting laid off.
The biggest net-positive to happen to me was finally getting tested for ADHD and medicated.
Now on to the intention for the Journal, Its going to be primarily my way of keeping track of my days and my cycle on and cycle off because my ass cannot for the life of me keep to a cycle. I don't know how much I want to share moving forward but I'll see where it goes.
Stage 0 Expectations
I do not know what I expect to accomplish by the end of stage 0, maybe to "Grow up"? i guess?
Maybe learn to get over the deeply entrenched emotional hangups. I effectively gave up in many ways of wanting to connect with women.
What I do know is I felt fear of letting go of my creature comforts, my coping mechanisms, the things that let me disassociate and escape. Maybe it would survive after the whole thing, and I would have a healthier relationship with it.
On another note, I genuinely don't know how I am supposed to run the stages when I am traveling abroad with my friends. I am sharing hotel rooms with my friend and I rather not fuck him up with exposure to stage 3 or something during a vacation, that would be unpleasant. Maybe I can play it over headphones or something.
RE: Aventus's AM7 Journal - Frosted - 03-06-2026
Welcome back man! Good to see you after a long while.
RE: Aventus's AM7 Journal - Aventus45 - 03-06-2026
Good to see you again.
RE: Aventus's AM7 Journal - Shannon - 03-06-2026
Welcome back. Be careful about getting the instructions followed, for all the stages. Set reminders on your calendar app if need be.
RE: Aventus's AM7 Journal - RTBoss - 03-08-2026
(03-06-2026, 05:17 PM)Aventus45 Wrote: Stage 0
Day 0/120
Cycle 0/6 4 days on / 2 days off
Well... Looks like I am back here, its been Checks profile Almost four years since my last post, and a lot had happened.
Working and getting burned out from working job for a year then eventually getting either moving to a higher paying job to getting laid off.
The biggest net-positive to happen to me was finally getting tested for ADHD and medicated.
Now on to the intention for the Journal, Its going to be primarily my way of keeping track of my days and my cycle on and cycle off because my ass cannot for the life of me keep to a cycle. I don't know how much I want to share moving forward but I'll see where it goes.
Stage 0 Expectations
I do not know what I expect to accomplish by the end of stage 0, maybe to "Grow up"? i guess?
Maybe learn to get over the deeply entrenched emotional hangups. I effectively gave up in many ways of wanting to connect with women.
What I do know is I felt fear of letting go of my creature comforts, my coping mechanisms, the things that let me disassociate and escape. Maybe it would survive after the whole thing, and I would have a healthier relationship with it.
On another note, I genuinely don't know how I am supposed to run the stages when I am traveling abroad with my friends. I am sharing hotel rooms with my friend and I rather not fuck him up with exposure to stage 3 or something during a vacation, that would be unpleasant. Maybe I can play it over headphones or something.
Haha, holy shit! Same Voodoo avatar and all! That reminds me, Garry finally released Venom gel with the tagline "Alphas will love it, betas will hate it." Lol.
Welcome back, man.
RE: Aventus's AM7 Journal - Aventus45 - 03-10-2026
Stage 0
Day 4/120
Cycle 4/6 4 days on / 2 days off
I did not anticipate how tiring this sub was going to be on my brain. Been feeling intense fatigue and needed my meds to jump start my day a little earlier.
I noticed that my addiction to visual porn has noticeably dropped this week, been reading it and it didn’t hit the same way in terms of raw chemical addiction but still an improvement. I had been meaning to try and quit porn but I hadn’t been successful but it seems easier now.
RE: Aventus's AM7 Journal - Aventus45 - 04-10-2026
Stage 0
Day 35/120
Cycle: 4 days on / 2 days off
I honestly thought this should have been a rollarcoaster like AM6 was, but the ride has been really smooth so far.
My daily schedule has change by quite a bit, I found it to be much easier to take care of my body now because I enjoy going to the gym now.
I wake up at 5:30 AM to either hit the gym before WFH or get dressed to go to work. I barely have the energy or motivation to go, but one day I just decided I really needed to make the effort to do so. After work is also a huge point of resistance, I used to be mentally exhausted and don't want to go, but now I actively try to go even if it felt like ass, and it usually does because those days are my volume days so its usually ROUGH.
I also try to catch up on sleep as well, by any means possible, even if I have to use melatonin supplements to get me to fall asleep.
I found myself to be more social in the gym, and at work.The social anxiety is slowly easing away. At the gym, I used to try and keep to myself but it costs me nothing to just say hi to the people working out.
The most of the hobbies I used for escapism have fell by the wayside, but I managed to retain one of them. I barely have time or energy to adapt to much else at this time.