Resistance is back. Rage / Irritation based. It's that "fuck the world, I'll do as I please" feeling. No desire to really talk to anyone, don't even want to work on my business. I kinda just wanna play video games all day and watch Hulu. Won't though -- I've got some serious momentum and I want to see this through. I'll probably hit the gym / boxing tonight, if anything other than to get out and test the aura a bit... and also beat the hell out of the punching bags.
Had some violent dreams last night that I don't really remember. I know they're related to today's mood, because I do remember screaming something along the lines of, "you don't fucking control me," to some entity in the dream. Oh, and driving a sports car really fast. Oddly enough, even though the dream was violent, I seemed... to enjoy it?
Was just at the store grabbing shipping supplies. The same clerk that I've mentioned before, Monica, started beaming and waved as I came in. Got some hard, long stares from a Latina manager that worked there, but I think that bitch was watching me to see if I was going to steal something. How the hell would I get away with stealing big ass boxes, woman? Why would I risk my freedom over that? I felt like bopping her in the head with a roll of bubble wrap, but whatever.
Everyone I talk to seems to be over-accomodating. This aura definitely has status. However, manifestations are down compared to v2.3 (my Tinder and OkCupid accounts were popping) and now, everything's dying off even though I'm being more dominant in my day to day dealings. Dunno if there's a lot of sexual in it. Dzemoo and Sick may have been right -- perhaps v2.3 is that much more sexual. Or, maybe I'm not paying attention to IOIs like I used to. I just seem to be gravitating between apathy for women and downright disdain. I almost deleted all my dating apps, which would effectively cut me off from all women, considering I live in a town with a fucking population of 1700, and I definitely ain't getting involved with these THOTS. Whatever. Just gonna let the healing do it's thing for awhile. Enjoy my solitude.
Posting is becoming a chore. Feels like I'm writing the same shit over and over and I'm wondering if anyone's even getting anything out of it. But, that's not up to me to decide, so I'll be a good tester and keep writing, even if it's drivel that ain't worth shat.
So, yeah... hope ya'll have a better day, full of squirting pussies and stuff.
Had some violent dreams last night that I don't really remember. I know they're related to today's mood, because I do remember screaming something along the lines of, "you don't fucking control me," to some entity in the dream. Oh, and driving a sports car really fast. Oddly enough, even though the dream was violent, I seemed... to enjoy it?
Was just at the store grabbing shipping supplies. The same clerk that I've mentioned before, Monica, started beaming and waved as I came in. Got some hard, long stares from a Latina manager that worked there, but I think that bitch was watching me to see if I was going to steal something. How the hell would I get away with stealing big ass boxes, woman? Why would I risk my freedom over that? I felt like bopping her in the head with a roll of bubble wrap, but whatever.
Everyone I talk to seems to be over-accomodating. This aura definitely has status. However, manifestations are down compared to v2.3 (my Tinder and OkCupid accounts were popping) and now, everything's dying off even though I'm being more dominant in my day to day dealings. Dunno if there's a lot of sexual in it. Dzemoo and Sick may have been right -- perhaps v2.3 is that much more sexual. Or, maybe I'm not paying attention to IOIs like I used to. I just seem to be gravitating between apathy for women and downright disdain. I almost deleted all my dating apps, which would effectively cut me off from all women, considering I live in a town with a fucking population of 1700, and I definitely ain't getting involved with these THOTS. Whatever. Just gonna let the healing do it's thing for awhile. Enjoy my solitude.
Posting is becoming a chore. Feels like I'm writing the same shit over and over and I'm wondering if anyone's even getting anything out of it. But, that's not up to me to decide, so I'll be a good tester and keep writing, even if it's drivel that ain't worth shat.
So, yeah... hope ya'll have a better day, full of squirting pussies and stuff.