All that is gold does not glitter... yet! - Mateunio's Alpha Male 6 journal

[Mystic Pymp]

The man who moves a mountain begins by carrying away small stones.

Stage 1 Day 8

I have to limit my exposure time quite significantly, perhaps even bring it down to my LTU standards (listening only during sleep). It feels like there are too many thoughts running through my head, I cannot concentrate. All I can do is to kill time watching movies or browsing through the Internet. I want result, but those 18 hours/day are simply not worth it, especially since I want to get started on some projects on Monday, possibly even tomorrow.

That being said I've done some meditation and although nothing really astonishing was revealed, it helped a lot. Last couple of days I lost focus, targeted outside while inside is what's important. Change must come from within, but also into within - my surroundings are just a catalyst in the process. It's not to say that catalyst is to be ignored, quite opposite actually, without changes there real transformation will never happen. However I must focus on my endgame, and it cares only for the inside. So I should not focus on what is and what is not around me as I did past week, but look within or in the mirror and look for goals there. It's hard because will never be tangential goal, but stone after stone, gravel after gravel I will move this mountain.