AM6 second coming

[Kol]

Having some depression going on and it sucks. Im my mind im this highly sexual guy and even resonate with agressive julien blanc game and frame, and I dont care if people hate me or nything, I gladly take that shit to a new extreme, yet, today its just depression session. Chatted some women up, pierced her eyes with mine and she kept engaging, only to have check out girl engage closeluy afetrwards, maybe its so sort of resentment expressing itself in some shut down like "wtf girl, i dont want you, gross". Its just not me to be this shut off, after having a mental vision of an girl fucking her anal and just animalistic. Its like, I want but some inhibitions keep me off. Makes me think about last couple of years wasted and some shit. really tempted to burn all the safety nets and fall backs, and to go fully selfmade. pushing all away. It seems to be tied to my sexuality aswell, re-engaging perhaps? idk. something feels off, like having this myriad of things going around, holding back expressing this dominant get who and what I want whenever I want, like some strong mis-allignment and locks that just dont click.