02-16-2017, 08:47 AM
day 30
I feel confident sexual and worthy. An deeper trust in myself. Shift in attention is way more easy and I feel lots of what surfced is melting away. Also, autopilot seems to kick in more, and I clearly sense some sort of forcef9ield around me, like a separated entity, but its me. Which is great. I feel pretty much out of this world, attractive, at ease and very much aroused. had some strong urges today yet am on nofap day 15 currently, longest streak as of now.
I do realize that I'm socially already good, and that my focus and interest/inner drive is somewhat in the centre of it all, like a piercing laser. Deeper trust and trusting it all to develop along the way further.
Again, addictions drop away. Its easy to quit them. Porn, smoking, internet addiction, I am inclined to live and to follow up my goals and dreams. Been thinking of what Sarge writes about hate/anger state, and there is something about it which makes sense to me. It does set me free in other ways considering that. made me think about how its realness, and some sort of NGAF, aswell as non logical attraction on its primal level. Its what it is on a basic level.
manifestations do happen, I keep encountering it all over again each time when shit hits the fan and I accept it as a given. there is no reqason to worry and this gives a relief.
Validation seeking is slowly being purged out and thrown out of the window.
I feel confident sexual and worthy. An deeper trust in myself. Shift in attention is way more easy and I feel lots of what surfced is melting away. Also, autopilot seems to kick in more, and I clearly sense some sort of forcef9ield around me, like a separated entity, but its me. Which is great. I feel pretty much out of this world, attractive, at ease and very much aroused. had some strong urges today yet am on nofap day 15 currently, longest streak as of now.
I do realize that I'm socially already good, and that my focus and interest/inner drive is somewhat in the centre of it all, like a piercing laser. Deeper trust and trusting it all to develop along the way further.
Again, addictions drop away. Its easy to quit them. Porn, smoking, internet addiction, I am inclined to live and to follow up my goals and dreams. Been thinking of what Sarge writes about hate/anger state, and there is something about it which makes sense to me. It does set me free in other ways considering that. made me think about how its realness, and some sort of NGAF, aswell as non logical attraction on its primal level. Its what it is on a basic level.
manifestations do happen, I keep encountering it all over again each time when shit hits the fan and I accept it as a given. there is no reqason to worry and this gives a relief.
Validation seeking is slowly being purged out and thrown out of the window.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
