03-02-2017, 10:45 AM
(03-02-2017, 05:22 AM)Kol Wrote: edit; start to feeling those breakdown feelings that I had before in stage 5 I believe. its highly personal in a way, yet almost some sort of mourning what I do expereince. confusing as ****. finally acknowledging some part of me, like, some sort of long lost part of mine. Also, I dont have to be perfect at all ( ouch ), attraction = attraction. more in a way of authenticity. im starting to become human.. I'm even willingly letting it purge, wash over and indulge in this right now.
Authenticy tend to be an evolving something. Its like, as soon as I proclaim "**** the world"I get centred. Like loads of bagage just falls off from me. being actually in this world even. some connection with myself, its clear and Obvious as day. Its the authenticity thats beneath the surface that keeps piercing through the whole of garbage. again, lots of pua shit is still present.
This right here. I understand so much. Just being yourself and not giving a crap what others think. Throwing away all those feelings that make me feel like I need to censor myself or change who I am. I also have a ton of PUA shit I'm trying to wipe from my mind. Just trying to live authentically instead of some cheap caricature of what an alpha male is.
