All that is gold does not glitter... yet! - Mateunio's Alpha Male 6 journal

[Mystic Pymp]

Yeah, that song sums up everything quite nicely.

Stage 3 Day 27

I know I've been whining a lot recently. That's why I didn't post any updates past week - those may be hard to read, but trust me they are even harder to write. I don't regret writing those, they describe well how felt and they are testament for future generations that AM6 is not emotional catwalk. And somehow I fear they will be more posts like that in the future. For now though I'm glad I fell much better and more optimistic now.

I'm no expert, but I think this dip I had for almost a month had to do with ERPHA clearing all the emotional burden I had and still have. I thought I dealt with it all during LTU run, but apparently it wasn't enough. Or maybe AM brought some changes that made deeper crap to surface? Hard to say. Anyhow now I see some changes on how I react and deal with this particular issue, and I'm glad I do.

There are still no external changes to speak about, but it's not reason to complain cause I can really see some internal changes. I feel more alpha, more decisive, mature and committed. I don't wanna talk much because I will do summary next week at the end of this stage, but things are looking good to me. Even nature seems to agree as days become longer and warmer. The only thing I wish I had at this moment is more confidence because now I'm in loop low confidence -> no external results to rise confidence -> low confidence. I hope this issue will solve itself in time though.