Clearing up more socially. Trauma work through. Platforms are a thing for me like a automatic kicking in trigger and dazing out. Wtf, instant freeze/paralyzes response.
Clear up, getting in touch with my inner core. Fuck worries. Fuck being needy, being non needy, aloof, non aloof whatever. So much toxicness that is external. I seem to go quit lots and it fucking sucks to have such hindrings going around like a fucking fortress.
I want my edge and fun back ffs. My flowing style. My momentum.
Again back on no-fap. I begin to understand why it still takes place. Its destructive.
Edit1: a re-occuring response is the "freeze out/going ice cold". As soon as something happens I dont put up with it, turning into some chernobyl meltdown scenario. As in, 'wants to be chased-> freeze out/space out/going non response'. I see clearly through the tests and webs of trying anything like the underlying matrix of it all, yet am still in a mixed bag. Text functions as a set up, in my mind im in high demand like 24/7 business entrepreneur and killing it in life. No shaming aswell. I notice im still to much effect instead of cause which sucks.
Dissonance between texting and non at all. Its confusing to an extent and fear mixes in it seems. No longer caring about angry chicks at all. Seems like im non caring till the point of stoicism and 'dropping it'
Clear up, getting in touch with my inner core. Fuck worries. Fuck being needy, being non needy, aloof, non aloof whatever. So much toxicness that is external. I seem to go quit lots and it fucking sucks to have such hindrings going around like a fucking fortress.
I want my edge and fun back ffs. My flowing style. My momentum.
Again back on no-fap. I begin to understand why it still takes place. Its destructive.
Edit1: a re-occuring response is the "freeze out/going ice cold". As soon as something happens I dont put up with it, turning into some chernobyl meltdown scenario. As in, 'wants to be chased-> freeze out/space out/going non response'. I see clearly through the tests and webs of trying anything like the underlying matrix of it all, yet am still in a mixed bag. Text functions as a set up, in my mind im in high demand like 24/7 business entrepreneur and killing it in life. No shaming aswell. I notice im still to much effect instead of cause which sucks.
Dissonance between texting and non at all. Its confusing to an extent and fear mixes in it seems. No longer caring about angry chicks at all. Seems like im non caring till the point of stoicism and 'dropping it'
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
