Embracing my more darker side. It expresses in rage, anger and violent lashing out. Its very turbulence yet I'm growing increasingly angry, intense and demanding aswell as emotionally cold in ways. My morals are also stripped aware and the short fuse is back at it. Not a clue where it will end. My thoughts turn rather extreme.
Also, I'm hellbent on individualism. Catching up at some old TVD episodes. Guess it triggers me a bit. To be dependent on externals for financials for example makes me very cocky arrogant and feeling entitled like I cant any longer. It feels undermining my growth. Also, more purging and surfacing of feelings and the roots. I dont care, even introverted perhaps but my cockiness. It seems sort like a stage. Embrace. Release pressure of it. Surface naturally.
A big thing is, Im getting angry among "friends" ( perception shift ) and it feels good. Its like a build up sequence like some few days ago. It grew somewhat more and more heavy and emotion but anger and focus remained, the rest sort of sunk in the dark. They sensed it. Strongly backing off. Perceptions are a thing aswell as someone who seem to shift perceptions easily, worldviews which is confusing. It boils down to honoring and self respect.
Big things in store for me. Soar high. Live. Always getting to new goals. Releasing myself and becoming flowing goals myself. I am the embodiment of mission and life myself. For everything is something to say, only to now run with the wolves and stand at times in pride in blood soaken fields. Embrace the animal side
edit1: I dont know what it is with this sub but I have surreal flareups, going from cold, predatory, to depressed. Its almost like a cycle and it gets really freaky when I set intent to understand myself, and this intent blends along. Like, coming in contact with my animal side, I feel my body morphing weith fangs and claws. It is slightly freaking me out. It makes me remember about my perception shifts in which I started to understand how much projection there was taking place, and how quickly some "try-out"have become dysfunctional habits. maybe its a modus of operation, maybe its some waking hallucination/lucid visualisation stuff, but it does give me one hell of a headache and makes me tired and worn down.
I also discovered negative financial beliefs, which explains my spending habits and drive.
All I see is my world into flames like some centuries old war going atround me. I feel simultaneously hightened in my senses, like a force forcing me down currently, yet slight hints of euphoria. I have a hard time looking people in the eyes, so it might be tied to inner turmoil/healing/introversion/inwards vision demand.
Also, I'm hellbent on individualism. Catching up at some old TVD episodes. Guess it triggers me a bit. To be dependent on externals for financials for example makes me very cocky arrogant and feeling entitled like I cant any longer. It feels undermining my growth. Also, more purging and surfacing of feelings and the roots. I dont care, even introverted perhaps but my cockiness. It seems sort like a stage. Embrace. Release pressure of it. Surface naturally.
A big thing is, Im getting angry among "friends" ( perception shift ) and it feels good. Its like a build up sequence like some few days ago. It grew somewhat more and more heavy and emotion but anger and focus remained, the rest sort of sunk in the dark. They sensed it. Strongly backing off. Perceptions are a thing aswell as someone who seem to shift perceptions easily, worldviews which is confusing. It boils down to honoring and self respect.
Big things in store for me. Soar high. Live. Always getting to new goals. Releasing myself and becoming flowing goals myself. I am the embodiment of mission and life myself. For everything is something to say, only to now run with the wolves and stand at times in pride in blood soaken fields. Embrace the animal side
edit1: I dont know what it is with this sub but I have surreal flareups, going from cold, predatory, to depressed. Its almost like a cycle and it gets really freaky when I set intent to understand myself, and this intent blends along. Like, coming in contact with my animal side, I feel my body morphing weith fangs and claws. It is slightly freaking me out. It makes me remember about my perception shifts in which I started to understand how much projection there was taking place, and how quickly some "try-out"have become dysfunctional habits. maybe its a modus of operation, maybe its some waking hallucination/lucid visualisation stuff, but it does give me one hell of a headache and makes me tired and worn down.
I also discovered negative financial beliefs, which explains my spending habits and drive.
All I see is my world into flames like some centuries old war going atround me. I feel simultaneously hightened in my senses, like a force forcing me down currently, yet slight hints of euphoria. I have a hard time looking people in the eyes, so it might be tied to inner turmoil/healing/introversion/inwards vision demand.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
