day 18
I notice how sex has a pretty dominant role in my mind/life yet was oblivious to a certain point. Guess some resistance is being removed. Intention awareness.
attitude gets definitely more bold. Also having strong urges to run Sm3 and having an sort of craving to an sort of damon salvatore on steroids kind of vibe, mysterious, dark, seductive, no bs, just sex incarnated and being hypnotic through gaze and drawing in through bodylanguage.
went out in a more serious not so much social mood and this one girl at the checkout was very submissive in her bodylanguage, blond, nice tits, generally sexual vibe around her and probably knowing it. looking constantly down, opening me. feels weird to write about it but my bodylanguage feels pretty much mindblowing. its the kind of mood sarge has written about in his journal, atleast, i imagine it being that.
feels weird to write about girls, will probably refrain from this now, also an growing distate towards beta behaviour, feel like manning up atm, weeding out all kind of stuff and setting boundaries and standards. aswell as having the upperhand in things through sheer dominance and presence
notice i care less about healing at all
I notice how sex has a pretty dominant role in my mind/life yet was oblivious to a certain point. Guess some resistance is being removed. Intention awareness.
attitude gets definitely more bold. Also having strong urges to run Sm3 and having an sort of craving to an sort of damon salvatore on steroids kind of vibe, mysterious, dark, seductive, no bs, just sex incarnated and being hypnotic through gaze and drawing in through bodylanguage.
went out in a more serious not so much social mood and this one girl at the checkout was very submissive in her bodylanguage, blond, nice tits, generally sexual vibe around her and probably knowing it. looking constantly down, opening me. feels weird to write about it but my bodylanguage feels pretty much mindblowing. its the kind of mood sarge has written about in his journal, atleast, i imagine it being that.
feels weird to write about girls, will probably refrain from this now, also an growing distate towards beta behaviour, feel like manning up atm, weeding out all kind of stuff and setting boundaries and standards. aswell as having the upperhand in things through sheer dominance and presence
notice i care less about healing at all
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
