Went to a friends last night for new years.
Has anyone noticed on OGSF v2 at times a lack of respect from some people? It's weird, I don't know if it could be the difference between DRS and the grounding shield or what it is.
It was the same place I went for christmas night, and I was fairly comfortable and talking to everyone and talking alot in the group and felt good, last night fairly comfortable but a little awkward at times. Then a guy who's meant to be my friend, well he's dating another friend but i've hung out with him enough in the group i'd have called him partly a friend.. i've never had this from him before but he suddenly started talking shit and having a go at me. Telling me i'm weird, that I come out with weird stuff, then stuff like "imagine anyone being in a relationship with you with your weird shit" and other things, way past banter and insulting. I started to shut down a bit and get annoyed, but also found myself not able to be assertive, as really i'm not usually dealing with this shit anymore, all the people i've hung around in the last few years are never like this, and are positive and encouraging so it took me by surprise. It's mainly thinking about it after (today) that I realized how fucked up his behaviour was.
After a few times I said some things back, kind of giving him shit back but not strongly enough. And today i've been thinking that I don't even want to be around this guy again. Partly pissed off at myself for not being assertive, but also realizing that he obviously has some issue. I was wondering if it's that I am so comfortable in the group, talking alot, people listening to me and such and he just got insecure in the end. Cos my personality is the same as every other time i've hung out with him and he's never done this shit before.
Weird that this is happening when I again start being social again and plan to organize some get togethers, and also how earlier in the day I had alot of intensity and feelings of rejection around girls and maybe I was also partly showing that in my energy so low quality people try to take advantage of that.
I'm thinking of just organizing the outing I had planned with friends who are positive and supportive and have never done shit like this, even if it's friends I haven't seen for a while. Sadly this excludes my other friend who I met him through (his girlfriend) who has always been positive and good to me.. and maybe some others in the group cos it would be like "oh why didn't you invite him" possibly. But in a matter of a few hours he's gone from someone I enjoyed being around and always got along well with to losing alot of respect for him and thinking he's a fuckhead and completely untrustworthy, as people who do this usually are.
I've noticed this lack of respect from some people in some situations on OGSF v2, I don't remember it from V1 which is what made me think of the different shields. But then also weirdly I have better interactions with certain people, like when i'm getting served in shops.
Another thing that I don't like, that I can only attribute to something that OGSF v2 has lead to.. i'm assuming my motivation for some things was due to fear. I've lost alot of energy and motivation for working out, it just isn't seeming to be interesting.. same with martial arts, and my teaching classes (currently just a womans self protection class) i'm just not keen for it, and even finding it harder to think of planning sessions, like something shifted and made it harder to access the mindset and such needed, possibly due to trauma healing and working on fears.
It's weird but my mindset around working out and training has been weak recently, like usually my mindset would be "no matter how I feel i'm doing my workout" wheras this week my last week 'on' before having a week off working out to recover, I felt low energy and didn't do the normal workouts, just did stretching. That doesn't lead to results, sure i've had to listen to my body more in recent times, but it can go too far in the weak mindset way which doesn't lead to positive things.
I've spent a few hours today revisiting how I went towards my goals in 2023 and what I can do with them in 2024. Looking at it logically, money is definately the priority. Not necessarily the first priority goal so it is inseperatable from earning more money, but without money and a consistent good income I can't achieve my priority goal. Part of not going for the goal is fear, alot of fear.. but if there wasn't fear then the logistics of it would still be held back by lack of money.
Has anyone noticed on OGSF v2 at times a lack of respect from some people? It's weird, I don't know if it could be the difference between DRS and the grounding shield or what it is.
It was the same place I went for christmas night, and I was fairly comfortable and talking to everyone and talking alot in the group and felt good, last night fairly comfortable but a little awkward at times. Then a guy who's meant to be my friend, well he's dating another friend but i've hung out with him enough in the group i'd have called him partly a friend.. i've never had this from him before but he suddenly started talking shit and having a go at me. Telling me i'm weird, that I come out with weird stuff, then stuff like "imagine anyone being in a relationship with you with your weird shit" and other things, way past banter and insulting. I started to shut down a bit and get annoyed, but also found myself not able to be assertive, as really i'm not usually dealing with this shit anymore, all the people i've hung around in the last few years are never like this, and are positive and encouraging so it took me by surprise. It's mainly thinking about it after (today) that I realized how fucked up his behaviour was.
After a few times I said some things back, kind of giving him shit back but not strongly enough. And today i've been thinking that I don't even want to be around this guy again. Partly pissed off at myself for not being assertive, but also realizing that he obviously has some issue. I was wondering if it's that I am so comfortable in the group, talking alot, people listening to me and such and he just got insecure in the end. Cos my personality is the same as every other time i've hung out with him and he's never done this shit before.
Weird that this is happening when I again start being social again and plan to organize some get togethers, and also how earlier in the day I had alot of intensity and feelings of rejection around girls and maybe I was also partly showing that in my energy so low quality people try to take advantage of that.
I'm thinking of just organizing the outing I had planned with friends who are positive and supportive and have never done shit like this, even if it's friends I haven't seen for a while. Sadly this excludes my other friend who I met him through (his girlfriend) who has always been positive and good to me.. and maybe some others in the group cos it would be like "oh why didn't you invite him" possibly. But in a matter of a few hours he's gone from someone I enjoyed being around and always got along well with to losing alot of respect for him and thinking he's a fuckhead and completely untrustworthy, as people who do this usually are.
I've noticed this lack of respect from some people in some situations on OGSF v2, I don't remember it from V1 which is what made me think of the different shields. But then also weirdly I have better interactions with certain people, like when i'm getting served in shops.
Another thing that I don't like, that I can only attribute to something that OGSF v2 has lead to.. i'm assuming my motivation for some things was due to fear. I've lost alot of energy and motivation for working out, it just isn't seeming to be interesting.. same with martial arts, and my teaching classes (currently just a womans self protection class) i'm just not keen for it, and even finding it harder to think of planning sessions, like something shifted and made it harder to access the mindset and such needed, possibly due to trauma healing and working on fears.
It's weird but my mindset around working out and training has been weak recently, like usually my mindset would be "no matter how I feel i'm doing my workout" wheras this week my last week 'on' before having a week off working out to recover, I felt low energy and didn't do the normal workouts, just did stretching. That doesn't lead to results, sure i've had to listen to my body more in recent times, but it can go too far in the weak mindset way which doesn't lead to positive things.
I've spent a few hours today revisiting how I went towards my goals in 2023 and what I can do with them in 2024. Looking at it logically, money is definately the priority. Not necessarily the first priority goal so it is inseperatable from earning more money, but without money and a consistent good income I can't achieve my priority goal. Part of not going for the goal is fear, alot of fear.. but if there wasn't fear then the logistics of it would still be held back by lack of money.