Alpha Male v.6 Journal - Run #4

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Congrats on finishing the book man. Thats an amazing achievement. U seem to have great work ethic and u get shit done. Do you think shannons subs had an influence on that?

Thanks buddy. I'm certain that Shannon's subs made the difference; I was working double time, waking up really early and getting things done while using AM5.

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Maximum Healing Speed, Day 11,

Itching to start Maximum Learning Speed and get my singing voice in check.
Will eventually run DMSI.

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Maximum Healing Speed, Day 13,

Should I stop this sub after tonight? not sure.

On last Sunday, I had a woman over from a gym/club I attend; we had been talking for a while and went for sushi a couple of months ago. We played some video games, I fed her some leftovers, then put on a Netflix movie where we made out and I sucked on her perky F-cup boobies. It was pretty great.

She's coming over this Saturday, where I think that we'll seal the deal.

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Maximum Healing Speed, Day 15,

Had the lady friend over yesterday. She can't have sex for a valid reason that I won't go into (not period). I did use my fingers, I had my very first T-job (and it was great), and then she finished me on her chest.

We showered together and cuddled for a long while, watched a movie.

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Maximum Learning Speed, Day 2

Oof. Waking up has been tough these past two days.
This probably has to do with the fact that I went from one 5.5 G sub to another 5.5 G.
That's fine; I accept the consequences.

After getting out of bed, everything is fine.
I had a brief moment of recall which is indicating that this sub is kicking back on; I remembered a brief equation that I heard once the day before.

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Maximum Learning Speed, Day 6,

Still waking up very tired; thankfully, it's the weekend, so I've been able to sleep in and recover a bit.

I'm doing my daily learning habits, and it's going alright; I do want to transition out of a learning phase and into an application phase, but it is where I am now. Besides, it's only been 3 weeks since the publication of my book and the end of my 2.5 year project, so I shouldn't be complaining.

I find that my verbal statements are much more disjointed and desultory, as though my brain is rewiring and firing (and misfiring) new pathways when I speak.

I'm developing this habit of, when somebody is doing something skillful and of interest to me, I stop what I'm doing and stare at the person/video. This plays into one of the subliminal's objectives.

I'm becoming better at the guitar because I've been practicing it; I've been working away at two skills which have been daunting to me for some time; sweep picking and finger tapping patterns.

I'm also finding that when I study my language flashcards (which are based in recognizing/understanding a spoken statement without text), I'm not only catching the words, but I'm hearing the language as a whole and recognizing the sense of the sentence much more frequently.

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Maximum Learning Speed, Day 9,

I'm having better recall; I'm bringing up details of past conversations without much complication.

What felt like a struggle on the guitar was simply a result of choosing more difficult songs. I've been listening to album A from one of my favorite artists and learning their songs. I've recently focused more on album B, finding the process as difficult to learn and play their songs. But, after returning to album A, I'm noticing that it feels slow and easy to play.

I'm taking a crack at Python to start a software project that I've had in mind for the past year.

Today, I felt genuine sexual frustration that I haven't felt in a very long time. It was so overwhelming today that I'm not even sure what to do about it. It's this complete disconnect with real-life women that I'm attracted to, where I'm uncertain how to break the ice. I've done it plenty in the past, but it feels a bit different now that I'm older and know more about how women are put off by having strange men talking to them.

I've reached out to a photographer with the goal of having really good profile photos for online dating (recommended to do this). Even if online dating falls through, I have a bunch of nice photos that I can use for acting headshots and /or LinkedIn/Facebook, etc.

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Maximum Learning Speed, Day 12,

I'm experiencing 'in the moment' improvement, as in I'm learning difficult passage within an hour of practicing, experiencing continual improvement.

I went to a swing dance class/social yesterday for the first time and picked up the 8-beat move with relative ease. Still fell out of sync when the beats where too fast/slow to apply it. But it was great.