AM6 Journal

[AlphaScorpio]

interesting soulfly yes I have had 2 dreams about my ex and a few times where I have felt emotional about her for no reason.

Day 9 stage 1 - total exposure 132hours

Still got the usual depression been noticing how I have very little boundaries with other people and that I feel bad when I set a boundary or don't get other people s approval... shannon when does the boundaries programming start? stage 2?

This stage just makes me feel pretty shit but I know that it's important

[Shannon]

There's a little in Stage 1, but it gets more aggressive in stages 2, 3, 4

[AlphaScorpio]

Good I'm gonna need it!
This evening I went to the gym with a newish friend who I'm getting to know. We get on and have a decent time at the gym I feel pretty chill on the whole around him, he sometimes talks too much and I wish I could tell him to shut up sometimes lol but he does it out of anxiety I think... I met his friends a few days ago when we went out for a drink and a club or two and they are cool as well.

Today I realized that I need to start focusing on the things I want instead of dwelling on all the crappy stuff in my life... this was a good realization. possibly AM6?

With women I'm starting to think about not bothering focusin on women and wanting them all the time as well as focusin on the lack of women in my life cause I do this quite a lot. I do want to improve upon my attitude towards women cause I feel sometimes it's a little sexist/low respect and ultimately the only person I'm not respecting is myself.

[AlphaScorpio]

Day 11 - stage 1 total exposure time - 143 hours 20mins

Today my mood has been much more stable the depression seems to have gone for today.

Feeling more grounding like I have a quiet drive to follow the path to alpha malehood that's the only way I can put it lol

been reading stop giving a fuck that geodude recommended have finished the first part of the book and it's aweosme it'll definately be a book that I re-read several times in the future.

I'm excited as well I still can't believe it's only been 11 days since I started I haven't noticed anything MASSIVE but I just feel different underneath and I know for sure the sub is doing something but I can't put my finger on it... subtle at this point

[Darwinn]

I know what you mean man, about just feeling different underneath. I've almost felt bad just because I haven't had any depression yet (assuming this is a good indicator that it's working) but somehow I just feel stable, even though things aren't going great personally I feel it in my not being overly worried and just being able to enjoy being in the moment, whilst being excited about where this will take me over the next year and the path it will set me on for life.

Interested in this book, think I'll have to pick it up.

[MJ1]

been reading stop giving a **** that geodude recommended have finished the first part of the book and it's aweosme it'll definately be a book that I re-read several times in the future.

I'm excited as well I still can't believe it's only been 11 days since I started I haven't noticed anything MASSIVE but I just feel different underneath and I know for sure the sub is doing something but I can't put my finger on it... subtle at this point

what's the book's name?

keep it up man.

[AlphaScorpio]

jake - stop giving a fu ck

[Benjamin]

I got that book ages ago and I actually read it again last week.. it gave me some good ideas of stuff to work on and work on releasing. It's a shame he doesn't really go into how to release in it, I just know that from studying Sedona Method which some of his stuff is based on.

[Fonzy3]

Day 11 - stage 1 total exposure time - 143 hours 20mins

Today my mood has been much more stable the depression seems to have gone for today.

Feeling more grounding like I have a quiet drive to follow the path to alpha malehood that's the only way I can put it lol

been reading stop giving a **** that geodude recommended have finished the first part of the book and it's aweosme it'll definately be a book that I re-read several times in the future.

I'm excited as well I still can't believe it's only been 11 days since I started I haven't noticed anything MASSIVE but I just feel different underneath and I know for sure the sub is doing something but I can't put my finger on it... subtle at this point

Hey man, try to find the root of the depression (where it feels the worst, in your head). Tap on that then come out. Guarantee, you'll feel better after. It's a liberating feeling once you release that.

We can all tell the program is making changes on you. Keep it up .

Thanks

Fonzy

[AlphaScorpio]

Day 13 - Total Exposure 158 hours

Unfortunately last night I missed out on my exposure time I had the meditation running all night in a loop so my brain is frazzled lol

I am listening to it now to make up some lost time.

One thing I am noticing for absolute sure starting AM6 is my desire to go to the gym and go hardcore on it... I swear to god I'm wanting to get involved in the gym way more than before this sub.
I did start going before the sub but I wasn't planning on being dedicated but now... I am definitely motivated for it.

That's all for now

[jonathan4all]

You are doing pretty well AlphaScorpio.. happy to see you
in tune now

[Geodude]

I got that book ages ago and I actually read it again last week.. it gave me some good ideas of stuff to work on and work on releasing. It's a shame he doesn't really go into how to release in it, I just know that from studying Sedona Method which some of his stuff is based on.

Use FasterEFT with Sedona principles and you have a devastating combo.

[AlphaScorpio]

Day 15 - Stage 1 - Total exposure time - 180 hours

Had an interesting dream last night

My grandad was giving me a piggyback down this street that I have lots of nostalgia of by their old house near the seaside, I felt alot of masculine energy in this dream almost like a role model figure like I was this little boy and my grandad was a rock solid alpha male. I felt very safe and secure.

Next thing I know I'm walking up this beach path that goes into a forest the path was sandy and hard to walk on.

Next thing I know theres loads of men and boys who start walking beside me and infront of me towards this forest and I'm part of a big group.

Suddenly I turn behind me and see a police car so I whisper to the nearest guy we need to go theres police...So then we all start breaking into a sprint up this beach path towards the forest to get away from the police. I try to run as fast as I can but I lag behind because my feet wouldnt let me run fast was wearing slippers in the sand for some reason lol. and I eventually just say "fuck it" and turn around to face the police who were chasing me on foot. As I turn around I see two police dogs run at me fast as fuck but I feel no fear whatsoever and stand my ground with my hands up in the air to surrender thinking "come on get on with it I'm owning up I haven't done anything wrong" The two dogs charge towards me and jump at me trying to bite at my arms but I don't move whatsoever and they just fall off me and don't attack me again. Then the two police come up with pistols and I see that they are two women and when they say "YOU ARE UNDER ARREST" I laughed then they ask me why did I stop I said "Well I was wearing slippers and I couldn't be bothered to run anymore" with a no fucks given smirk attitude... the two women (who were kinda hot) burst out laughing in some kind of flirty nature and I lie on the sand and they lay next to me and we start joking around...all the other men and boys had gone off into the forest and I didnt see them again

weird as fuck dream, pretty interesting

[Psiklou]

thats a cool one