For me it was escapism with a trail of destruction as a result of it. Im coming to terms with it as a way of empowerment and acceptation now. AM is great.
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Im becoming alligned and congrugent with my subconscious through sinking into it, thus becoming a thriving force. The inspiration for many business ideas run freely and fully and I feel assured. First run it was more abstract and felt 'needed' it now is turning into self expressive self validation. GSF is clearly being cleaned up around. New targets are being dealt with. Also the thought of working with people and not for them. I have this innane hunger to capture the throne by simply taking over. Very intense as of now. I seriously want to call some people now to set up some appointments and stuff. Its very satisfying. Do what needs to be done, harmonious with auto pilot.
Had some strong resistance this evening which seems to pass. Its not fully cleared yet. Surrounding criticism while those people where game-less to start with. It still stirrs me up slightly like there is a lake of anger present. I didnt let myself experience it due some belief of 'dont show as it is being affected'. If shown or not, there is still an being affected! So why not immerse in the anger for a bit and feel it.
Writing makes me very present. I cant stay at home or start to get depressed and frustrated. I have a hunger for socializing. Its a vital part.
Woke up with a solid CEO sense of status and value towards myself. Still have it, diving into shark tank. At this point as it goes, business becomes more abundant and will be easy to start new ones. The confusion is lessening and clearing in this area. Its no longer so dissonant. Its more expressive. Frankly reading business material is more of a doubt creating like I know how what when and why and ai get allergic to it as if I force myself. My listemning and resonance is off the charts. Also, letting people close is somethign deep ingrained and I'm pretty sure where that comes from and what those walls originate from.
Time is no longer to be wasted. Not doing what needs to be done depresses me.
Life is good.
Time for coffee.
Writing down some goals to attain. All to only pass on. Im the first dime. My work can all be marketed. Why not raise this empire RIGHT NOW? Damn my mind is exploding.
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Im becoming alligned and congrugent with my subconscious through sinking into it, thus becoming a thriving force. The inspiration for many business ideas run freely and fully and I feel assured. First run it was more abstract and felt 'needed' it now is turning into self expressive self validation. GSF is clearly being cleaned up around. New targets are being dealt with. Also the thought of working with people and not for them. I have this innane hunger to capture the throne by simply taking over. Very intense as of now. I seriously want to call some people now to set up some appointments and stuff. Its very satisfying. Do what needs to be done, harmonious with auto pilot.
Had some strong resistance this evening which seems to pass. Its not fully cleared yet. Surrounding criticism while those people where game-less to start with. It still stirrs me up slightly like there is a lake of anger present. I didnt let myself experience it due some belief of 'dont show as it is being affected'. If shown or not, there is still an being affected! So why not immerse in the anger for a bit and feel it.
Writing makes me very present. I cant stay at home or start to get depressed and frustrated. I have a hunger for socializing. Its a vital part.
Woke up with a solid CEO sense of status and value towards myself. Still have it, diving into shark tank. At this point as it goes, business becomes more abundant and will be easy to start new ones. The confusion is lessening and clearing in this area. Its no longer so dissonant. Its more expressive. Frankly reading business material is more of a doubt creating like I know how what when and why and ai get allergic to it as if I force myself. My listemning and resonance is off the charts. Also, letting people close is somethign deep ingrained and I'm pretty sure where that comes from and what those walls originate from.
Time is no longer to be wasted. Not doing what needs to be done depresses me.
Life is good.
Time for coffee.
Writing down some goals to attain. All to only pass on. Im the first dime. My work can all be marketed. Why not raise this empire RIGHT NOW? Damn my mind is exploding.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
