Observing so weird tendencies in myself. one is RSDjeffy keeps shit real. yeah rsd and stuff may cause mindfucks and shitg, but i take what I want from it, the asshole, ruin shit kind of attitude, being in the moment present. Intent is strongly. I care to much still. to much caring sucks strongly, old patterns and behaviours yet more relaxed. perhaps the last few days do cause neediness to surface. As soon as i somewhat sink back in this shallowness, it gives a whole new perspective and confidence rush.
Im starting and suspecting girls dont know love, they rather enjoy the high. super weird stuff and pretty much bleak. Its taxing me hard these last few days, like constant mindfog going on, or some sort of neediness, worry and all other crap. I am reflecting back on how I once was in terms of savagery, and now it sucks, like being in a box/cage and what not, constant feeling tired and stuff.
I really would hate to lose my social skills and socialability.
Im starting and suspecting girls dont know love, they rather enjoy the high. super weird stuff and pretty much bleak. Its taxing me hard these last few days, like constant mindfog going on, or some sort of neediness, worry and all other crap. I am reflecting back on how I once was in terms of savagery, and now it sucks, like being in a box/cage and what not, constant feeling tired and stuff.
I really would hate to lose my social skills and socialability.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
