Alpha Male v.6 Journal - Run #4

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Stage 4, Day 26

Never mind; I got a pay-as-you-go phone, so I can continue my subliminals with no interruptions.

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Stage 4, Day 28.

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Stage 4, Day 31,

LOL somebody recently +1'ed my rep for my praising someone for +1'ing my rep.
Will finish the last book I had available within the day, and another book just case in. Good thing it isn't completely relevant to the book's structure.

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Stage 5, Day 7,

I took a few days off due to a cold, I finished Stage 4 and ran Maximum Immune Response. I'm better now, and I'm about a week into Stage 5.

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Stage 5, Day 21,

Some small noticeable changes. Touching my face much less.
Each day is resembling itself but slightly different. Working, then working on my book.
Update on that; I was trying to combine all the parts of my 3 books into one, but that's going to be harder than expected. I've got about 630 pages of 6x9 inches, and that's after reviewing 1/3rd of the book's content. Will probably get it down to 525-550 pages, at which point it will work at 2-3 books.

There are sizable portions of my books that were pedantic, whose point I didn't fully realize (and so just padded content), or didn't provide practical content.

I've been having a series of political 'awakenings' which have moved me much further left politically. I think that I've always been there (as I was as a teenager), but I believe that I took in a bucket of nonsense. I've avoided a lot of political commentary without trying, even though I normally reach for it. It's been strange; now that I'm out of my funk, I realize that tons of people are in the funk I once was.

I've been writing this thing for a little over 2 years; I'm very glad that it took me the time it did, if only to gain (what I consider to be) the proper perspective. I'm mildly embarrassed at some of the views I had about two years ago, not for its evil intent, for but the cover it could have given bad people to act with plausibility. Sometimes your attempts at neutrality can mask others' bad acts.

I watched a YouTube debater go up against some of the politically-based YouTubers I'd watch, and this guy would destroy their arguments and reveal how feelings-based they really were, in spite of how 'fact-based' they claimed to be.

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Stage 5, Day 28.

Zooming through my book.

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Stage 5, Day 30,

I missed a day due to being sick and throwing up. I tried to use the sleep inducer overnight, then used MIR throughout the day. Much better, given that we're 72 hours after the fact.

Will be starting Stage 6 overnight Sunday/Monday.

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Stage 6, Day 10,

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Stage 6, Day 13,

After posting on the 6th of February, I gotta say... boy, do I have a fire under my ass.

Up until now, I haven't really felt the effects of AM6. This is probably good because I've been working on my book non-stop. Since yesterday, I've felt this manic surge of motivation, largely motivated by feelings of anger and fury. I'm just tearing through my work, largely because of how pissed off I feel.

My vision for the next few years has become a bit clearer, but will involve a lot of technical learning (i.e. coding, server processes).

However, I feel incredibly drained and tired in the mornings. I can't get myself out of bed without a lot of snoozing. It sucks; I wish that I could figure out some way to have more energy throughout the day.

Once I'm done my book - which will be done (with 99% certainty) within the next 7-14 days - I'll try to find more balance in my life, enjoy some video games, eat some junk food, but ultimately become more disciplined in my everyday life.

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Stage 6, Day 18,

I'm making big strides towards finishing my book. I'm procrastinating about finishing it though.

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Stage 6, Day 21,

I'm basically 99.8% done my book.
I'm just waiting for a beta reader to give me last minute feedback about the introduction, after which I'll add a few last minute indexes.
Then, I've got to copy references from each individual chapter to the end.
Then, I have to renumber my cross-references.

I have to get my graphic designer to send me my book cover. At that point, I have a ready-to-go print version.

I'll have to create my Kindle version, too. That shouldn't be too hard.

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Stage 6, Day 32,

Alright, so I finished this subliminal program. My impression is much different this time around than the previous times. For the reasons below, I don't have similar benefits as for the past run.

- I finished my enormous 2.5 year long project. I'm very satisfied with that work. There's more re-organizing that I can do once I sit back and reflect on it. Funny enough, ideas starting pouring in once I decided that I was finally 'done'. I'm still waiting for the cover artist, but it's something that I need to follow up on.
- I feel relentless; I am instantly committed towards whatever I need to do to get my project done. Read 25 books? Done. Change a habit? I'll work on that right away.
- I'm working from the start of the day to finish, excepting a brief lunch break.

So what's next? I'll be taking about 5-7 days off, and then starting either Maximum Learning Speed or Maximum Healing Speed again. I'll be refreshing myself on the details of my field of work, and then working towards creating a piece of computer software.

However, I'm feeling as though my health is slipping; I've got this annoying feeling of languish and that I've got an underlying health issue that I don't know about. I've taken a couple of steps to figure that out. It might be a lack of sunlight, honestly; I stay indoors and we're still in the midst of our winter.

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Maximum Healing Speed, Day 7,

Doing alright. I had a cold starting Wednesday afternoon. I took Thursday off, but came back strong the next day.
Could hear it in my voice, but had no issues today.

[SaltyMeatballs]

Congrats on finishing the book man. Thats an amazing achievement. U seem to have great work ethic and u get shit done. Do you think shannons subs had an influence on that?